I have a large Han request, don’t feel pressured if too much! Reader used to be a smuggler and close with Han, but she joins the rebellion. She volunteers to go on the Rogue One mission, so she decides to meet with Han to tell him it is probably the last time he will see her (she knows it is suicide, angst!). After the mission, she is the last survivor of Rogue One and she reunites with Han during or after episode 4. There is a love confession relating to how traumatized she is. fluff at end?
Your relationship with Han was….complicated. You were friends, mostly, sometimes more and sometimes less, but you always found your way back to each other. Sometimes it was totally on accident, sometimes it was a planned rendez vous, but whichever it was, it was always interesting. You’d grown up on the streets of Corellia, but fate, and desire, had pulled you two different ways the older you got. But somehow you still managed to make time for each other. Perhaps that was just the way of the galaxy, the force, always working exactly as it needed to.
But this time, you had requested to see him, a fact that surprised you both. But, as always, he had agreed to meet with you, not questioning your motive. Naturally, you’d agreed to meet in a small, crowded cantina, in a small back water planet where no one would find you. Cassian had been questioned you mercilessly, wondering why you needed the night off, but Jyn had been on our side, telling him to lighten up, and let you enjoy one little outing. Eventually, he gave up and you left without another word to meet Han.
The evening had an air of finality when as you stepped into the crowded spot; it was funny in a way, because back at the base, all eyes were normally on you and your small group, but here no one spared as you much as a quick glance. It was a welcome change for once. Spying Han at a booth near the back, you quickly walked over to him, a smile spreading across his features as he realized it was you. Your favorite beverage was already placed there, waiting for you.
“Hey,” he gave you a lopsided grin as you slid into the booth. Your heart fluttered at the familiar sight and a sense of relief and relaxation settled over you. You felt more calm than you had in a long time, and it was a welcome change from how the nerves that had been ever present for the last few weeks.
“Hey,” you pulled your drink towards you and took a long sip, letting the taste coat your mouth before swallowing it down. One last minute of normalcy before everything was going to change, “it’s good to see you, Han.”
“You too,” he nudged your leg gently under the table with his, trying to get your attention. You looked up and met his warm eyes, suddenly feeling yourself getting choked up, “hey, what’s going on? Is everything okay?”
“Yeah,” you sniffled slightly as you nodded and sat back, letting out a long sigh. Han seemed like he didn’t quite believe you, instead waiting for you to continue you and say something else. You paused for a moment, drumming your fingers along the stick table top, “um, Han…this is just…this is probably the last time I’ll see you.”
He let out a small laugh as he watched, trying to figure out why you were being so dramatic. You’d always had a flair for drama, but never anything like this. When you didn’t return the laugh, or even a flicker of a smile, he stopped, a concerned look sweeping features, “wait…what’s…are you serious?”
“Mhmm,” you managed to squeak out, a small, pathetic sound that caused him to reached over the table take your hand in his, “I just…can’t get…I had to see you, Han.”
“Can you tell me what’s going on?” he asked softly as you laced your fingers through his and gave them a tight squeeze, “anything?”
“I’m sorry,” you said quietly, “I didn’t want to…bring this all on you, but I had to let you know. I just wanted to say goodbye. I couldn’t not see you.”
“N-no,” his voice was shaky as he tried to figure out what to do, what to say if anything, he could do to change your mind, “you can’t-”
“I have to, Han,” he said as you just shook your head, “it’s not a choice-”
“Everything is a choice!” he slammed his fist on the table, getting a few looks from the people nearby. You raised and eyebrow and shook your head at him. He’s known what you had signed up for when you were first recruited by Cassian. He knew, you knew, everything knew. Your hatred towards the Empire had ever been a secret and now it was coming to a head.
“Well this is the choice I’m making,” you insisted, “I have to do this. I can’t not. We always knew it could lead to this, Han. This is…if we succeed then this is huge. It could be everything we’ve been needing.”
“So this is it?” he asked quietly as you nodded, biting your bottom lip slightly, knowing that the odds were definitely not in your favor. But you’d known that from the start, it was like an unspoken truth. But one you all accepted.
“Yeah,” you wiped away a few tears and gave him a gentle smile, “so let’s just make this fun tonight. We’re not even going to think about tomorrow or anything else beyond that. Nothing matters but here and now.”
“Okay,” he agreed quietly, “look, I have something to tell-”
“Shh,” you reached over and put a hand on his lips to shush him, “it’s okay, Han. Let’s just have fun tonight, in the here and now, just like we always do.”
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