What cards life has dealt has been shit. Death deals a greater punch. Which of the two are better? Liberty has the scales of both on lock. How they could be leveled and even is beyond me.
Tonight I wish there was something I could do to make the ache in my heart go away but I cannot be soothed and I cannot be consoled. The world in in unrest and my soul feels sickened. Physical touch is feeling like a past memory dying to resurface.
My thoughts feel like they are way too toxic to utter. Here is my place to regurgitate and leave it aside. My words are like weeks old trash stuck in the ground along a highway flower bed and unseen by the naked eye from the road. I wish to scream. I wish to be held. The things I want to do and the feelings I have are colliding with one another.
I need arms around me badly. I need my tears to stop. I wish I had him here to hold me while I could cry and scream. Would it help? Fuck yes it would. He isn’t here. Will he ever be? I’m losing hope and faith in small increments. When with they be back?











