Kaleidoscope Sky

☁️personal blog where i rant about mental health and everything in between ☁️

[thekaleidoscopesky]

i can see you on my skin

like crystals glistening

and im hoping you can heal me like them

[thekaleidoscopesky]

maybe it’s love

maybe it’s us

maybe you’re everything I want

but baby you’re no

good for my soul

i can’t help but lose control

my emotions

overflow

when they have no where 

else to go

[thekaleidoscopesky]

Most of my relationships

I was looking for a daddy

Wanna be babied

But I’m not a baby anymore

Done giving up a piece of me

To fit into somebody's fantasy

I’m sunshine and the moon

In bits and pieces

Not a fool

Some dumb little princess

Im no longer easy to use

So I’m useless to you

but I’ve never felt so good

[thekaleidoscopesky]

you wanna be with a star want the shine on you im not your star im the moon don’t want the spotlight wish we could hibernate live somewhere in the mountains hideaway

[thekaleidoscopesky]

the butterfly starship

My starship changes colors

To suit my mood

She’s kind of weird

But lovely

The way her wings move

And I’m a bit jealous

Of how free she seems

She travels to places

Most have never been

Although, I’ve never stepped a foot inside

She’s a beautiful piece of art

Waiting for me

 Til im ready

For my life to start

My starship, she flies

higher than the clouds in the sky

And when she comes back down

She never dims her light

Cause she’s alive and she’s unafraid

She’s patient and she’s kind to me

But I don’t think I’m willing to listen yet

To the wisdom she has for me next

My starship says she’s just like me

But I beg to differ, I’m not even half of she

She tells me “I’m just you with wings”

And I have the power to change everything

But in my head I cannot fathom

A world where I have all I ever imagined

Still she opens her doors

Tells me to come inside

“You’ve spent too much of your life, trying to hide”

“But I’m scared,” I say

Not knowing what’s in store

She tells me “If you open your heart

the universe will give you so much more”

Your path is bigger, and greater than you know

“Don’t dim your light, so others feel comfortable

We’re all on this journey big and small

Connected as humans, cosmically enthralled

By every changing moment

We create our destiny

You need to see yourself

Through the same eyes I use to see”

So I take a deep breath

And I step inside

To my beautiful starship

My butterfly,

And this magical feeling of love

overtakes me,

Love for all people

And love for myself

Even love for the people,

Who put me through hell

Throughout all my healing,

My starship gave me peace

And she only opened

Because I finally accepted me,

You see, my starship was right

All of this time

You can’t live a happy life

If you’re living a lie

And she was always part of me

Hidden inside

I changed my colors

To suit all the moods

I’m kind of weird

But lovely

My wings finally move

I’m not at all jealous

Because now I am free

I travel to places

Deep inside of me

Places where no one

Has ever been

Places where I can be

Exactly who I am

A beautiful piece of art

And I’ve always been that way

But I was waiting for my life to start

When that power was always within me

 Now I take off in my starship

To the great unknown

The life I knew before me

Completely gone

But I am ready for this chapter

The one where I live authentically,

And it all came to life

When I realized

All along

My butterfly starship was me

[thekaleidoscopesky]

she makes friends with the night sky seeing herself in the night sky she talks to god and asks for signs not sure what’s the right time so many 111′s and 222′s trying to make a wave in the big U they say your purpose is divine and no time is the wrong time

[thekaleidoscopesky]

the ocean tide is high and i can see through smokey, moonlit air you’re staring right at me and maybe it’s the weed but i’ve never been so happy

[thekaleidoscopesky]

numb

your favorite version of me

is the one that i am

when i don’t feel a thing