The Little Crack

The place where I reveal all my cracks in my life even if it was just a little crack.

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Drip drop + hq 😊😊😊 

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“Hello, I’m Wanna One’s Ong Seongwoo. not hong seongwoo, ong seongwoo. not eun seongwoo, ong seongwoo. not ong seongwoon, Ong Seongwoo.”

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Do people live in circles today? No. They live in boxes. They wake up every morning in a box of their bedrooms because a box next to them started making beeping noises to tell them it was time to get up. They eat their breakfast out of a box and then they throw that box away into another box. Then they leave the box where they live and get into another box with wheels and drive to work, which is just another big box broken into little cubicle boxes where a bunch of people spend their days sitting and staring at the computer boxes in front of them. When the day is over, everyone gets into the box with wheels again and goes home to the house boxes and spends the evening staring at the television boxes for entertainment. They get their music from a box, they get their food from a box, they keep their clothing in a box, they live their lives in a box. Break out of the box! This is not the way humanity lived for thousands of years.

Elizabeth Gilbert, The Last American Man (via wordsnquotes)

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I don't understand how people can smile all day long but cry themselves to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get it back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without. How even though you know something is the best for you but it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their loves just because it's easier than working things out. #complicated #howcantheyrun #howtosolveifyourun #easiertocutthantosolve (at Serdang Hospital)

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Community Social Responsibility 2016

After my last paper of my first semester, I had a Community Service Responsibility (CSR) or better known as Operasi Khidmat Masyarakat (OPKIM). OPKIM was held in Felda Lurah Bilut for 4 days and 3 nights. This program was held to provide benefits to the community of one’s areas, to help the students learn what information will be integrate to their studies and reflect on the differences they are making in a society.

What I Learnt In #OPKIMFLB2016's thread.

1. Patient. It is defined as the act of holding on to your anger from bursting out. It isn’t only when you need to prevent from doing wrongful action to someone but you also need to stop yourself from saying unnecessary things to them. Let it go and let it be. If you say you're patient but you did say something bad behind their backs, that isn’t patient at all.

2. Empathizing. And so I did some cleaning in the program and I learnt how to use a grass-cutter machine for the first time ever. It was hard but fun at the same time. Do you guys know how difficult it is to hold the machine and cut the grass, the right way to cut it without it hitting the ground (cause when you hit it, you wouldn’t only cut the grass but you would intend to dig the soil too and you guys just don’t know how easily things such as stones and branches could hit your face any moment when you start turning on the spinning blade (fan). There's no such thing as an easy job. Don't ever belittle the job of a person. It isn't easy for people to search for an income, to fill their pot of rice every day at home.

3. Sincerity. Do it right and do it with all of your might. When you do a favor or when you help someone, you've to do it with a sincere heart without hoping something in return. You would feel great and feel like you've accomplished something really good and valuable in return after you finished the job.

4. Systematic. I learned how to deal with people efficiently and effectively, how an organization supposed to work and how to cooperate with people from different background. It’s difficult at first to work with them at first because we don’t know each other that well. But when we get to know the members of our organization well, we will get comfortable with them and can give full commitment to the work together.

5. Unity. Without it, an organization cannot function well. We have to unite to not let our differences in our culture and background inter-lap with each other. When the members of a team, an organization united, the work done would be fantastic and wouldn’t mess up. And the program wouldn’t be able to work  without us, being understanding of each other.

The morale of the story is everyone has their own situation. Don’t judge someone too quick without knowing the truth behind their action. And of course, be cooperate when you need to join force because two is better than one.

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Powerpuff girlsxboy

Disappointed in myself because of my carry marks. They’re too low compared to what I expected. And final in less than a week! Yeay! Excellent! Four flat? Impossible but I have to make the impossible become possible because nothing is impossible right? But … if nothing’s impossible, would impossible be possible? Hmmm

Assalamualaikum peeps, how is your day coming ahead?

On 11 September 2016, 98′s batch had eidul adha openhouse at aunty Joanna’s. Reunion? Sorta... Although I didnt happy meeting some of them. Who? Shhh, baik dirahsiakan daripada bagitau kan. Hahahah, I was quite sad at that majlis cause I thought there were more satrians coming but only few of  us came.

Pagi pagi datang ingatkan I was late but then boom ramai tak datang lagi gak so yeh, then the event kept dragging until 1.00pm bru nak baca surah Yaasi although in the event, tulis 11.00am patutnya dah start baca hahaha. Sampai sampai I dont know nak cakap dengan siapa cause everyone is busy with their gang and Amira, Nat and the other legolas tak datang lagi.

So I played with my phone alone ... at the corner of the house. Then start bca Yaasin then Amira came and me ws so happy sebab ada kawan dah and then Nat came too but the other legolas didnt come so yeh, only three of us there who knew the existence of us. Apa lagi en, we duduk jauh from everyone else and did our things like gossiping and storytelling about of universities shit life. And took a bunch, eh wait no ... A LOT OF SELFIES! 

We were like “okay muka ayu semua, senyum ayu, okay sekarang muka garang, okay high semua okay acah gelak” and did all other sorta action for selfies. Honestly taktahu nak buat apa if diorang pun tak datang. Syukur diorang datang hahahahha. And then masa ambik selfies tu I wa like green, pink, blue ... wait a minute, werent that the colors of powerpuff girls? But I am a guy, so we did a powerpuff girlxboy so yeh hahahah and u cn see in on of those picture where we tried to be powerpuff haha.

So then after that kitorg tgk wayang Train To Busan together, and that movie was one of the best movie I’ve watched this year. I rated it 9/10. High? Maybe because I havent watched movie in a long time cause theres no pawagam nor karaoke in Raub so yeh why not. So then we all balik tu je nak story. 

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Silver Millenium

Assalamualaikum And welcome to my blog hihi. Nak bagitahu sikit ni jangan judge sangat blog ni sebab blog ni adalah medan pertempuran kehidupan seharian aku dengan perasaan aku. Dalam medan ni, korang semua akan tengok banyak bahasa rojak yang akan aku gunakan and by i mean rojak, is by tetiba English sikit then tetiba out of nowhere Bahasa Melayu. Maklumlah dua dua bahasa ni so far tak cukup untuk menggelarkan diri aku sendiri sebagai poetic person atau insan pujangga. Eceh. Hihi. Seperti mana yang korang tahu, (mcm korg tahu je haha), aku dah buat tahun dulu and never actually continue je terus because 1. I have a variad of things to do 2. I am not into writing 3. And ofcourse sebab aku malas (ģoodjob dearself) The reason aku sambung balik blog ni sebab aku rasa aku patut simpan satu blog sebagai memori, yeh same old stuffs yang aku pernah cakap dekat blog blog aku sebelum ni tapi sebab sebenarnya aku created blog ni sebab aku sukakan seseorang and dia seorang blogger so aku nak feel apa yang dia feel semasa menulis. So aku decided sejurus selepas aku habis baca blog dia, time tulah aku akan terus buat blog. Korang tengok sendiri, daripada pukul 10pm lebih tadi aku baca blog dia and sekarang baru habis around 2am and sekarang aku tengah menulis pasal semua benda alah ni. Then aku decided untuk tukar nama url baru sebab nak ala ala fresh start gitu. Hahah korang mesti nak tahu asal aku letak nama ty sebagai blog url? Kan ofcourselah hahahahahaha aku kan. Siapa je tanak tahu. *ketawa kecil* Silver Millenium ni aku dapat masa aku tengok Sailor Moon, yeh aku mmg otaku yang tegar and XV tu maksud dia 2015. Satu hari memang tak sah kalau tak layan satu anime. Aku akan rse suffocated with semua benda. So the reason I chose it is because aku rasa Silver Millenium XV tu maksud dia deep untuk aku. Korang tahu kan millenium tu macam beribu ribu tahun and tambah lagi dengan silver mcm rse tua and XV tu sebab this year is 2015 so dia akan ring a bell to your ear. Macam siapa je tanak hidup beribu ribu tahun kan? Dia mcm ada dua side utk kau pilih whether kau akan grow silver hair means kau nak tua dah atau kau dapat hidup beribu tahun lagi. Tapi buat apa kau hidup beribu tahun kalau satu good deed pun kau tanak buat. Kau akan sia siakan hidup kau je selama kau hidup. Archer from Fate/Stay Night Unlimited Blades Work And lagi satu cuba tengok motto aku atas tu. Itu aku ambik sebab favourite character aku dalam Fate Stay which is Archer. Yeh full statement dekat bawah tu. Hihu korang patut tengok that series. Aku start tengok sebab bestfriend aku (atau pada dia, aku bukan dah) yang recommend anime tu dekat aku. That motto really meant alot to me cause there will be days that i just wish that i will be unknown to death nor known to life. Macam aku harap tiada sesiapa akan dekat atau kenali aku supaya aku takkan feel hurt either by love or by friendship lagi. I think ill stop here lah kot sebab my eyes getting heavier and I need to sleep now.

Till we meet again, Assalamualaikum.

I am the bone of my sword Steel is my body and fire is my blood I have created over a thousand blades Unknown to Death, Nor known to Life Have withstood pain to create many weapons Yet, those hands will never hold anything So as I pray, unlimited blade works. His body is made out of swords His blood is of iron and his heart of glass He survived through countless battles Not even once retreating Not even once being understood He was always alone Intoxicated with victory in a hill of swords Thus, his life has no meaning That body was certainly made out of sword

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Big Ass PMR

Assalamualaikum [Sepatutnya post selepas PMR tapi dia tersaved as a draft] Alhamdulillah PMR dah habis.  Walaupun dah habis lama dah, aku tak ada masa pun nak update blog aku ni. PMR masa tu boleh berjalan dengan lancar tanpa sebarang gangguan dan aku siap boleh makan lagi mentos masa aku jawab peperiksaan. Fuhh, Alhamdulillah sebab gula gula tulah membantu aku untuk kekal hyper dalam peperiksaan agar aku tidak mudah gugup dan gentar. Ah aku excited betul bila dah nak habis PMR sebab aku dah rancang banyak aktiviti untuk aku dan harap aku akan penuhinya. Tapi malangnya, apa yang ku impikan tidak menjadi kenyataan. Duit, duit, duit kalaulah kau boleh tumbuh dekat pokok. Oh duit aku perlukan kau, datang kepada aku. Dahlah aktiviti lepas PMR dekat sekolah yang cikgu jalankan semua bosan bosan sebab ceramahlah, tanam pokoklah, camping pun dalam sekolah. Ini bukan namanya enjoy, ini namanya seksa. Cikgu expect kita untuk datang for sekolah. Kehidupan lepas PMR memang membosankan. Aku selalunya buat revision lepas sekolah dan bersiap-sedia untuk kelas tusyen, tapi sekarang ni tidak lagi. Aku rasa kosong macam kalau pergi sekolah pun, aktiviti tak best and  kalau duduk rumah memanjang pun tak dapat apa apa faedah jugak. Jadi aku isikan masa lapang aku dengan tengok movies, pergi shopping, makan, dan of course aku dah kembali aktif ke kpop. Itu jelah jalan yang aku mampu untuk menghilangkan rasa bosan aku walaupun benda tu memang tidak memberi maanfaat langsung. Aku dah buang dah dulu attitude ni, aktif dalam Kpop sebelum PMR tapi sekarang aku takda choice, sebab aku kebosanan, dipenuhi dengan sikap malas di mana semuanya susah untuk aku.  Aku sure aku akan get tired of my situation nanti. Itu je yang aku mampu sampaikan dekat korang harini.

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Shattered Heart

Assalamualaikum, Who knew love could be so painful? I thought love was sweet but my thought was totally  wrong. I didn't realise this until yesterday. My feelings were crushed because of her. But she's the reason why I changed for the better. She's the reason behind my wide smiles. Yesterday, I gave her chocolates and a letter to express my feelings to her anonymously. I was so excited because I finally got to express my feelings to her. I don't know how it happened but on that night, she told me on wechat ' Thanks for d chocolate'. The question, " How did she find out? " kept running in my mind. She said that it was her instinct but I felt that someone told her. My thought was right when I got to know that my friend told her. Ahhh I was supposed to confess to her after PMR. Why did she had to tell her that? Hmm if she didnt tell her, I would still have a chance. Then my crush said she only thought of me as a friend. Yeah, I was indeed friend zoned and got rejected but my close friends say she didn't reject me and I still have hope. I still want to believe that I have hope but I can't. This is all so painful. My feelings are all mixed up and its so hard to describe how I'm feeling. You all know how it feels right? So bitter. I felt self glorified when I wrote that letter. Its okay, who knows if she'd like me back one day. Hahaha well thats impossible. I can only manage to hope and pray for her to be mine. I was strengthening myself up to go to school and force a fake smile even though my heart was painful thinking about it. Its okay, maybe i didnt have any fate with her. Maybe I should just focus on PMR and studies for the time being. "I'm stupid.. but I guess it's my fault to think we could ever be more than just friends."

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Road To Success

Assalamualaikum, To me, my trial results aren't that satisfying because I didn't reach my target. I hoped for 6A's and 2B's but instead I only managed to get 5A's and 2B's. I'm still grateful because I didn't get a C or fail on any subjects. Thank god I'm still in the Top 65 Academic During the assembly, the teacher announced the 11 people who managed to get straight A's for their trial. Sadly, I wasn't one of them. It was frustrating seeing them receive their certificates while I was just sitting there, disappointed at my results. Hmmm, I'm surely going to start studying seriously after this. After the assembly, we were asked to assemble at the surau because there was something important. The teacher gave us a lecture and invited Aiman Qayyum to give out a short speech since he got first place among all the form 3 students. He gave us some tips that I think it might be useful to all of you. Some of the tips are;- First Tip "Whats your strongest feeling?"  he asked us.You know whats your strongest feelings right? No right? He said that your biggest feelings is fear. He even gave an example. " For example, your mom or dad got kidnapped, you would want to save them because you love them or because you're scared of what will happen to them ". Without wasting time, everyone in the surau said that it was because of fear. Haha he was indeed amazing. Second Tip The second tip is relationship. He said that we should maintain our relationship with our teachers even on small things. He advised us not to sleep in class because our teachers may find it rude.So we have to maintain out relationship with our teachers. I think he was caught sleeping in class by his history teacher, thats why he was telling us this. Hahahah Third Tip We always have to use our brain. That doesn't mean we only study, we can stimulate our brain by watching television too. Learning about 'that' is also useful because we'll use it in our future after getting married. "Theres no knowledge that has no benefits." said Aiman.Our brain always has to work so we can keep more data in our brain and our memory will be wider. Fourth Tip The last tip is, prayers and ability. Without God's help, what we want will never happen despite us working very hard for it. We should also have confidence in ourselves, without confidence, we will always be in the bottom and will never move on to the top. We also have to remind ourselves that our ability is to succeed. For example, theres a small kancil car and a ferrari from Kuala Lumpur heading to Singapore. Even if the ferrari car travels faster than the kancil, the ferrari consumes more oil than the kancil. The kancil will somehow still artive at Singapore without consuming as much oil as the ferrari consumes. I'm not sure whether I'll manage to succeed or not but everyone says I can turn my B's into A's. I'm slowly being confident that I can get 8A's during the real PMR examination. I'm actually jealous with Aiman Qayyum because he's perfect as of someones saying. He's smart, all of his marks are more than 90%, good in hafazan, nice voice, good in playing guitar, handsome ( a little ). You just can't beat him. "You can't climb the ladder to succes with your hands in your pockets"

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Is she next?

Assalamualaikum, A busy week for me with loads of activities. This week is also the last week for me to be playful and relaxed as theres only 30 days left for pmr. I have to start being serious. I shouldn't use the internet much and start studying more. Hopefully I'll pass successfully later. So, I want to dedicate this post to my sister. Isn't she pretty? Of course she is cause she's my sibling. Who isn't pretty right? My sister named Zalikha binti Khalid just got engaged to my future brother-in-law, Shahir bin Wan Ahmad Sagar. Everything went well on that day. Firstly, we had to get ready by 10am. It was hard for me to wake up in the morning because I slept at 1am after seeing the fireworks near the lake with my friends. Anyway, who can wake up so early after being out for the whole day? Haha. Even though my sisters engagement was celebrated with full of joy, I was a little sad because lots of my friends couldn't make it. Despite me inviting everyone, only 3 of my friends came. Getting back to just nows story, later on I have to travel miles away because my future brother-in-laws house is at Terengganu! My first brother-in-law is in Kelantan, now Terengganu. What fate. I pray for them to get married safely on December. Amin. I'm sure they will do great on that day. I hope they'll be together until they're last breath. I want to update a new post but it has nothing to do with this post so I'll write a new post okay. "Two very special people - one special day. On this beautiful and lovely occasion, I wish you showers of love".

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Merdeka Raya

Assalamualaikum, Hey its been so long since I've opened this blog right? So, I'd like to take some time to update this blog filled with spider webs. How are all of you? I know Hari Raya is coming to and end but I'd like to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin! If I've made any mistakes, please forgive me from my head to the tip of my toes. Last two days, I celebrated Merdeka Raya at my school. Who knew this years Merdeka Raya was so happening and interesting? It wasn't this happy last year. Its hard to describe my happiness on that day. There was indeed lots of memories this year. Ahhhh if I could, I'd love to stay at that moment forever. Let the moment freeze and I could enjoy it forever and ever. Congratulations to Muhd Khair bin Noor Hisham from my class ( 3 Satria ) for winning the ' Most Handsomest Male ' during Raya celebration at school. Haha unfortunately, no one from my class won for the female category because we sent the wrong person up on stage. 3 Satria wanted to send Iman at first, but suddenly someone got up and went to the stage first. If we sent Iman as our class representative, 3 Satria would've won both the categories. On that day, 30th of August was Khair's birthday (that winner) so Happy Birthday to him even though I already wished him on that day. When he got up to receive his prize as the handsomest male, all of us sang the birthday song to him and later, the whole school started singing with us. When we were eating, we sang again and he cut his birthday cake. Our class was indeed the most noisiest class among all the other classes in our whole school. After everyone finished eating, photo session had finally started. I took loads of pictures with lots of people at that time. I thought I couldn't take a picture with my crush on that day but little did I know, I managed to snap a picture with her. After this, I'll always keep her picture in my wallet. Hahaha. 3 Satria started to sit on top of the assembly stage and then, the whole form 3 group starting gathering there. We wanted to take pictures there but unexpectedly, there were loads of people taking our pictures. After that, before we were about to head home, a patriotic song was played. The whole school sang with much happiness. I wanted to record at that time but I didn't know how to record using my camera . When I was walking at the bus stop, I walked past my ex-crush and current crush. Wow, my heart was hammering hard. "The most important thing is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters."Posted by Abdullah Hisham at 07:59

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Tenth Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum, Yesterday was the day I had iftar with my classmates and yeah it was one of the best nights ever. It would've been more fun if everyone came, but what to do, they were too busy to join us. Our iftar feast consisted of Ayam Penyet and Sirap Bandung and I additionally bought a Starbuck's Chocolate Cream Chip because it was cheap. Oh before our iftar, I wandered around with them and suddenly they wanted to go to the cinema. I could already figure out why they wanted to go there. My guess was correct when my friends stopped in front of a cardboard cutting that is quite large. Almost an hour was spent by them posing for pictures with the cardboard cutout of One Direction members that were at the cinema. Then, a few people from another class joined us. At first, I wanted to go to tuition but I was empowered by my lust of watching movies. I haven't watched movies in a while so I just went along. We watched Despicable Me 2. In my opinion, the movie wasn't that great. Once I got home, I found out that Apam had to sit in the bonnet of the car because there wasn't enough space for him to sit. I couldnt stop laughing and rolling on the floor like a RLAB. I hope something like this can be done again after PMR trials and hopefully, everyone from Form 3 would come. "Time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana." Ohkay lights out.

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Ramadhan Mubarak

Assalamualaikum, Ramadhan is getting sooner this year. I wish "Happy Ramadhan Mubarak" to all my readers and everyone else. I don't know why but this year is a very tiring year for me. It hasn't even been a week and I'm already gasping due to hunger. Even though the devils are locked in the cage but there still a few people who follow their lust to talk bad about others. I admit that even I am not excluded in that category in doing sins on this holy month, I will try hard not to do any sins starting today. I think this year is the most tiring year for me since I've lots to do this year. Exams are getting nearer and my teachers still haven't finished the syllabus. My tummy is also trying to fit in on fasting for twelve hours. Maybe I wont get to update my blog this month and let my blog rot for a few weeks because I've only less than 100 days till my exams. I think I should stop going on Twitter and try my best to concentrate on my academics. I admit that it is not easy to study everyday but what could I do? As a student, I want to success. Please pray for my success in my examinations. Amin. "To acquite knowledge, one must study; but to acquire wisdom, one must observe." - Marilyn Vos Savant