Adventures

Hear my roar; I've been down there on the floor...and no one's ever going to keep me down again. I am wise, but it's wisdom born of pain. I've paid the price, but look how much I've gained...If I had to, I could do anything. I am strong; I am a lion.

[jsubinter]

[themagicallionsden]

"when the words are like bullets and they break through your skin...and theres no way to get them all out...."

[noatamani]

[themagicallionsden]

Pic 1: Me 2 years into oxycodone/heroin addiction. Yes, this is a mugshot. I hadn't gone to the beach more than 3 times in that two years. I didn't have a job a single day in that two years. I felt sick every day. I had nothing to live for.

Pic 2: Me 47 days into sobriety. I have been to the beach, 3 times in the last 47 days. I already have a job- 30 days after getting sober. I can actually get to sleep at night, and I actually wake up early in the morning. I have everything to live for.

I'm not saying I'm always perfect or happy. These 47 days of sobriety were rough...and the next few years will be the hardest mountain to climb with many chances of falling off the side. I will say that I wont just let go or give up. I will keep climbing and gaining more and more strength with every step.

[l-oficial-blog]

#borderline #bpd #mood #swings but it is like this #several #times during the a #single #day !!!! I am #exhausted

[themagicallionsden]

For real. Please get me off of this roller coaster :(

[wnq-writers]

Giving you up is the only way to go. But my heart just won’t let me quit. It still wants to fight this battle. It wants to fight all the odds.

scatteredthoughtsbin (via wnq-writers)

[themagicallionsden]

when you think youre doing fine in your sobriety...

And then it slaps you in the face. Why cant this be easy?? Or why cant I be addicted to something good like working out? 

[hawhat]

[amytwofeathers]

[themagicallionsden]

My tattoo <3 Will post a pic later...but my friend and I did it ourselves and I will never forget the experience, nor will I ever get it covered up because it is who I am and something I live by daily.

[themagicallionsden]

I'm a drug addict...

It's pretty annoying that people in sobriety tell me I cant drink. Ive always been able to handle drinking one or two drinks. I only abused alcohol when I mixed it with drugs....NOT the same thing.

[wnq-writers]

Note to self: Living a life, constantly full of guilt and regret, is unhealthy.

complexperplex (via wnq-writers)

[firedrill]

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[themagicallionsden]

I should NOT be joking about this! But LOLOLOL Next time (and hopefully there wont ever BE a next time)...Im trying this ;)

[sobergirlsguidetolife]

[themagicallionsden]

Day 41 of being clean...

I sometimes forget of all the pain I was going through. All the sleepless nights full of restless leg and sweats and pain...all the mornings, afternoons, and nights wasted on looking for my next high. The horrible drug dealers that stole my money, tried to hook up with me (thank GOD I never let myself get so low as some of my "friends" did as to actually hook up with anyone for drugs) but I also can forget how I would sell all my stuff or manipulate family into giving me "gas money" and "grocery money". I only sometimes forget these things. Until I crave again. Then I force myself to remember. I absolutely will NEVER forget my house getting raided. I will never EVER forget the two horrible days I spent in jail. But its the little stuff I need to remind myself of how painful, powerless, and unmanageable my life had become. Oh, and how much MONEY I had spent. Why wasn't I in school?!?!? But I know why. I am a drug addict. A grateful, recovering, drug addict. And JUST FOR TODAY, I make a commintment to my family, my boyfriend, his family, the people I met in rehab, my sponsor, God, and my ADORABLE little cat, that I will not get high. I will not pick up a pill. I will not go out looking for heroin. I will not lie or cheat or put myself in the position to be that powerless, hopeless girl ever again.

I am a strong, powerful woman who has made a decision to turn her will and her life over to the care of God.

I've never seen such fast and drastic changes (for GOOD reasons) in my life ever before. I cant even count my blessings on all my fingers and toes.

I will not fail. I am a lion; hear me roar :)

[angelic-addictions]

one day at a time, stay in the moment and live and let live. some of the most important things I’ve learned

[themagicallionsden]

Or sometimes five minutes at a time

[sobergirlsguidetolife]

[borderlinescorpion]