If these trees could talk...

'I realized that if my body broke, I would break into blossom.' 16 years old. Gaze. Complicate. Breathe. and a few other small things.

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6thmarch2013

what a disgusting bangla class

why were you so busy texting? it was just one hour

or two

fuckin' two hours bruh

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6thmarch2013

the other one hasn't got his first kiss yet

well

this is awkward i bet

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6thmarch2013

and like every other time

alone and left out and so many things to say.

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29th January, 2013

As try I updating my facebook relationship status, I write this.

Do you know why I love the 29th so much?

Because it was the day I got my right to call you mine.

Do you know why I don't like the 29th much?

Because you ruined this month for me, for 25 months.

Do you know why 29th means so much?

Because I lost my right to call you mine. :)

Nine is my favourite number.

Do you know what 29 means to me?

9-2=7. :)

I love you beyond words, pachuman.

Forever and always.

- Lemonpie? Lol, I don't know what I was to you.

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23rd January, 2013

I'm gonna have to make a separate album for the Chittagong thing. :/ The album's going to be soooooo belless.

My family is SO fucking annoying, I swear.

Had Dhrubo's birthday thing yesterday, it was alright. We had some really good moments but then I was all awkwardised even though I tried my best not to be. I bet I didn't show it one bit. B| So good at this shiiiieeet!

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19th Jan, 2013

I honestly think Sameer is just very VERY pathetic. :P

And I regret dating such a weirded out chele. UGH. LOOOOOOOOL.

Never am I going to find the guy half as compatible as I want him to be.

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12th, January, 2013

Why is it that the people with the bigger hearts have to be treated like shit? 

I just feel REALLY fucking bad. It's happening again. :/

Sameer and I were supposed to be broken up this 10th. My facebook stopped working and I can not log in so we can't break up yet. Because the whole reason I'm doing this is so that EVERY FUCKING BODY knows to make my fucking mom happy. Not that I don't wanna leave him .. it's just a little messed up? We don't match. I mean we do. A lot, in a lot of ways. But we want different things I think. I just expect him to do a few stuff for me because I would those for him. But you know .. that makes me so fucking selfish. (: But it's been more than 2 years and I kind of can't take it anymore. Besides he acts all different and he mixes with a new group of people and all that. It's kinda weird. 

My facebook's not working. 

I've been listening to ass back home. And I just wanna feel home & happy & I wanna be able to express myself, you know?

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11th Jan, 2013

Guess whose facebook isn't working! :'|

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26th December, 2012

but i was supposed to talk about something. hmm. ._. 

i think i kind of told ali a little about how unhappy i am. and arifeen that i am to break up next year. :|

i just HAD to talk to somebody. like, i know he's talking to thoma and his other 'friends' about his relationship and life and friends. and i just can't sit here all shut up, right? 

i've been waiting for um around 5.5 hrs online. ._.

suchaloserr.

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23rd December, 2012

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22nd December, 2012

(the dream)

my mom and i came over to your place. my mom was talking to aunty. and i came downstairs. there were the three of you. two pretty girls & you smoking. we went on a walk. i hugged you. you were warm. and then we walked. you had your hands on my shoulders. :) just the way i always wanted HIM to do it. it was warm. and happy.

this thing took place in my grandma's place but it was your house. and the fields from my paternal side's grandma's place.

i got very bothered about it what i woke up.

i'm not supposed to be having these dreams.

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21st December, 2012

i just hope i don't regret what i messaged him, ever. i'm proud i did that. glad that i got a few things off my chest. no reason to be embarrassed. 

cool.

good day!

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wtf's up with tumblr? is anybody else facing the same problems? i can't get to anybody's urls, and tumblr takes TOO long to load ..

*dies*

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Your smile is a beautiful lie.

listening to this after ages.

[oh-pfft]

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30th November, '12

Okay well this is kind of frustrating for me. My mom told me all she knows about my boyfriend the other night. I knew I was going to get caught so I didn't even lie about my secret relationship I've had for almost 2 years. She told me about how she would've felt more secured if it was Shovon instead of Sameer. WOW. Okay, and then she didn't break down infront of me for ONCE. I didn't either. I was always thinking about my next steps. My dad interrupted twice. He was like 'Is something serious going on here? *stands*' 

And then my mom, 'No I'm talking to her you go away.'

Dad: *stands*

Mom: 'Why aren't you going away?'

Dad: 'I feel like something's serious, you need me?' OH GOD GET THE FUCK OUT MAN.

So she concluded saying that I've to come to a decision (split up), cause he's into drugs and not a good student and comes from a broken family, and that her mom has a relationship with this man and his brother's a hardcore druggie. Wow. Well.

So yeah, frustration there. I mean, I know it doesn't sound too nice, his family. But they're all very smart and educated. :/ Drugs .. oh fucking well. 

And then I had to perform for this teacher's one year anniversary and I did good I think. I'm not sure, I'll be posting pictures up later. ;3

I had rehearsals everyday for 4 days. We rehearsed for 4 days. I danced in 4 of the songs, and in total we had 10. :'|

So I would get out of my room at 7 and come back from at 10 at night or 1030ish. And then sleep for a few hours. 

Sucked ass.

My mom is pissing me off quite a bit.

Good bye November.