Ferocious Teenytiny

Twenty fuckin three so I don’t know nothin

[themostfucked]

Oop. Forgot something. This is for future me. ❤️

[themostfucked]

So I have this thing, right?

Where I constantly think I’ve got it figured out

Everything

I got it

I’m working on that thing

Anyway I thought I had this thing figured out

Like years ago at this point

No more than two—but

Still more than one

So it turns out my definition of figuring it out

In this case

Was landing on sadness

And being angry with that sadness

Giving anger all my power to maybe fix it

And letting the heat fall to a simmer

Cool enough to manage

Okay let me be the first one to say,

I was so totally wrong and even now

I’m still sad. I don’t have this.

So here’s my plan:

Step one: acknowledge my pain

Step two: acknowledge his pain

Step three: apologize

Step four: light a candle and mourn the half-baked plans and meeting his family abroad. Laugh at all the jokes I would have told. Kind of, nod, at what life could have been. It’s time to stop wanting it.

I’ve done the first 3 of these steps so far, and finally, I’d be ending this strange song of a tumblr, creating a new one (probably.)

[themostfucked]

Hesitant

I’d call it a hiccup

A second guessing

Of the second coming

Hey man all I’m asking for is

Some steady ground to stand on

[saying]

[themostfucked]

But it’s so much more fun

[themostfucked]

I may have forgotten what your voice sounds like, but I still can’t go places without finding things I want to show you

[timbllr]

[loafed-beans-deactivated2020082]

[soft awoo]

[gruene-teufel]

“oooooooh….”

[chillxmami]

still healing from things I don’t speak about

[themostfucked]

Love of my life might as well be on the other side of the moon

[mcdungeon]

I hope I give off the vibe to all animals that I am their ally and friend

[lesbiansassemble]

Deadpool 2: a pansexual lead, a mixed race lgbt couple, a plus-sized main character and a female superhero with vitiligo

Me:

[themostfucked]

Things that I like; that I like that I like

I like binge watching cartoons in pajamas all day (when it’s trash out)

I like walks and salt water

I like dogs. All dogs

I like cats. Most cats. But really all cats

I like cooking

I like protecting my friends

I like giving good advice

I like my sense of humor, quickness to puns

I like painting

I like reading

I like my capability of sensing the world around me

I like being tough as nails

I like secretly being v soff and sweet to friends

I like feeding birds

I like that I’m still in pieces, and I like that I’ve found things to like in the shards. I will likely be (as I’ve found, most people are) somewhat broken—I’ve found wisdom in my follies, hope in my heartbreaks, lessons in my cruelty.

I like that I’ve grown

[nightlydeertrivia]

OKAY KIDS WE ARE GOING TO TALK ABOUT ABANDONED PLACES

I MEAN

HOW

CAN

YOU

NOT

THINK

THESE

PLACES

ARE

HELLA

COOL

DON’T

PRETEND

THAT

YOU

DON’T

WANT

TO

GO TO

AT LEAST

ONE

OF

THESE

PLACES

[everynameitryistaken-deactivate]

this is like walking through dreams

[kaity--did]

163,000 people to be the first five minutes of supernatural

[themostfucked]

[different-landscapes]

[get-in-my-tardis-deactivated201]

[themostfucked]

Sounds familiar