Number 1 transmasculist hater

Hrshl | xey/xem | 21+ | trans nb aroace | self dx ADHD and autism | Global articulation problems and pain Buy me a coffee 💉28/11/2023

[thendandnbhrshl]

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Hi I'm Hrshl/Hershel, xey/xem (in english) and only use neutral.

I'm in my 20's, non-binary aroace and self-diagnosed ADHDer and autistic.

I'm microdosing T, so if you have any question, don't hesitate to send me an ask.

If you want to support me (so I can buy trans tape and a new binder... or just groceries) you can check my ko-fi.

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What did I do?

Trans Tape guide (pay what you want)? Go here.

Binder guide (pay what you want)? Go here.

Mini Zine Trans (prix libre) ? Allez ici.

Queer media spreadsheet (to look at, download and fill)? Go here. And have a little guide before filling it.

Disability media spreadsheet (to look at, download and fill)? Go here.

Trans artists spreadsheet (to look at, download and fill)? Go here. Have a little guide/FAQ before filling it.

HRT products by country and sharps disposal spreadsheet? Go here.

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If you want to follow my HRT journey (microdosing T) or just want to block it, I try to remember using the tag : "HRshlT".

[punishedgwyndolin]

the craziest thing to me about the “alison bechdel could never ever ever be a terf or have terfy views!! she’s lesbian culture which we all know is ontologically pure!” innocence chasing from people on here is like. she made a blog post on the dtwof blog after one of her friends passed, and what does she choose to share with her following and remember her by?

ah, right, aggrieved transmisogyny in defense of michfest, years after her comic everybody says shows her no longer supporting it. an entire lifetime and friendship, a whole person, and we select the transphobic bioessentialism to fondly remember. of course. sounds like a trans ally to me!!1!

[thendandnbhrshl]

Noticing that I have so little boobs due to T that my sport brqs aren't good anymore and hum... Maybe I should get mor adjustable ones? Or go a size under???? Jut basically the cup size is the issue so hum....

If any transmasc has any idea for cheap sport bras in the EU please tell me about it...

[thendandnbhrshl]

"male/female socialized" is such a weird way to show that you think that kids can be programmed...

[daughter-of-sapph0]

at some point, you have to recognize that the detrans grifters who cry about how t made them bald and spend their sad pathetic adult lives pretending like they were completely unaware of the effects of masculinizing hormones and treat trans people like they're all diseased or mentally ill children who cant think for themselves, and the roided out cismen with full beards who have no intention of actually transitioning but say shit like "im gonna play wnba now haha" to make a mockery of trans women even though you know for a fact that if you ever used she/her for them they'd punch your face for emasculinizing them, are the exact same type of person.

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

parents are so fucking entitled

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

parents will throw a fucking tantrum about how you have to respect their views while having disrespected you your entire life for no reason other than believing they had the right to control you

[blitherbird]

Parents will get mad at you for trying to kill yourself

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

parents get mad at you for trying to kill yourself not because they care but because it makes them look bad

[thendandnbhrshl]

What the fuck do you mean my T levels are LOWER than what I had AFTER 3 MONTHS ON T???

Like ok fine I dropped back to like... 0.3 pulled in the syringe instead of 0.35, but also like????? How can I be that low????

[godpup]

wait why did the transmisogynist detector flag you as a transmisogynist? probably for the transmisogyny

[bitchautism]

shocking considering such great posts as this ☝️

[fatfemmefreaquency]

“this transmisogynist caricature suddenly becomes a lot less offensive if I delude myself that it wasn’t intentionally written to be a transmisogynistic caricature”

uh huh. and i guess the big bang theory feels a lot less ableist if you pretend that the comedy doesn’t hinge on Sheldon being autistic and his autism being the butt of half the jokes. unfortunately you can’t “death of the author” and/ or headcanon your way out of the original intent of the artist

big Media Literacy for Dummies moment, if we’re being honest here

“harry potter feels a lot more trans friendly and antiracist when i headcanon hermione granger as a Black trans girl” vibes

you can’t magically reclaim a work from the transmisogyny it’s grounded in just because you’re uncomfortable being told that your fave film/ book/ series/ whatever is bigoted by deciding to reinterpret it with no thought for authorial intent or the general public consensus about canon—no amount of headcanon-ing changes the textual reality of the original work

idk what else to say. wow. L take. and you’re annoying. shut up forever

[thendandnbhrshl]

Finally understanding why people were apparently worried at me being unemployed and the potential of me not having any projects...

Turns out, when you have the energy to wake up and then not need a nap you actually have so much time and energy that you don't know what to do with those.

I currently don't have a clear project and oh boy am I noticing how annoying that is. Not just that but I actually managed to clean the living room and the kitchen (albeit a small bit because there wasn't much cleaning needed) and I still had so much energy afterwards that I cleaned the fucking stairs too????

Insane ass shit. What do you mean people have that energy on the daily without needing any fucking supplements?????

[godpup]

wait why did the transmisogynist detector flag you as a transmisogynist? probably for the transmisogyny

[wiimotion]

T_T I wish bathroom-related disabilities weren’t still today the subject of so much baseless ableism and hatred.. When you learn that kind of shame, it can kill you. People think “it’s too embarrassing to be seen buying an enema, or to go to the ER and need a manual disimpaction. I’ll just wait this one out” and then the bowel perforates and that can kill you in no time at all. And a LOT of it is just because of the meaningless stigma surrounding something as universal and basic as.. peeing and pooping?? That’s insane! Most everyone does it! Get over yourself and stop perpetuating shame!! Knowing someone has to wear a diaper will not kill you, but the embarrassment that person feels might just kill them!!

[thendandnbhrshl]

Gonna loose my shit fr like wtf??????

[thendandnbhrshl]

As I stated, I grabbed some b12 complements and I've been eating those.

So it's the AromaZone thing and they're like "eat 6 to 12 each day" bc 6 is like half the b12 and 12 is 100% of what you need in a day.

So since my b12 is not bad but also not great I've been taking like 2-3 for the past 3 days and holy shit??????? I'm still kinda sleepy as I always am/have been, but I also have a bit more energy????

Like it's been two days that I've woken up without much issue and not wanted to go directly back to bed????

I've also been able to do a bit more in a day than usual?

There is the possible factor that I moved a lot on Thursday and Friday because I had to go to the city (and spend so fucking much money on clothes and other basic stuff bc I'm running out) so I walked a lot in the sun. And welp, getting outside for a walk and getting some sun does help with energy and shit.

But foebfoshd istg if it goes on like that it means that taking in more b12 does fucking help with my tiredness and I'll have to bring it up to my doctor bc jsjsjdownd girl was like "na, it's fine" and she's right bc I'm not in the deficit zone, just close to it.

So yeah fowbxosbdis

[thendandnbhrshl]

I say that but I dropped some soup just after while bringing my bowl downstairs, got my head on a break while moving shoes and spilled spot sauce on my t-shirt while cooking....

[thendandnbhrshl]

BUT the living room's floor is clean and it's not even noon yet!

[thendandnbhrshl]

Gonna loose my shit fr like wtf??????

[thendandnbhrshl]

As I stated, I grabbed some b12 complements and I've been eating those.

So it's the AromaZone thing and they're like "eat 6 to 12 each day" bc 6 is like half the b12 and 12 is 100% of what you need in a day.

So since my b12 is not bad but also not great I've been taking like 2-3 for the past 3 days and holy shit??????? I'm still kinda sleepy as I always am/have been, but I also have a bit more energy????

Like it's been two days that I've woken up without much issue and not wanted to go directly back to bed????

I've also been able to do a bit more in a day than usual?

There is the possible factor that I moved a lot on Thursday and Friday because I had to go to the city (and spend so fucking much money on clothes and other basic stuff bc I'm running out) so I walked a lot in the sun. And welp, getting outside for a walk and getting some sun does help with energy and shit.

But foebfoshd istg if it goes on like that it means that taking in more b12 does fucking help with my tiredness and I'll have to bring it up to my doctor bc jsjsjdownd girl was like "na, it's fine" and she's right bc I'm not in the deficit zone, just close to it.

So yeah fowbxosbdis

[thendandnbhrshl]

I say that but I dropped some soup just after while bringing my bowl downstairs, got my head on a break while moving shoes and spilled spot sauce on my t-shirt while cooking....

[morganitism]

I wish every pickme TMRA transfem a very "wake up and get out of there, they will turn on you the second they can and try to drive you into complete isolation and then suicide. None of the people who claimed to care will lift a finger to help you because they feel no moral obligation to help a transfem"

[morganitism]

Please look at how many of us speak from experience. I used to think the same things you did. That TME trans people wouldn't hurt me if I was nicer to them. That there was a chance at weeding out their transmisogyny if I could just prove I was a friend. That I wouldn't be permanently isolated in those spaces until they found a reason to try and drive me to suicide. But it wasn't the case, because these people are hellbent on hating you and me. Get out of there. Your sisters are waiting for you.

[morganitism]

I hope you understand that transfeminist spaces won't be perfect. Especially if you're racialized or disabled. It will still sometimes be difficult to find your safe people if you are multiply marginalized. Transfeminist spaces aren't utopian by any means. But from the perspective of this Black disabled transfem? Transfeminist spaces are still a hell of a lot safer than TMRA spaces. You'll find racism and ableism everywhere, but most transfeminists actually try to acknowledge and unlearn it. It's better here.

[partyinthecloudkingdom]

there's so many pick me transfem bloggers that did everything right as far as tmra bloggers expect. they shrank themselves down for the sake of the trans men they hung around, they misgendered themselves and called themselves male and talked about how they were inherently monstrous because they were camab, they prioritized how the trans men around them wanted to fetishize them while co-opting the aesthetics of transfeminine suffering, who take on the language of hypothetical identities like amab transmasc to legitimize transmisogynistic ones like afab transfem, and inevitably their time comes. one by one, one of these poor women have expressed a concern about transmisogyny, about herself or a trans woman she knows, and like clockwork there will come the whisper campaigns, the innocently concerned anons in askboxes, the wokescolds, the callout posts calling her a pedophile for having an anime pfp, a zoophile for being a therian, a transandrophobe who hates trans men even if the girl in question does nothing but post about how much she loves her transgender boyfriend and men like him

i feel terribly for these women and girls. both the ones who have been tossed aside after making the slightest fuss about their own oppression for 5 minutes, and the ones who have not yet been discarded who believe they'll never be

[thendandnbhrshl]

Gonna loose my shit fr like wtf??????

[thendandnbhrshl]

As I stated, I grabbed some b12 complements and I've been eating those.

So it's the AromaZone thing and they're like "eat 6 to 12 each day" bc 6 is like half the b12 and 12 is 100% of what you need in a day.

So since my b12 is not bad but also not great I've been taking like 2-3 for the past 3 days and holy shit??????? I'm still kinda sleepy as I always am/have been, but I also have a bit more energy????

Like it's been two days that I've woken up without much issue and not wanted to go directly back to bed????

I've also been able to do a bit more in a day than usual?

There is the possible factor that I moved a lot on Thursday and Friday because I had to go to the city (and spend so fucking much money on clothes and other basic stuff bc I'm running out) so I walked a lot in the sun. And welp, getting outside for a walk and getting some sun does help with energy and shit.

But foebfoshd istg if it goes on like that it means that taking in more b12 does fucking help with my tiredness and I'll have to bring it up to my doctor bc jsjsjdownd girl was like "na, it's fine" and she's right bc I'm not in the deficit zone, just close to it.

So yeah fowbxosbdis

[thendandnbhrshl]

Gonna loose my shit fr like wtf??????

[sin0fempathy]

uterine functions are stigmatized and legislated over because their owners are coercively assigned female at birth, thus presumed to be women, and the patriarchy hates women. not the other way around. women’s oppression did not arise out of some “biological disadvantage” it rose because men wanted to seize total power over their societies and instituted the sexgender system after they’d already chosen to oppress all women as a justification after the fact. the sexgender system is not functionally different from race in that respect. they are both social constructs designed to justify the supremacy of one group at the expense of the other. they are not rational reasons for the oppression to have existed in the first place. oppressive structures are built on a foundation of desired supremacy, not facts.

if men were the ones presumed to have uteruses, abortions would be over the counter. whatever happened to feminists saying that and being right about it. oh yeah the rise of transmisogyny how could i forget