fanmix: disarm you with a smile: songs modern au!Theon would like, for @themailmanwonthelottery // @theongreyjoyexchange [listen on playmoss; download on mediafire]; nfsw lyrics
1. my michelle - guns n’ roses
Your daddy works in porno
Now that mommy’s not around
She used to love her heroin
But now she’s underground
So you stay out late at night
And you do your dope for free
Drivin’ your friends crazy
With your life’s insanity
Well, well, well you just can’t tell
Well, well, well my Michelle
Everyone needs love
You know that it’s true
Someday you’ll find someone
That’ll fall in love with you
But oh the time it takes
When you’re all alone
Someday you’ll find someone
That you can call your own
Where am I supposed to go?
What am I expected to say?
Who the hell am I gonna pretend to be today?
If I disappear somehow, far away from this crowd
I would hide and hide and hide from every fear I can’t confide in them
Tap your feet along with your heartbeat
And don’t say a word to anyone, anyone
3. poor, poor pitiful me - warren zevon
I lay my head on the railroad track
And wait for the Double “E”
The railroad don’t run no more
Poor, poor pitiful me
Poor, poor pitiful me
Poor, poor pitiful me
These young girls won’t let me be
Lord have mercy on me
Woe is me
4. the black angel’s death song - the velvet underground
Cut mouth bleeding razor’s
Forgetting the pain
Antiseptic remains cool goodbye
So you fly
To the cozy brown snow of the east
Gone to choose, choose again
And if epiphany’s terror reduced you to shame
Have your head bobbed and weaved
Choose a side to be on
5. in the pines - danny farrant & paul rawson
Hey girl, hey girl
where will you go
I’m going where the cold wind blows
In the pines, in the pines
where the sun don’t ever shine
I will shiver the whole night through
6. dirt - alice in chains
One who doesn’t care, is one who shouldn’t be
I’ve tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me, for me
You, you are so special
You have the talent to make me feel like dirt
And you, you use your talent to dig me under
And cover me with dirt
7. sir psycho sexy - red hot chili peppers
Hello young woman that I love
Pretty punk rock mama that I’m thinking of
Hold me naked if you will
In your arms in your legs in your pussy I’d kill
To be with you, to kiss with you, I do miss you
I love you
Lay me down, lay me down, lay me down, lay me down
Lay me down, lay me down, lay me down, lay me down
Descending waves of graceful pleasure
For your love there is no measure
Her curves they bend with subtle splendor
8. stagger lee - nick cave
So he walked through the rain, and he walked through the mud
Till he came to a place called The Bucket Of Blood
Stagger Lee
He said “Mr. Motherfucker, you know who I am?”
The barkeeper said, “No, and I don’t give a good goddamn.”
To Stagger Lee
He said, “Well, bartender, it’s plain to see
I’m that bad motherfucker called Stagger Lee.”
Mr. Stagger Lee
9. mordred’s song - blind guardian
Nothing else,
But laughter is around me
Forevermore
No one can heal me
Nothing can save me
No one can heal me
I’ve gone beyond the truth
It’s just another lie
Wash away the blood on my hands
My father’s blood
In agony we’re unified
I never wanted to be
What they told me to be
Fulfill my fate then I’ll be free
God knows how long
I tried to change fate
10. film noir - the gaslight anthem
But nobody never gonna tell you the way
You gotta figure it out boys and suffer the rain
And the fools in the night and the heat of the day
When all you ever really wanted was for someone to understand
And I lit a fire that wouldn’t go out
Until it consumed the walls and roof of this house
Until all I remember was burnin’ away
And all I remember, you burned it away
11. warbrain - alkaline trio
“Thoughts are the shadows of feelings, always darker, emptier, and simpler.
I don’t care if they’re fake or real, I just thank that they’re showing up at all.
I have black periods. Who does not? But they are not a part of me; they are not a part of illness, but a part of my being.
Some might say I have the courage to have them. It’s four o’ clock in the morning. This sucks.”
I can’t go on
You said my head’s too heavy
I need that song
Those trusty chords could pull me through and early on
they saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
We sit and dream of better days
Where we’d hit the ground running on empty stories we’ve been told
And all those nights we spent together never felt this fucking cold
12. disarm - smashing pumpkins
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What’s a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who’s left alone
The killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots on
He took a face from the ancient gallery
And he walked on down the hall
He went into the room where his sister lived, and…then he
Paid a visit to his brother, and then he
He walked on down the hall, and
And he came to a door…and he looked inside
“Father?” “Yes, son.” “I want to kill you.”
“Mother, I want to…”
This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
It hurts to set you free
But you’ll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die