ThePhloxBayou

3D Modeler, Animator, and Illustrator. Lots of Undertale, Ponies, WWE and Goth stuff abound here.

[teaboot]

yall aren’t gonna believe this

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I swear to god I tried to grab my phone but I couldn’t without ruining the moment

He wouldn’t lEAVE

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I’m so fucking proud of my weird wet son

[amaliazeichnerin]

Is Africa leading the solarpunk future?

Uganda, Rwanda and South Africa are building solutions that richer nations could learn from

Interesting blog post.

[reasonsforhope]

I've been saying this for like 3 years now!! Always excited to see more coverage of it!!

If you're interested in the future of solarpunk, ecopunk, and a sustainable, livable future, African, South Asian, Latin American, and Indigenous climate movements are absolutely some of the biggest places you should look.

[mockva]

Failure Success

[sometiktoksarevalid]

[politijohn]

Source

Slavery…

[theconcealedweapon]

"Slavery was so long ago. Get over it."

Slavery is literally happening now. Police never stopped being slave catchers. People are supporting it now just like they supported it then.

If you support ICE, you would have supported slavery, because ICE is slavery.

[teaboot]

I live in the northwest coast of Canada so we walk everywhere and do stuff outside in the rain and swim in whatever lakes and rivers we find so imagine my smug sense of Canadian superiority when I met a USAmerican Midwesterner who was horrified at the very thought

And then I went to the USAmerican Midwest

And I understood

[teaboot]

What I mean to say is that it's very easy to delude yourself into believing you are more in tune with your environment when your environment is not actively hostile to your existence in every conceivable way

[teaboot]

BC, Canada:

Rains frequently, but the worst is like standing under a bathroom shower. Genuinely inhospitable rainstorms are uncommon.

Along the coast, it's pretty easy in most areas to walk to at least one store, or else there's usually a bus or shuttle available. There are sidewalks and bike lanes everywhere.

It's a temperate boreal rainforest, so while there are many freshwater lakes and rivers, they're usually pretty cold. The biggest danger is typically getting caught in a strong current, and the most dangerous animals in swimming distance are on land.

Earthquakes happen almost every day, but the vast majority go unnoticed. Buildings are designed to withstand bigger seismic activity, so unless it's a 5 or higher it just kind of feels like having low blood sugar for a second. There are no tornados

Rural Illinois, USA:

One minute it's sunny, then ten minutes later that distant smudge on the horizon has swallowed the entire sky in black clouds and the water is coming down like waterfall and you literally CANNOT SEE. Then there's a crash like cymbals and you need to get indoors because the thunder and lightening are on TOP of you

No sidewalks until you are in the smack dab center of town, which is a three hour walk or twenty minute drive from wherever you are.

There aren't many natural bodies of water other than small ponds and creeks, and because the environment is so much warmer, those are filled with snapping turtles that can grow bigger than a nine year old child and water snakes that are incredibly venomous. These are paired with leeches and mosquitos for that sweet umami flavor.

Sometimes Jupiter, Lord of the Heavens decides to jam his finger into the side of your house just to fuck with your whole shit and throws your truck a thousand yards into the nearest church

[yamelcakes]

What Big Food Did to Ice Cream

The “encrapification” of the American pint — a chemist’s plain-language dissection

Really good article by a chemist on why most ice cream sucks now— it’s because it’s not really ice cream.

[jmtorres]

part of me wants to be like "do people really not know this" and part of me knows full well i only read the labels because i have gut problems and don't want to suffer

anyway i've had my eye on the fat content for years. actual ice cream made with real cream won't trigger my lactose intolerance, because the higher the fat content of dairy, the lower the lactose content. my personal tipping point is around half-and-half so if you make "ice cream" with with skim milk, the enshittification i experience is unfortunately literal

[thundergrace]

Oh my God! 😭 You dropped this queen 👑

[thundergrace]

To think I thought I knew what ethereal beauty was before now. Laughable.

[lymeandcoconut]

she’s so beautiful i had to include a few more photos

[happibeans]

Her instagram is @queennyakimofficial !

Support Black Women!!! Support Black Womens Art!!! Support Dark Skinned Black Women!!! Support Dark Skinned Black Womens Art!!!

🖤🤎🖤🤎🖤🤎🖤🤎🖤🤎🖤🤎🖤🤎🖤

[thesaltofcarthage]

I’ve reblogged her before, but really, you can’t have too many dark-skinned Black queens on your dash. 

[talisidekick]

A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.

[h0lyshift]

The older i get the more i understand why some people become obsessed with privacy, not because they’re hiding something, but because being constantly perceived starts to feel spiritually exhausting.

[melyzard]

Did you know that soda machines at restaurants and movie theaters spy on you? That most common new cars now record your sexual preferences and send it to the manufacturer (and also data about anyone who also gets in your car, walks by your car, and maybe happens to be within visual range of your car)? That grocery stores are trying to force customers to download an app to scan barcodes on shelves instead of putting up prices, so the app can scan the phone, decide how much that customer should be squeezed for, and adjust the price? That more and more innocent people are being sent to jail for crimes committed hundreds of miles away because an AI facial recognition algorithm spit their faces out and the cops didn't bother to do the most basic of checks?

I am not uptight about privacy because I'm hiding something. I'm uptight about it because the people who dismiss my right to privacy are dangerous to you and me and our families, personally, all the time.

And often, they are assholes, too.

[targetedknowledge]

[hellyeahrihannafenty]

Tom Holland does Rihanna’s “Umbrella” on Lip Sync Battle

[dr0wnedperfectionist]

I’m literally zendaya reacting like he didn’t have to go that hard and yet..

[kiera-jpg]

if this comes up on my dash and i don’t reblog it - just assume im dead

[claudiagray]

The burning question: When she has her hands on either side of her face, right at the start, is this the moment she realized, “I’m gonna have to marry this guy” ?

[temmmry]

Mm🤤

[dogpuppy]

[creekfiend]

This is a bonsai kitten question that can be ignored.

Re: your post about disproportionate feelings of hurt and dealing with them -- what does one do when they don't come from any kind of tragic backstory? I don't understand where those Catastrophically Unsafe feelings come from or how to handle them when I have lived a very privileged life and never experienced any trauma or relational harm that I did not cause (I had people respond negatively to me, but when I get away from the feelings, I can see that objectively no harm was done to me and it was a fair and rational reaction to my behavior)! Often, people point to past negative experiences to explain those feelings, but what does one do about those feelings when they can't be explained by a tragic backstory and don't have that incorrect-but-understandable source?

hmmm

I use the term tragic backstory for myself in jest, but all people have past relational harms that inform how they respond to interactions now. because we are human beings, and we Learn. we need things modeled for us.

you do not have to have lived a Deprived and Abusive childhood to have had your needs not get met or acknowledged in ways that warp your expectations and behavior with others going forward.

I tend to think of this as an absence of having productive interpersonal stuff modeled by those around you, rather than the active presence of some sort of Abuse, partially bc I think that's just how it is in reality, but partially also because, I will be so real with you, the number of deeply traumatized people I have encountered in my life who say "I have no reason to be traumatized, I am so privileged, I'm the problem every time" is ... extremely high. I myself have had this opinion about my own upbringing, in the past. so like. I am not telling you anything about yourself because I don't know you! but I will say that the false understanding of "having a privileged childhood" as being mutually exclusive with "not having your needs met by your guardians at crucial points in your development in ways that have been socially detrimental to you" is a pretty classic 'someone who hasn't come to terms with the damage their childhood did to them' type of belief to express, in my experience.

just food for thought.

eta: OH I MEANT TO ADD: just because you may decide after the fact that your reaction to something was "the problem" in any given interpersonal conflict does not mean that that experience cannot be relationally traumatic to you. this framing as someone needing to be "the problem" to begin with to me indicates a lack of emotional needs being met in terms of how you were taught to conceptualize conflict.

[creekfiend]

SAME HERE

I have heard people whose parents genuinely did "call CPS" shit to them, regularly, who were like "no, I had a very privileged upbringing. there were probably good reasons for those things"

[thephloxbayou]

This may or not be your case Anon, but I want to add, legit trauma can happen even if no one is trying to hurt you and are doing their best.

My mom has fucked me up in a lot of ways, but this isn't what we are talking about here. When my therapist asked how childhood was, I thought everything was good. My parents treated us with kindness. We were even a little spoiled cuz my dad worked a good job, even though we were also taught the worth of what we had in an age appropriate manner. My mom and dad taught me to be a good person and did the right things.

However, I also had a brother die. My cousin was adopted by my parents cuz my aunt was always fucked up on drugs. He died from cancer when he was 17 and I was 4. My mom was a SAHM, but ended up spending a lot of time in the hospital obvs. She put us in preschool so we had care for some hours. I dont remember feeling neglected, we spent plenty of time with her, with dad, and with my brother.

There is an incident she (mom) told me about though. I was trained to tell her EVERYTHING and at the time/that age it wasn't an issue. But apparently, my brother was roughly manhandled by one of the caretakers. I stepped in and told them to keep their hands off of him. (He was a year younger. I was also the very quiet, timid type and not up for confrontation.) And I.... never told her. Apparently it came up somehow later, and when she asked why I hadn't said anything, I basically said there was too much on her plate and I didn't want to worry her.

No one (except the bitch careworker lol) did anything wrong here. But my therapist says to me, well that doesnt sound like a childhood without any trauma. You had a sibling die, and had enough awareness to see how it was affecting your parents, and at such a young age felt responsibility to help them manage. That is a LOT.

I'm not saying nothing bad was done to you Anon, just maybe be kinder to yourself in searching. Maybe bad things did happen and it's "obvious" trauma. Or maybe it's how the world shook out for you without anyone to blame and it is still okay that gave you trauma. It does not make you weak or not deserving of care now to heal

[creekfiend]

me, cradling Skippyjon's weird narrow horse skull gently in my hands: I am glad you feel comfortable enough in our home to commit crimes. however I do not love the crimes that you are committing.

[thephloxbayou]

Me when my highly anxious rescue who wouldnt make a single sound at first got comfortable enough to be silly and do crimes

[lost-where-the-forest-would-grow]

I just got described as an "ad hating commie" by someone because I said a minute of youtube ads is unpleasant. fully spent 5 minutes arguing and defending youtube ads. insane stuff

[daovihi]

reblog if you are an ad hating commie