Thepoetthatremained

Just some words

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[thepoetthatremained]

casual

Was it casual when you told me I was gorgeous, and I said "you Don't even know my face yet" and you answered "yes but nice people are pretty regardless. Your inside is beautiful"

Was it casual when you called me cute and cutie ?

Was it casual when you gave me Nicknames related to things you love?

Was it casual when you called me a pretty girl

Was it casual When you said you loved me and the fact that the plushie I made you, still smelled like me

Was it casual when you told me I was worthy

Was it casual when you stayed with ne through my panicattacks, wishing you could hold my hand

Was it casual when you wanted to protect me from the very mean customer

Was it casual when you flirted with me, loving it when I got flustered, even tho you had a boyfriend

Was it casual when you when you told me you wanted a friend to make platonically out with

Was it casual when you talked with me about every thing that worried you, instead of your boyfriend

Was it casual when you cried for me after I told you what that boy did to me

.....

It was casual when you forgot my birthday and I send you the most heartfelt gift and card I could.

It was. It was casual. I just tried to feel and see more in you. Because I loved you. God I loved you like every star in the sky was United in your soul. But you don't. I know. It was casual. We were nothing.

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update

jooo update on the situationship

He ghosted me for 6 days now. I am loosing my little mind over her and crying more than I should.

Also I'm getting my shark week lol Sooo yeah, I'm angry, sad and petty. Yay.

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the thing I regret most was crying infront of them. They told me a story about their past, about an abusive ex. I couldn't hold my tears in. I was in a similar spot.

Hearing about their story, which to me felt painful, just made me sad for them. I cried and I made them uncomfortable with my sympathy.

I loved them... I still do, but, they pushed me and my caring nature away. I was too much I think.

I once swore to myself, that I would never show my tears to anyone but myself. They were the exception

I regret it. Because I fear that was, what drove them away.

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nothing heals a heart like love

Nothing breaks it like as well

But pain and love go hand in hand

Writing the poetry that demands

The sorrowful to speak

And the loving to sing

The pained to silence

And the angry to scream

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I'm tired

Tired of loving you and tired of hating you ....

I'm tired of remembering you

I feel nothing when you're not around and that's good

But I feel so much when I do hear you

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songs

you have ruined so many songs for me

Not because I don't like them anymore, no

But because I feel the air whispering your name when I hear their sweet melodies.

Making me weak because they know I loved you, when you didn't.

Said songs (in chronological order)

"Dear Arkansas daughter" - (beginning of how we got to know each other)

"Echanted" - (please Don't be in love with someone else)

"If he wanted to he would" - (thought I was over it and we can be friends, wrong, did infact also waste my 18th birthday wish on him)

"The moon will sing" - (you are his moon but he was my sun...)

"Why am I like this" - (you made me question my sexuality again, thanks for that)

"Soapy water" - (misunderstood the lyrics but it fits even more now that I understood them correctly)

"Never love an anchor" - (my delulus were finally cracking)

"She likes a boy" - (and I am not that boy)

"I wanna be your girlfriend" - (delulus were fighting)

"I want to be with you" - (just that)

"I Love you so" - (you send that song to me... my hopes were so high but It was useless)

"Haunted" - (don't leave me here like this. At least stay my friend. Why do you need to go ? What did I do wrong?)

"The night we met" - (I am hunting the ghost of you. How you were when we met)

"Mr Forgettable" - ( idk why, it felt right)

"I miss you, I'm sorry" - (what did I do wrong?)

[thepoetthatremained]

Loved me

If I found out that you loved me

Even once I would break

Break apart like a work of Art

I am pained with the thought

That there was something between us at some point

And neither of us spoke out about it

I am pained with the feeling

Of pushing you away and bringing this silence we now have in our conversation

Upon myself I am pained

With the thought of your love

Now that I already kissed it goodbye

In my dreams

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A letter to that person

I wish I could have told you what I felt

I wish I had the guts, to explain how my heart raced, how I smiled just thinking about you.

You healed something inside me

And broke it at the same time

It wasn't your fault

Time wasn't right

You are with someone else

I wish I would have confessed and spared myself the pain

Now I know we could never work

Now I know you are not for me and I am not for you

But I want to know what love feels like

What your love feels like

You show me glimpses

But I am never what you need

That is okay

Now lately you've abandoned me

We had this a few times

You leaving and coming back after a while to tell me you missed me

But you don't

You missed the girl you met

Freshly in love

Happy and stable

Now you see the crumbs of her

I loved you

But I will never tell you

-L.L

(This is more a brain dump than anything)

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Drain me

Drown me

See what's left of me

When you made me

Empty

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World

The world was my canvas

I consumed it with madness

Each stroking of paint

To make it a saint

Each scratch of pencil

Making it incomprehensible

The world is a piece of art

So mad

At its heart

-L.L

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Eventide

Newsletter / Art Blog

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Might have been

I can finally be your friend

Lend you my heart

Without breaking apart

I'm so glad I stopped loving you like this

Now we don't feel like a miss

But sometimes

I wonder

What it would be like

To kiss

Just once

To know we weren't right

And not wonder

What just might have been

-L.L

[thepoetthatremained]

Little fool

Little fool,

Little fool

Oh this is you

Loving someone that will never be yours

Still

You're giving him every piece

Of you

Oh Little fool

Little fool

I feel so sorry

For you

-L.L

[thepoetthatremained]

Song

My soul is a song

A different meldoy everyday

Lately

That melody is you

The faint sound that carries me through

The days

And nights

It's your voice

It's my favorite now

-L.L

[thepoetthatremained]

Love and Hate

The line between love and hate

It's so thin

And we are both walking on it

It slipped away

This pure love

Like a dove

Free from it's cage

Right now

We are only waiting who will fall first

Onto a side

That'll decide

The end of this ride

-L.L