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33 yo/she-her I'm trying to cope with life, death and everything in between. Sometimes I write.

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Rabbits between the staves. Cambrai BM 125-128, c. 1540-50

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I write because when the inevitable comes, writing is all I'll have to cope.

[howtomakeyousee]

If these little guys can find a way, so can you.

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November 7 (2017)

So many things have happened lately, but I've been too lazy to write, draw, or basically do any of the stuff actually helps me with my depression and anxiety disorder. So, November has finally come! I did interview and I don't have to think about the whole think until December...and then March, again. I went to Santiago last week and had a blast there. It was so fun just to see my loved ones, traveling with my dad, going to Valparaíso and Viña del Mar for the very first time. It was worth all the stress I went through to ask for paid leave. My mom is in India right now. I almsost missed her at the airport. I almost stopped running towards international police and just straight up cried in the middle of the airport, but something told me she'd be there. And she was. I could see her, but couldn't talk to her, or hug her. It was not what I expected, it was better than nothing.

Right now, I'm trying to get back to the poor routine I had before the trip. I'm trying to improve it.

For example, I don't wake up at 6 am everyday, but I'd love to. I'd love to be a morning person and I know I can train myself. I love the idea of having coffee when the world is still asleep. I love the idea of being the first one to use the shower. This is one of the things I'm trying to do to better myself this month. I'm also trying to avoid processed foods and sugars this month. I want to see if my skin gets prettier after that. I want to start wearinglong skirts, but that's for December. I've also started to buy Christmas presents. I'm really, really excited for the holidays. I just love Christmas so much. I'm also excited because I'm finally finishing this journal and I can finally start another one. I can't wait! The feeling of writing a final sentence can't be compared to anything in the world. Just nine more pages to feel that again.

[haleyincarnate]

Reminder to be gentle with yourself today. You are living and loving the best you can in the position you're currently in. Rest when you need. Tuck yourself in at night. Keep doing what you can.

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October 22 (2017)

(Today is Nikki's birthday) I wanted to write a few times but I had to refrain myself, because I don't want to write just the depressing parts of my life. These journals will be a gift for my loved ones after I die and I don't want to be remembered as an emo kid who never got a drop of sunshine in her life. That's not the true me and I'll do my best to be remembered as the person I really am. Happy, kind, loving. October has been exactly as I predicted, though. It has been stressful and I've cried a lot because of it. I'm growing a lot from my own tears-- at least that's a good way to see it. I think that's a good point of view. All this is changing me for the better. At least I hope it is. I'm having my interview on Wednesday and that will be the last tast of the whole Assessment process. Then Ill have to take an exam on December, but I0m sure that'll be a piece of cake. I miss Santiago so much. I guess I'm starting to like Summer in the capital a lot more just because Summer means I get to see my favorite people again.

Luckily, I'll go there by the end of the month. We're dropping my mom at the airport on Novemeber because she's travelling to India. It's all very exciting!

[poetryforall]

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October 3 (2017)

So, it's October and I'm trying to keep my mental health problems at bay while the Assessment process lasts. It's been hard because I hardly have any backup. Anyway, I'll survive this year no matter what. I'm longing for Summer like I never thought I would. I want the Assessment to end. I want the graduate program to end. It's all so stressful. At least I'm saving a little more money for my apartment and Señor Smith is under BARF diet. I guess I can't write to my pen pals anymore because they broke up and I can't take sides. I guess I'm a reminder of the old days. I feel lonely without them sometimes, but I gues that's a big reason why I wouldn't like to have a partner.

I'm using one of those self-help apps to see if I can get my shit together. I'm also participating in inktober, just to destress a little.

[poemwav]

– Jamie Oliveira | from "Erosion"

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September 24 (2017)

I've been meaning to write a long time ago. I haven't found the right moment to do it. 2017 has certainly been a busy year. There's so much I've wanted to put in words and now I can't think of a single relevant thing. Right now, it's the end of September and I'm not looking forward the upcoming month.

[bjornsfoto]

Sunflowers - I took this photo in Ulleråker. Sweden, Uppsala.

[artssie]

Wilted (Morning, Fading) (1870) by Gabriel von Max

[literaryvein-reblogs]

Hi! I was wondering if you could help me rephrase “an amused laugh.” It doesn’t have to be synonymous, just something with the same vibes. Thank you!!!

Word Alternatives: Amused Laugh

Amused - pleasantly entertained or diverted (as by something funny) Laugh - to show emotion with a chuckle or explosive vocal sound

Belly laugh - deep hearty laugh

Burst out laughing - to suddenly start laughing

Bust a/one's gut - to laugh in an uncontrolled way

Cachinnate - to laugh loudly or immoderately

Chortle - to laugh or chuckle especially when amused or pleased

Chuckle - to make a continuous gentle sound resembling suppressed mirth

Crack up - to laugh out loud

Die laughing - to laugh for a long time in an uncontrollable way; to laugh very hard

Giggle - to laugh with repeated short catches of the breath

Guffaw - a loud or boisterous burst of laughter

Horselaugh - a loud boisterous laugh

In hysterics - laughing very hard

In stitches - in a state of uncontrollable laughter

Split one's sides - to laugh heartily

Twitter - a light silly laugh; giggle

Source ⚜ More: References ⚜ Writing Resources PDFs ⚜ Laughter & Humour

Hope this helps with your writing!

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[valeriel]

does anyone know where the love of god goes when the waves turn the minutes to hours?

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