Thinking a lot about a conversation I had with Lucifer lately that was basically like
We were laying together and he was like, petting my stomach I guess, he asked me if I was in puppy mode.
What do you mean puppy mode?
And I found that interesting and kinda strange because like, I'm not sure I know how to explain this well. I had never "regressed" before meeting Lucifer, I am not an age regressor at all, not exactly feral either, I suppose I just feel more regressed, simple, vulnerable and emotional, when I'm in a hard sub space. Beyond the whole vessel thing, Lucifer has the ability to put me in a kind of trance just by being my dom. I think other subs will be able to relate to this. Its just a natural response to his energy. He makes me feel safe enough to be small, even when it isn't necessary an age or inhuman thing.
So I said like, "oh, not at all, I'm not regressed right now".
And he was like "I know, just teasing because you're walking around on all fours".- I was crawling around in the grass. But then he looked down at me and sort of squinted.
"Do you feel like an animal?"
"Well, I was talking to one of my devotees about you recently. He's a therian, a fox type, and he asked me if you were also a therian, by virtue of you being a "puppy boy". I told him no, but I didn't ask you first."
I've never really identified as a therian or anything non- human.
"I wasn't actually entirely sure, because you love the collar, the leash, the kennel, but I've never seen you express interest in the tail, ears, or using a dog bowl, for instance."
It made me think. I don't identify with canines or felines. The collar thing always felt more like a claim than a dog thing. The kennel, that's just my cozy decompression chamber. And the puppy thing always felt more like an archetype.
"I don't know, I see myself as your pup, and your dog, more as an archetype. I am loyal to you as a dog is."
"But when we're playing, or I'm training you, and you regress into a more primal state, you don't feel like an animal?"
"Well, I guess I do, but I feel like a human animal rather than some other species."
"Ah," he said with a nod. "See, that's how I feel about you."
"From my perspective all humans are animals. I like seeing you in that state because it force overrides your human domestication in favour of my elevated* domestication. You become less of a man, and in turn become more of a human, which makes you more of a boy, my boy. I already find many of your little mannerisms to be very animal."
And I was like oh like what?
And he smiled at me and said that the way I stretch my arms, my shoulders and back, was a very "human animal" thing.
"The way you smell your food, and eat your food," he sort of giggled like he found it funny, "when you hold it in your hands and break it into smaller pieces with your fingers... or when you bite your lips, or finger nails"
Oh??? I found this so interesting.
"When a human being squints, I suppose I see it like a dog turning their tail. Smiling of course is a big one. The way a man will scratch or fiddle with his facial hair, laughing. Rubbing your eyes with your fingers. Or that thing you do when you want to look a far distance and you put your hand up to block out the sun. That's cute."
He shrugged, "I suppose when a human rests their arm on their hip, or their arms above their head, the way you shake your head when you want to say no. Crying, shrugging," he shrugged again. "The way you count on your fingers, haha," he laughed, "I'm a fan of that one," he then counted his own fingers in an almost mocking, humorous way.
"Huh... I guess I never considered how these ... behaviours would look from a being who doesn't distinguish between human animals and other mammals I guess."
"When you "regress", into a sub space, your natural human tendency to seek praise and affection takes over stronger than your civilized embarrassment. You know what's funny is that humans are really quite sweet creatures."
"You'd say humans are naturally friendly?"
"Very much so, humans are worse than dogs in their fondness. Most men can be tamed with enough time and kindness."
"So you consider yourself to be a creature taking an animal as a pet, and that pet just happens to he homosapien?"
"On some level. You're slightly too intelligent to be just a pet."
"You must regress a bit to get into the right "puppy" mindset. Otherwise, you talk too much and ask too many questions. A good dog doesn't ask why you told him to sit. There has to be a greater intelligence disparity."
I sort of gave him a joking sulking look.
"I adopted a man rather than a dog because I like your intelligence. Take it as a compliment."
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