stupid jealous vent, no trigger warnings I’m just petty
How we wish we were here, I wish we could afford to buy things. I wish how we could spend money like it’s nothing I wish we had no responsibilities in life
He’s out here getting the Nintendo switch 2 on release date and then we’re sitting here with no money a week till we get paid and we are just living on 4 bucks, what the fuck is that gonna get in this economy? We’ve been eating cracker bread because that’s really all we have right now until we get paid.
but her? She didn’t have that she is older than us but lives with her parents and doesn’t work. She can work she just doesn’t want to she has admitted that, I mean not working if you can’t, we can barely do it but we have to because we need to live sadly. I just find it unfair but someone like her who has admitted that she could work but she doesn’t want to can get money and yet we are barely functioning and we have to push on anyway.
how I wish I could buy a Nintendo switch 2 on release, we probably wouldn’t even do that we play most of our games on PC but to have the money and be able to have luxuries all the time would be nice yeah we do post about stuff we bought, but we don’t do that every month, not even most we just wish we had the money to have luxuries and survival, but she doesn’t have to worry about that.
We live on our own we pay rent we have bills we live and she knows it because she is one of our best friends but yet she rubs it in our faces when she can get a luxury but we can’t because we can’t afford to and she has always been like this since high school and we just feel jealous, not even because she has them but because we can’t have them in fact that she knows we can insist we need to see anyway I wish she understood but she never will.
Disability benefits should still stay in place, but she isn’t disabled. She has said that she’s not, she could work if she wanted to, but she just doesn’t and I get not wanting a job but the fact that you’re using benefits that could go to someone who needs that kind of rubs us the wrong way + we could probably be doing with something like that because having a CDD + AuDHD + a learning disability it’s fucking hard and our day-to-day function is horrific. We would benefit greatly if we could get on disability, but we can’t because people like her use it and don’t need it. I have the end of the day we usually just come home and are so burned out we literally can’t eat or shower some days or even function and she will never understand that and I’m glad she won’t but the audacity she has to like push things in our face when she knows that we can’t afford it it’s kind of rude.
I’m not saying she can’t show us nice things, but when it’s constant every time she has something nice and those that we can’t afford it especially when it’s something she knows we want like when we wanted a new iPad because our old one just doesn’t work anymore she got one and showed us that just to say that she has it and I don’t know why. I just wish she could understand what it’s like to have nothing we grew up broke we are still broke. We probably always will be. She will never get that. She will never understand what it’s like to work your ass off for minimum wage barely function mentally be so burned out and barely have any money because she gets it for nothing she lives with her parents. She’ll never have to worry about rent and she doesn’t wanna move out.
I just don’t get it, why do we have to suffer but she doesn’t I don’t want her to suffer she’s been our best friend since high school but the amount of jealousy I’ve felt for her since this morning is insane we don’t even want a switch 2 we just wish we could afford to buy one because then we could probably afford to live a bit more comfortable
