Worry is a Waste

[theycallmeyammy]

I shouldn’t reach out

But I do

The validation your lust offers

Keeps the demons at bay

Just a little while longer

[theycallmeyammy]

You pass me by

Like a phantom on the wind

Skin aglow in the afternoon sun

Golden hour has you glimmering

Like the hope that kindles in my heart

I see the smile

Creep across your lips

As a hint of one begins to slip across mine

I always hope that your lips are betraying you

And that cool indifference I often see

I’m forever hoping that the crack I see

In your demeanor is coming from the heart

And not from somewhere far more nefarious

[8nin]

Maybe my problem was expecting the same heart I gave, to be given back.

[remanence-of-love]

[inkandheartbreak]

but what is a heart if it cannot love the one it has chosen, the one it aches for, yet cannot hold?

what is it worth © All Rights Reserved — Jai

[hereiswhatremains]

"The world is happening in a room that I can't enter, life is happening in a gathering I am not invited to. Being unwanted is a language I am fluent in."

— Fatima Amir Bilal

[theycallmeyammy]

I am the fly trapped in your honey— I can never escape you. Drawn in by your sweetness, I’m never quite sure I really want to.

-drowning in your honey seems like lovely way to die

[theycallmeyammy]

But I wouldn’t let the weight of you drag me to the bottom of the sea to bury me among the bones of your past. I wouldn’t let that darkness swallow me. No— I would find a way out of the unrelenting heartache that you brought upon me when your gaze first leveled with mine. I refuse to drown in your waters.

[theycallmeyammy]

It was there in your eyes, The dreams I had built—Unknowing, That those same honeyed eyes would burn me down to mere embers. I’d let the flame consume me rather than live a minute without them. Instead of fleeing, I counted the freckles on your skin one last time.

— You are a sickness, my sickness

[theycallmeyammy]

It seems, that it is my curse to watch the ones I love— move on without me.

[theycallmeyammy]

Sit with it

Embrace that cold rage

Breathe it in

Let it go

[theycallmeyammy]

All I want

Is to lay on the ground

Let the moss

Or ivy

Cover my brittle bones

And return me

Back to the earth

- I miss who I was before I met you-

[theycallmeyammy]

I’m clawing my way out of this hell you put me in

[theycallmeyammy]

You were a trick of light

Shimmering so bright

And gone in an instant

[theycallmeyammy]

Why do I want someone who doesn’t want me?

[arabhoneey]

my mind is an ocean, you would drown trying to understand it.

[theycallmeyammy]

I cleaned everything with the hope

The wish

That maybe you had changed your mind

That perhaps

Your feelings matched mine

And you couldn’t imagine

Holding yourself back from me

I was wrong of course

I am never lucky in love

Always the rule

Never the exception