Things I Wish I Said

[thingsiwishisaid01]

[thingsiwishisaid01]

You may not have been my first

Or my last

But you were my greatest.

[lovemakesyouwonder]

[thingsiwishisaid01]

And there you are

Pretending everything is fine.

[thingsiwishisaid01]

Your death hits me harder knowing you will miss all his firsts..

His first smile

His first steps

His first Christmas

So many firsts

Without you…

It’s a heartache I can’t quite explain.

[thingsiwishisaid01]

If you loved me .. why did you text her?

[thingsiwishisaid01]

Does this sadness ever really go away?

[thingsiwishisaid01]

The worst part is.. I hear you talking behind my back. I trusted you.. I’m completely shattered.

[thingsiwishisaid01]

Why do tears always fall when I least expect it

Why are decisions so hard

when I secretly know what I need to do

Why couldn’t I be better

Do better

Why are the words never there when I go to speak

Why does my heart break

But I feel it so deep

[thingsiwishisaid01]

Can I take back the things I never said?

[thingsiwishisaid01]

I promise to dance in the rain

I promise to catch butterflies

I promise to watch sunsets with you

to make adventures

And battle monsters

to let you make mistakes

How to love the small things

I promise to hold you

Love you

And protect you

Like my parents never did

I promise to be better

I promise to let you jump In puddles

And tell you how beautiful you are

I promise to teach you to love yourself

Something I could never do..

I promise to give you a better life

And make every moment last

I promise to cherish you.

I will fight for you

My sweet baby

I will give you every part of me,

Always

[thingsiwishisaid01]

I think my problem is I care to much

For people who care so little

[thingsiwishisaid01]

Why do you do this to me?

Is it really all me?

Am I ruining us?

The truth is I’m scared of losing you

But I know your already gone.

I know you care

But is that enough?

Why is this happening to me

Why do I stay while your so easily opening that door to leave?

[thingsiwishisaid01]

I miss someone

Who doesn’t even think to call

I guess you just dont care at all

You use to be by my side

My rock

Now all I can do is skip you across the lake

Waiting,

Hoping

one day

You will

return.

[titsay]

[thingsiwishisaid01]

DONT let them win

DONT let them see you cry

Tell everyone your fine

Until you believe it

[thingsiwishisaid01]

Be the better person