many thoughts, head empty

• A little thingo with a brain that wont stop having thoughts about shows i like • Bit of a revolving door of fandoms • things include: camp cretaceous, httyd, TOH, amphibia, Danny phantom, aspec stuff, maybe a bit of space photos, things i find funny

[mar64ds]

Happy pride! If you’re looking for aspec stories, I could recommend you my RPG Maker games.

-Friendship Test: A long story-focused game that explores different aspec identities (aromanticism, aplatonicism, lovelessness…). Lots of aspecs have seen themselves on this game, maybe you’re next. Jokes aside, it’s a passion project that means a lot to me and it’s completely free for you to enjoy!

-Exe tries to save the holidays: A short follow-up to Friendship Test! While the main focus is not on aspec themes, we do have an aspec protagonist whose identity is important for her character. The game only costs 1,30$!

-Estranged Family: A spin-off to Friendship Test which is currently on development, but there is a 2 hour long demo available! I continue to explore more aspec themes here, maybe you’ll like this one too!

-Obsolete Friends: A short semi-horror game, unrelated to the Friendship Test series. Aspec themes are not the main focus, but there are aspec characters that are important to the story. It’s my newest game and it costs 2$!

You can find all my games on itch.io! Or you can watch full playthrough on the official channels for each game. Sorry I can't link anything cause Tumblr always makes sure my posts don't show up on the tags when I include links. But you can find everything on the blogs @friendship-test and @obsolete-friends ! Either way, thanks for reading!

[thisisindeedausername]

got ‘he/him’d by a guy on the train today. i’m not one for euphoria but i am feeling very :) about it

[quinnfebrey]

asians: pls care about racism against us

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[quinnfebrey]

like literally the fact that this has 9 notes (and most other posts abt asian american rep i’ve seen, rbed, or written have similar amounts), is proving my point. every time i reblog or post anything about racism agains asians, i can literally see everyone scrolling past it. not even given a performative like. are y’all consciously ignoring it or are you truly just that desensitized to racism against asians?

[madsinactivelol]

May I add:

Dont fetishize asians.

Dont make coronavirus jokes about asians. (Yes, it’s still happening, and it’s still a problem.)

Dont like?? Stereotype asians? Not every asian you’re going to meet is good at math or lives on a diet of rice, that’s just rude as hell and wrong

[reihara-deactivated20220417]

Exactly. Speak up for everyone.

Keep the same energy for racism against all asians as we do with other races. That includes more than just east asians. Asia is more than China, Japan and Korea.

And I see y'all, you’re really selective about the shit y'all reblog from me. This should have more than one reblog.

[mrs-lockley]

There has been a sharp increase of AAPI hate crimes ever since the pandemic (especially in the Bay Area if you live in the United States). If you’re going to be an advocate for Asians, please don’t forget to include Southeast Asians, South Asians, Western Asians, Central Asians, and our Pacific Islander cousins in your activism. As well as mixed Asians, too, especially if they’re not white passing

[pishywwu]

Water is a little difficult to work with in regards to my irl research, and it only makes sense coming from this guy 🫶🫶 I love him look he's happy and I'm happy and so is Luna yay!

[starlightandtears]

Finding out that Frances Dana Barker Gage, a white woman, rewrote Sojourner Truth’s famous speech to be more stereotypically “Southern slave” (complete with slurs and misspellings like dat, dere, dey) when Sojourner Truth was actually from New York and spoke only Dutch until she was almost ten and wouldn’t have actually sounded that way linguistically and decidedly did not use the phrase “Ain’t I A Woman?” at all is…whew. And on top of everything, she embellished details about Sojourner Truth’s life (like the number of children she had/how many of them were sold into slavery), wrote that ST said that she could take beatings like a man, and the reception of the speech in the room (she claims ST was called a n*gg*r, earlier accounts say the room was welcoming).

Lmaooo peak white feminist antics.

[deermouth]

You can read the most accurate transcript here, alongside the racist edited one.

[unthrifty--loveliness-deactivat]

I was already disgusted just reading about this but looking at the side-by-side comparison of the real speech and the rewrite really brought it home.

See the two versions of her first line below:

[ai-yo]

Yeah I remember a few years ago when I found this out through Feminista Jones and was mad but not that surprised because white woman so….

[enchantedpencilcomics]

This sent me down a bit of a research rabbit hole and I found a cool thing where afro Dutch women read Sojourner’s speech aloud in their contemporary Dutch dialects in hope of offering a more truthful rendition of her authentic Dutch voice.

[adriagan]

it fucking sucks being a disabled person who can't work and having to see these fuckass posts where someone's like "ahaha jobless people have no life and that's why everyone shitty online has No Job" and everyone and their mother reblogs it joyfully onto my dash for me to see. yes unemployed and unemployable people are truly without exception dogshit people with no hobbies and no redeeming qualities. you're so right. anyway if you'll excuse me i have to start my shift at the I'll Never Be Employed Because Of Permanent Disability And I Love Knowing How You Really See Me store

[adriagan]

if ur able to work can u reblog this i am seriously SO sick of it.

[adriagan]

btw this isn't solely a disability rights issue or an issue about people who are entirely unable to work. you should also be thinking about the people who are regarded as unhireable. transfems are hugely discriminated against in this way, people of color are passed over for less qualified white people, anyone who has any difficulty playing the interview game is less hireable... frankly anyone who made the mistake of pursuing the things they love and now has a degree for a niche field. if you still joke about Jobless People it's because you've fundamentally connected the worth of people to their labor, and specific labor, work that you see as valuable. and while i'm at it stop making fun of people who still live with their parents. asshole.

[thisisindeedausername]

the fact that adhd (et. al) makes certain tasks innately harder just adds another layer of complexity when it comes to building skills. like am i bad at [ thing ] because it requires a skill that's impacted by my literal actual disability, or am i just regular-flavor Bad At This because im out of practice?

is it worth putting time and effort into [ skill ] knowing that said effort might not be worth as much here (read: not make as much of a difference) as it might be somewhere else?

This is probably applicable to a lot of things like learning disabilities or other brain-related developmental things (and probably the not-neurodevelopmental ones too but i dont have any of them so i cant confirm). I expect that most if not all of them have at least some skills that are "only partially" impacted.

[thisisindeedausername]

strange and perhaps unexpected thoughts: ive been playing Honkai Star Rail and i gotta say, Sampo Koski and GoodTimeWithScar (esp in Secret Life) just have very similar vibes.

[thisisindeedausername]

having a lack of emotional "object permanence" is so wild. i start work on one of my uni courses, dreading having to do more work. I get blindsided by "fuck yeah, this rocks" for 5 hours, summoning related interests from the depths of the past (1 year ago) until my momentum runs out and everything grinds to a halt. i stand up to get a drink and 3 minutes later the enthusiasm is already faded like some distant past life. i'm doing it again from the top the next day.

[our-aplatonic-experience]

I kinda resigned myself to call my friends, well, friends beacuse im allosocial and enjoy talking to them but now i've gotten close to them and even invited one of them to my house ans i truly dont know how to feel.

In one hand, i like them and enjoy talking and getting to understand them.

In another hand, i feel so repulsed because now we are (accidentaly) friends friends.

I feel like an asshole, but i will prob end talking to them abt my feelings. But also....im a lonely person, i dont want to end our relationship and in general i truly like forming connections. Yes, thats the aspect that makes me be fine with having friends, connection. But i truly feel repulsed by platonic love and commitment and platonicness in general. I just want a passing yet real connection with someone, but everyone enters a friendship expecting the opposite.

I truly dont know how to feel or what to do. This is hell.

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[suretkerim]

Invisobang 2025 :D

My piece for Bury the dead by @bluebird8683

[thebooo-merang]

Danny is a Rogue class in the new Nicktoons game Nicktoons & The Dice of Destiny! Wanted to doodle his rouge design!

[leikeliscomet]

I don't know if this was a sub but I'm still gonna say something cus it reeks of main character syndrome and I'm tired of compulsory sexuality and homophobia coming out of aromantic tumblr.

Love is Love and Love Wins are not aphobic. It is not aphobic for allorose gay people to defend *themselves* against puritanism and homophobia. It is not aphobic for allorose gay people to have marriage rights and defend their romantic attraction to the same gender in a society that oppresses them for it. You can't be excluded or oppressed by something that was made for the benefit of another marginalised group defending themselves. If you lot read a single lick of gay activist theory you would know they also fought against compulsory sexuality and amatonormativity, they just didn't have the word for it at the time. The Gay Liberation Front wrote about how gay rights shouldnt end with marriage rights and advocated for unmarried gay men and supported non-monogamy. Audre Lorde, prominent Black lesbian activist wrote about how The Erotic should not be limited to romantic and sexual attraction, that non-sexual and non romantic intimacy were just as important for queer people not just romance and sex. Butchfemme communities protected all lesbians in the community not just the ones they were dating and having sex with. The Dyke March is for advocating for the end of patriarchy, lesbophobia and capitalism not just saying lesbians can have sex and date light cishet people do. If you think gay activism is nothing but 'romance obsession' you're either homophobic and ignorant and in dire need of picking up a book or homophobic and a liar.

Gay people are beaten, killed and oppressed for romantic attraction to the same gender. Are you really gonna sit there and say amatonormativity supports gay love with a straight fucking face? Are you really gonna sit there and say gay alloaces fighting our own oppression is the status quo? You think we're supported by the status quo? Are you fucking kidding me?

'Alloaces always speak when they're not even aro' Oh but it's free game for aromantics on here to tell us we shouldn't use a pro gay love slogan as gay people who are oppressed for our love? Aromantics especially aroallos can tell us we don't experience oppression bc we're alloromantic and asexual despite report after report after report shows that asexuality is not a protected characteristic and that homophobes hate us even if we have no sex and sexual attraction? Aromantics can say "love loses" and "love doesn't win" which are the exact same things conservative homophobes said to keep gay marriage illegal? Aromantics can say our romantic attraction is fake and our romance isn't real just bc there's no sex just like cishet people do? That conservatives can say explicitly that alloromantic asexuality doesn't exist bc they see us as inherently sexual no matter what we do? Alloaces especially gay alloaces have the right to fucking speak to defend our gayness when you're spreading homophobic talking points in a community that is supposed to be safe for us from the oppression we get for our romantic attraction from the rest of society.

The concept of centering is so foreign to this community because liberal individualism has you all gripped by the throat. Is pro-gay sex activism acephobic too? Is it acephobic for allorose people to say 'have gay sex' now? Is 'trans rights are human rights' now cisphobic because cis people are left out? Other queer people are not oppressing you by virtue of having romantic and sexual attraction and advocating for it. You lot are so fucking selfish to be willing to abandon the needs and rights of queer people just because they have an attraction that you don't have. Yeah some aspecs won't be having gay sex or gay romance but guess what you still need to care about the queer people who do because its called solidarity and community, in the same way we expect non-aspec queer people to be in solidarity with us. The same anti gay love people who hate allorose and alloace gays are the same people coming after loveless aros. You are giving them exactly what they want every single time you flap your gums about how much you hate the icky romo queers.

Anti-queer fascism is rebranding and growing to levels it hasn't reached for decades. A lot of aspecs are gonna learn the hard way that this separatist movement between aromantics away from asexuals and aspecs away from non-aspec queers is gonna bite you in the nyash and the same anti gay love conservatives you pander to will put your arse on the chopping block right after they come for us 'romance obsessed' gays.

If you're an aspec that genuinely believes Love is Love and Love Wins are aphobic and you actually think non-aspec queer people's romantic and sexual attraction is inherently oppressive and bad stay thee FUCK away from me, unfollow and softblock me and stop reblogging and liking my posts. Wouldn't wanna get my disgusting dyke romantic obsession on you by mistake.

[thisisindeedausername]

sometimes i feel like something got lost between the earlier queer movement and where we are now, i genuinely dont know or sure how we went from that to this but i have a hunch that its because we all tend to stay in our own community groups and dont mingle and read each others' theory, so we cant see that we're actually pretty similar in terms of goals and all communities are contributing to one giant discussion.

just to make sure im coming across as i mean to, this isnt some kind of "nobody is in the wrong so stop being mad" kind of post, im actually trying to point to a cause of it all so it can hopefully stop. Trash Discourse on Youtube ("Are Asexuals Queer?") made a video recently that is essentially what im saying here.

both groups are getting crap for doing whats natural, and both groups are told "if only you would be like these other people, we wouldnt hate you." it doestn intuitively track that is a lie. intentional or not, the people who say this arent telling you how to fit the mould and escape punishment, theyre telling you to suffer for not doing Straightness the right way (cis heteronormative monogamous amatonormative etc relationships. the 'straight and narrow'). the apparent "answer" to escape oppression for one group is the exact reason another group is being oppressed, but thats hard to see when youre constantly at risk of being attacked like both groups are. so, we end up fighting each other.

whether this is intentionally done by the bigots isnt relevant, though i think it probably isnt. the main point, though, is that it happens, and knowing that it happens makes it much easier to spot.

[plum-petunia]

I so so so hate the "soulmate" trope where "everyone has a soulmate." And, no, people going "oh look at these friends who are soulmates! I'm so inclusive to aspecs!" just. Do. Not. Get it. And they won't! They don't get that the issue isn't the romance or whatever of soulmates, it's the implication that everyone must partner up, even if it's with a qpp or friend or whatever. Nope! I'm not partnering! I don't care for your amatonormativity! And yes you "replacing" romance with a friend or qpp is still amatonormativity because I don't trust that you don't see those as Romance Lite(tm) in this context! And I bitterly resent the implication that I am fundamentally less human--literally missing part of my soul--because I don't want a partner. So yeah culturally it is soooo time to get over fucking "soulmates."

[inmemoriame]

I'm looking into a possible connection between shipping in modern day fandom and amatonormativity, and I've made a questionnaire so I can gather people's opinions and beliefs in regards to the topic to see if i can come up with any answers

it would be really helpful if anyone would be willing to fill it out and/or share it around so I can gather more data

Shipping and Amatonormativity

I'm looking into a possible connection between modern day shipping culture in fandom and if amatonormativity could be affecting it. If you a

[our-aplatonic-experience]

my rather specific aplatonic experience is regularly guiding random new players around in videogames so they get a good experience and because its fun :D and then they ask to be friends D: and i just gotta smile and nod and accept the friend request and log off until theyre gone and hope they forget i exist.

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[the-indigo-symphony]

This sort of thing is why I don't think we will be able to have the communities (especially local communities) that people (especially activists) shout about everyone "needing" unless people learn to divorce kindness from friendship. I just don't. If you equate the two then you break the whole idea of community, of being kind to people just because they are people, of being there for each other even if you don't really like each other. If you equate the two, then you can't be kind to someone unless you care about them personally. You can't accept or show kindness without expecting more from the other person. You can't just help someone out, you have to be ready to dedicate yourself to a relationship you might not want or have the energy/headspace for. You can't stand up for someone who is experiencing injustice without apparently being besties with them and supporting everything they do (looking at you, Tumblr). It fucking sucks and discourages people from common courtesy or even upholding fairness. Equating friendship and kindness is possibly my least favorite form of platonormativity.

Kindness ≠ friendship, and being kind ≠ expressing platonic attraction. The day people understand that, I will dance in the streets.

[brainrotranch]

Aspec Experiences in the Hermitcraft-Empires-Life SMP Fandomsphere

I have created a google form to survey the relationship between this fandom and aspec identities. Everyone can and is encouraged to answer, if you are willing. It is very long, and has several sections where you are allowed to rant away on the subject, so feel free to take your time.

Also apologies ahead of time for any errors, seemingly obvious missed questions, or strange wording. I did my best and quintuple checked it, but I also have Skizz-level observational skills.

Please share it around, especially to those in different circles of the fandom than yourself. I wanna get as many answers as possible from as many corners as possible.