Love can be beautiful or tragic, or both....

Writing enthusiast //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

i’ve been trying not show it but,

i love you.

i love you voice, your eyes, your sense of humour, the way you scrunch your nose when you laugh, your shitty car, your bad jokes, the way you understand me, our long talks.

i love everything, i love you.

excerpt from a book i’ll never write #103 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

i’m sorry, i forgive you

so you want to talk about forgiveness.

forgiveness can be such a huge thing. forgiving someone can be hard. it can take a lot of time to forgive people. whether it takes days, weeks, months or sometimes even years. you have to work it out for yourself and what you believe. forgiveness can be apart of the healing process. when forgiving someone, it doesn’t mean that you’re okay with what they’ve done or you’re agreeing with it, it’s that you’ve come to terms with it. i have forgave a lot of people in my life. and yes it can be extremely hard. to this day, i still forgave some people, but i still struggle with feelings of what they’ve done. but that’s normal. i personally think that you should always try to forgive someone, if not for them, for yourself. hanging on to feelings of hatred towards someone is not healthy for yourself. you always want to continue to grow, and holding onto negative feelings puts growing at a holt. i am still working on forgiveness. trying to forgive people who haven’t apologized for their actions towards me. trying to find peace within myself. i think forgiveness is important in all types of relationships

excerpt from a book i’ll never write #102 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

the last time

bed head squinty eyes

wearing the shirt i got you for christmas

if i knew that was the last time i’d see you

i’d make you laugh once more

and hug you longer

excerpt from a book i’ll never write #101 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

Because I’m a Girl

Because I’m a girl

I was 12 years old when older men started to wink and whistle at me

Because I’m a girl

I got told “Your glasses make you look sexy”

in front of my father

Because I’m a girl

I got told “You’re so beautiful, what’s your name? What’s your number?”

before I even said a word to him

Because I’m a girl

I got told “Hey pretty lady, you’d look better if you smiled”

Because I’m a girl

I was asked by older men at work

if I could give them a “special handshake”

because they were repeating customers

and thought that they deserved a reward

Because I’m a girl

I got pepper spray from my father at age 14

Because I’m a girl

I don’t truly feel safe in this world

In grade 11 philosophy our teacher told us to raise our hands

if we have ever been catcalled or sexually harassed

in a room of 16 and 17 year olds

every. single. girl.

raised her hand

This is a problem

that all girls experience

Because I’m a girl

I have a 1 in 4 chance of getting raped

Because I’m a girl.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #100 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

As the sun sets I feel a sense of peace, of calmness. I want to be in that state always.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #99 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

He yelled. I cried, and left.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #98 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

Ask me out already god damn! What are you waiting for? Well, I do get what you're waiting for and maybe it's actually not the best idea for us to date...but I just want some fun. I'm going to let my heart control me instead of my mind for once. This could be a terrible idea, but I don't care. At least I think I don't care. So, how's next Friday sound?

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #97 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

He likes me.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #96 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

I'm so fucking pissed off that money dictates so much of peoples life. You shouldn't miss out or struggle in life because you lack money, because of paper.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #95 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

It's so crazy how so much can change in a year. You can do so much for someone, create and build years and years of friendship, and they can just throw all of it out, just like that. Cut off all communication, give you dirty looks, for no god damn reason.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #94 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

I hate you

I love you

I like you

You’re okay, I guess

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #93 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

Breaking up with someone is the worst. All that time devoted to them, going out of your way to be with them, loving them. Caring about them so damn much. All of it, all of it results to crying and yelling, and hating your life. But, do you know what’s worst than just a typical break up? A break up with your friend, your best friend. All those years spent together, gone. All those childhood memories ruined. You awkwardly see them in the hall and try to avoid eye contact. You sit on the opposite side of the classroom, you don’t even go into the cafeteria anymore. You feel, empty, numb. This person who you used to tell everything to, the person who you shared your deepest darkest secrets with, and who you shared your happiest memories with, are now but all a stranger. And that’s all they’ll ever will be, now. They were the person who was closest to you, and now you couldn’t get any farther a part.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #92 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

Karma

Do something good, something good will happen to you in return.

Do something bad, something bad will happen to you in return.

Do something good, being nice goes a long way.

Don’t be an asshole

Except from a book I’ll never write #91 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

An update about this account

Hello everyone, not that you’ll see this or that you’ll care but I just wanted to give an update on this account. I have proudly had this account for three years now, I started it right at the beginning of high school. If you’re following that I’m now a junior in high school. I’ve been very busy lately and I haven’t used this account as much as I’d like to. School is an issue, being stressed and all that but I’ve also gained many health problems in the last couple years that I’m dealing with right now. Also my anxiety, depression, and various eating disorders have not helped. Over the last month all of my friends at school but two decided to stop talking to me and to ignore me. With that situation in mind I have been inspired to write a lot of different pieces. I will be using this account much more often now using my real life experiences as stories, they’re going to be raw and heartfelt and I hope that you all enjoy them. So here’s to me starting to write and use this account again. Thank you for following me I love you all so much

[thisunbreakinghuman]

I can't help it, she's too perfect. Everything about her. Her eyes, her lips, her hips. Her love for others, her sense of humour, her intelligence. How'd I get so lucky to be able to have her.

— Excerpt from a book I'll never write #90 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

I found love right in front of me, I had been looking all around for it, but it was always right in front of me. You, you were right in front of me.

Excerpt from a book I'll never write #89 //e.m//

[thisunbreakinghuman]

I miss the chase, the uncertainty, the butterflies I got when I saw you

Excerpt from a book that I'll never write #88 //e.m//