Who will initiate such close contact first?
Itās been a few months since youāve met your host. As a borrower, itās tricky to navigate relationships with any humans, with the standard rule being not to have any at all. Something about this one in particular, though... for some reason, youāve swiftly gone from being terrified of him to trusting him enough to spend time away from the security of the walls in his home.
You donāt quite understand how, but heās somehow convinced you to start sleeping in his room with him on his nightstand. You think you heard him say something about the weather getting colder, that he keeps his room warm, that he wants to protect you. You arenāt entirely sure though, given how much he was awkwardly mumbling about it.
Either way, youāve found yourself snuggled up in a small blanket thatās been bundled up for you on his nightstand. Youāve brought your blanket and pillow from your home, and while youāve honestly never felt more exposed, youāve also never been this comfortable while sleeping before. Life as a borrower has never really been about comfort, but you canāt help but let yourself enjoy the feeling of waking up more refreshed than ever before.
Youāve noticed, however, the same feeling of being seen as you had when he first caught you stuck high up after having dropped your hook. You can tell heās been watching you after youāve closed your eyes. It would be creepier if you could say you werenāt doing the exact same thing every now and then, watching this enormous being sleeping so quietly just feet away from you.
Something about seeing him sleep so peacefully allures you. Youāve become increasingly annoyed at your mind plaguing you with thoughts of how it would feel to be held by his gentle hands while he sleeps. All it took was one brief moment of consideration, and now the idea just wonāt leave you alone. You wouldnāt admit it to anyone else, but youāve even had dreams about him holding you, protecting you, keeping you warm and safe from a world thatās just too big for you.
Youād been wondering if he feels the same until you two made a brief moment of eye contact. Immediately, you saw the warm, protective look in his eyes, and you know he saw the yearning look in yours to be closer to him. Now that you know exactly how heās been watching you, itās only fueled your emotions more, and you can only imagine how he feels after seeing how you were watching him too.
At this point, youāre trapped in a stalemate. You want so badly to fall asleep on his warm chest, to feel hands that once terrified you hold, comfort, and keep you warm against him. You know he deeply desires to tuck you close to him while you sleep, to feel your tiny body safely nestled away under his hand, but neither of you have said anything about it. Youāre both too shy, and this has been dragging on for far longer than it should have at this point.
You donāt know which of you is going to crack first. Youāve almost opened your mouth a couple of times to bring it up, and you know heās almost reached for you just as much. Both of you have been bailing at the last second, however, leading to continued internal anguish as you both end up sleeping in two different beds yet again.
As you wrap yourself up under your blanket to go to sleep alone on your tiny bed on his nightstand again, you hear a defeated sigh a few feet from you. You can feel his presence close by, stiffening as you know his eyes are locked onto you. He looms over you, his shadow encompassing you entirely as he reaches in. You can hear his breathing, slightly faster than usual. His nerves are on full display, but you keep yourself still as you are, curled up in the folds of the blanket with the softest surface youāve ever slept on, wondering what happens next.
He softly brushes the back of a finger over you, gauging your reaction as you stiffen for a moment, then relax under his touch. He whispers softly to you, and you feel chills across your entire body as he speaks two words to you.
You immediately feel warmth through your entire body, knowing whatās about to happen next. Ever so gently, his fingers begin to work their way through the folds of the blanket, seeking out and curling around you as he lifts you up, taking your own tiny little blanket with you as you cling tightly to it.
Despite his loose hold on you, youāre certain he wonāt drop you. He brings you safely across the gap between the nightstand and his bed, and moments later, youāre lowered and softly laid down onto his chest.
The moment you make contact with the vast, living surface beneath you, you curl inward under your blanket as he adjusts his position. Youāre exactly where youāve wanted to be, and the different emotions swirling inside you are making it really hard to be relaxed about this. Itās only when you feel his massive hand come to softly rest atop you that youāre shaken from your frantic thoughts, realizing youāre surrounded entirely by him, now.
You feel warm, you feel cared for, you feel safe under his hand, acting as a massive weighted blanket atop you to keep you feeling secure and protected. You never thought youād be here, being cuddled to sleep by the very thing youād been taught to avoid your entire life, yet here you are.
Youāre hard pressed to remember a time in your life where you felt happier and safer. You can feel the rise and fall of his breathing and his heart slowly beating beneath you. Itās a constant reminder that heās alive, and it comforts you. His thumb begins to rub soft, small circles over your shoulder, coaxing you to relax and take a deep breath. Heās got you, heāll keep you safe, thereās nothing you need to worry about. For now, itās time to fall asleep. Just close your eyes and let yourself slowly drift offā¦
