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Do me a favor. Reblog this if you welcome the use of ask memes as icebreakers between characters that have never, or rarely, interacted before.

#flaws in my code. | ooc #shouted from the rooftop. | psa

sandcvstles

hurt meme.

“ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”

“i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”

“my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”

“i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”

“don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!”

“i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”

“please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”

“you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”

“you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”

“i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”

“i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”

“i fucked up, why do you not care?”

“i can’t walk, just go on without me.”

“you have broken ribs, take it easy.”

“i have no idea how to do cpr.”

“whose blood is that?”

“apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”

“don’t you dare fucking let go!”

“what the hell happened to you?”

“are they dead? did you kill them?”

“do you know what you’ve done?”

“you’re either with me or against me.”

“who the hell did this to you?”

“are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…”

“i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?”

“when was the last time you ate?”

“what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!”

“i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.”

“for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“

“there’s so much blood, you won’t last.”

“are you… throwing up in there?”

“why aren’t you eating?”

“just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.”

“i can’t breathe, i can’t –”

“i woke up, & you were gone.”

“just tell me something, was it really worth it?”

“it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”

#who is in control? | meme

windmill69

Fallen

#not just their toy. | self #that's a fine looking high horse. | connor #emma. tag tba #daniel vc as he falls: get fucked connoooooor

windmill69

I was scared…

That’s why I shot you

#not just their toy. | self #ooc ; (look @ him........ son boy...............)

ooc.

#flaws in my code. | ooc #ooc ; (boutta hit that h)#ooc ; (im overwhelmed)#ooc ; (i want to write tho so i will)#ooc ; (need to get to school work too)#ooc ; (i can let that slip)#ooc ; (not feelin it)

ooc ; so i let this blog slip agai n

#flaws in my code. | ooc #ooc ; (depression hit me hard lads)#ooc ; (and it's still kickin' my ass)#ooc ; (but im here n im gonna try do stuff aroun my school work)#ooc ; (im so bad and unmotivated yeet me)

ooc ; i have so much to get to and im just like ugh life u know

#flaws in my code. | ooc #ooc ; (that's the mood)#ooc ; (also im signed in here on the wrong browser so i don't have xkit and it's so weird)#ooc ; (and also. i have stuff 2 do for my dad and for college so im gonna prioritise those things first)#ooc ; (bit of graphics work for my dad)#ooc ; (says im gonna get paid for it im not counting on it)#ooc ; (and for college i have a computing project)#ooc ; (it's effort)#ooc ; (im gonna get to those and just idk wait 'til the muse comes back skfjks)#ooc ; (lookin @ my writing it's coming back slowly but surely!!)

ooc ; it’s been like idk over a week probably since i’ve been here skfksjf but im back!!

sorry if i worried anyone by being gone for like over a week ksjks i was w my gf for like 3 days (i had a great time <3) and when i got back i was tired and had no motivation for writing so i’ve just been kind of lounging around the house

but im here n im gonna get 2 drafts n inbox stuff v slowly since my muse is barely here atm idk

#flaws in my code. | ooc

ooc ; why my head hurt

#flaws in my code. | ooc #ooc ; (big yeesh)#ooc ; (im in no state to write rIP)#ooc ; (might just eat smth then go tf up to my room then sleep)#ooc ; (have to be up like idk fairly early 2morrow anyway)#ooc ; (2 get ready 2 see my gf)#ooc ; (it's a shame i couldn't get more done here tho ;_; i was so stoked to)#ooc ; (can and will tomorrow)

ooc ; so i went MIA for a while i was on my personal im here but i kind of have/am getting a headache and im v tired still so if i do Anything it’ll be v slowly ‘til my head’s got its shit together

i always get headaches once a damn week w/o fail it sucks

also!! on the topic of being MIA im going to stay w my girlfriend tomorrow for a few days (we’re going to london im super excited 2 spend time w her <3) and i am gonna take my laptop but obviously im uh. not gonna be so active

i’ll likely be available far more on discord so feel free to hmu there (mutuals only and pls tell me who u r)!! my tag is thoughtmattered // nathan#4390

#flaws in my code. | ooc #ooc ; (reminder again my discord is mutuals only!!)#ooc ; (also im big anxious so i might not be good for convos @ first but!! i will try!!)

diagnonsinsarchive2-deactivated

doing risky shit because you lowkey wanna die

#user manual. | about #ask to tag //

rpxmusings

when you were M A D E to P R O T E C T , what do you do when your work is done ? ?

#can't help this awful energy. | musings

vjjblood-deactivated20170907

reblog if u an emotional crybaby but yr also heartless & have no feelings

#user manual. | about #ooc ; (this. this is daniel)

ooc ;

me, reading anything i’ve written on ruthlessefficiiency: its Bad

#flaws in my code. | ooc #ooc ; (someday i will revamp caleb.)#ooc ; (i will make my portrayal Better.)#ooc ; (i will remake and it will be better)#ooc ; (now?? daniel)

ooc ; im here but im rlly tired but i also wanna get to writing those angsty responses

#flaws in my code. | ooc

ooc ; ri gh t im off to bed it’s like 2:40am here and im getting tired kajfksj i’ll get to the rest of those memes tomorrow theyre super fun to write!! then i might open them up to be sent again hm...... if y’all are abt that angst like i am....

bu t now i need sleep inb4 im up all the rest of the night on my personal lets be honest okay goodnight im lov u all!!

#flaws in my code. | ooc

“you okay?”

send “you okay?” to find my muse sitting alone on a roof at night. || no longer accepting for now.

“Why you of all people?”Daniel growled, barely letting the wordsleave the other’s mouth before he snappedback at him, just wanting Connor to getthe fuck away and leave him well alone.

He wouldn’t have expected Connorto come check on him of his own accord, let alone to feel any sort of concern for him – this was Connor, theharsh, unfeeling machine that hadleft him for dead on that rooftop without even so much as a second glance allthose years ago. It’d been a long timesince that night, but the scars were still as fresh. He’d gone up to the roof to escape the memories and now one of the sources of his trauma stoodbehind him, asking simply if he was ‘okay’? Ironicenough, without the current scene being almost a spitting image of that nighthe’d just wanted to forget – at theend of a long fight he’d ended up stood on the edge of the ship that provided refuge for those like himself, scaredand alone as he had always been, withthat RK800 trying to talk him down again.Stupid of him to think he could put it behind him – the memories always caught up.

But was it that he knew Connor couldn’t,wouldn’t have changed even now – or wasit that he wouldn’t allow him to, determinedto stay in the past so that at least his hatredcould fuel him? He didn’t want to know the answer, but something in his nature made him stop to atleast let Connor talk. With an irritated sigh, he shot a pointed glare back over his shoulder at the RK800 who stood as he oncehad, but this time looking as worried asDaniel secretly feared he might havebeen. Concern painted on the face heloathed so much, despising even more the sadness and care in the soft, gentlebrown eyes that met his cold, icy blues.

He had nothing to say to him, nothing. So, he spat out his words,venomous and vicious tone amplifiedby gritted teeth, demanding an answeras to the other’s intent. Had he come to try and truly help this time, or tojust betray him as he had before?

“What do you want?”

#investiigative #now they're laughing in my face. | ask / submission #i thought they loved me. | main #who is in control? | meme #ooc ; (i feel like this response is so lonG and so bA D yeesh)#ooc ; (daniel just flipped tf out @ connor jgfkddfjd)

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