Thoughts of a moth

Zen has a brain (shocker) and uses it (double shocker) it/they and reflexive neos im somewhere on that arospec, babyyyy (my sexuality remains as elusive as my gender)

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: WHITEPINE - IvoryTV (Web Series) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Ivory | IvoryCello & Serapter (Video Blogging RPF) Characters: Ivory | IvoryCello (Video Blogging RPF), Serapter (Video Blogging RPF) Additional Tags: Mentioned ClownPierce (Video Blogging RPF), Past Trauma, Past Violence, Autism, Canon Autistic Character, Autistic Ivory, Anxiety, Anxiety Disorder, Separation Anxiety, Dissociation, the lowlevel dissociation that the autism+anxiety combo usually comes with, Alexithymia, Late Night Conversations, Maids, Butlers, Aristocracy, Queer Themes, they talk about calling pyro a fruit 😔, OH YEH, Mentioned Jack | Pyroscythe, Paranoia, Hypervigilance, Ableism, five big booms for minutetech calling ivory stunted..., (no booms are heard), Mentioned Detective Bormethius (WHITEPINE), and him, he is systematic ableism embodied, Fluff, mostly?, Spoilers for WHITEPINE - IvoryTV, up until episode 10, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff with a side of stifling anxiety, like if you couldnt see ivorys perspective itd all seem fluffy, Friendship, Platonic Female/Male Relationships, Candles, Darkness, Soft, this wasnt meant to be angsty but i couldnt help but mention ivorys trauma every other sentence, SORRY YALL, Light Angst, Implied/Referenced Character Death, mentions of mystys funeral, He/Him Pronouns for Jack | Pyroscythe, got his they rights removed smh Summary:

“Hey, Ivory,” Serapter returned. “Sorry, I uh, got snatched into this… whirlwind of various tasks. First Ash needed a bit of help, then Clown called me in for a quick meeting. Nothing bad, just a check-in. He might actually be calling you for one tomorrow, if he hasn’t already today.”

AKA: ivory, serapter, and detective bormethius haunting the narrative

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/genq

ok so can someone actually define romance in a way that doesnt just sound like supermegaultrafriendship please

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is it pet/age dreaming or pet/age thoughts? i dont rly do much of anything, but i purposely and artificially slow and regress my thoughts (sometimes they stay slowy tho) when i am fully capable of using my big kitty words (like this!) what is this? is there a word? i just do it cus is way better than not. i like the fluffy. is it just voluntary regression, or???

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Wandering around the streets of Hell

A stimboard! For myself! That's how I look irl, trust me

🐈‍⬛|🔥|🦴

🦴|🐈‍⬛|🔥

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c a t (me fr)

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me in terms of labels (all that are accurate)

romanticism:

nebularomantic

platoniromantic

panromantic

aegoromantic

sexuality:

haha wtf is sexuality

like i enjoy it in fiction so at least aegosexual

no clue bozo

do i want to label it? eh maybe a bit, but i literally cant so fuck it we ball

gender:

maverique

blurrian

non binary

ik it exists but i cant name it

bug when you pick up a wet twig

otherkin:

polykin

kinfluid

currently very mothlike

i also have adhd and anxiety and really wanna get tested for autism

thats pm it yippee

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reading

i love reading reading is my passion kill me if im not allowed to read

give me a book, tell me to read it i can no longer remember this language like i can no longer pronounce the word "the" and am stumbling over every single word even mentally! especially out loud, but mentally too!

like idk what this is, if this is some adhd thing, but robert, its pmo

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anyone else able to:

read romance

enjoy the romance

want to write romance

envision the romance

write the romance be physically inable to write the romance because why??? you dont know, but its kinda really frustrating bc fanfic waits for no man mentally but explodes the second theres a google doc on the screen

[animentality]

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me and my sister

[nahtrustimfine]

Having adhd means you sit down for five seconds and lose your headphones, keys and your firstborn child by the time you stand back up

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the arospec flag is so gosh damn pretty

im aroSPEC, not aromantic. im platoniromantic specifically, with a touch of idemromanticsm.

anyway, this flag is fucking pretty

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Always remember:

To my cisgender baddies: You are slay and we love you. Live life to the fullest and stay respectful. Love ya <3 To my hetero beasties: Continue doing what you're doing! Just because you're a minority doesn't mean you aren't loved. Don't forget it. <3 To my gay, lesbian, bi, pan, or any other homo folk: SLAYYYYYY WE LOVE WHO WE LOVE <3333 To my trans kings, queens, and monarchs: you are valid. If you wake up and you're "less dysphoric" than usual or other people—CEASE THE DAY! You are still valid and amounts of dysphoria fluctuate day-to-day and person-to-person. You matter <3

I love y'all 🫶🏻🫶🏼🫶🏽🫶🏾🫶🏿🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

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MY ALT IS SO FRFR 🔥🔥🔥

(It's supposed to say *NOT a minority under the hetero section lol)

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1. How many works do you have on AO3?

I have 22 total, 19 under my main pseud @RemediosWrites, 1 under my Hermitcraft pseud @RemediosWritesforHermitTWT, and 2 under my Life Series pseud @RemediosWritesforTrafficTWT.

2. What is your total AO3 word count?

After doing the maths, I apparently have 25,060 words total??? How tf did that happen 😭 /pos

3. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Slowly Learning What It Means To Live (again?) is the top with 41 kudos! Sadly, it is on hiatus and may be discontinued soon :(

A Visit With Old Friends (and Abusers) is next on the list with 31 kudos. I have sadly stopped updating it due to disinterest in the plot

QSMP x DSMP has 27 kudos and is third on this list! It is discontinued because… I don’t know the actual plot of one of the fandoms this is a crossover of.

We're All Dead in Devil Town... (But I Feel a Little Safer When I'm With You.) is fourth on this list with 17 kudos. I honestly thought it would place higher, but I guess it makes sense since it is very niche and only posted recently. BUT!- it is the only one on this list that I am still writing for! WOOHOO!!!!

And last but not least is Reciporocation! It has 13 kudos and I spelled the title wrong lol. But it is also the only completed fic here, so yay for that.

4. What fandoms do you write for?

I write for Hermitcraft, Dream SMP, and the Life Series, as well as original works co-written by me and my lovely boyfriend!

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes. I am very small, so I barely get any, plus I love letting commenters know that I have seen them and just how much they inspire me!

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I don’t writes sad/angsty endings lol. I don’t have the balls

7. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I haven’t finished it yet, but I have plans for We're All Dead in Devil Town... (But I Feel a Little Safer When I'm With You.) to have a really happy ending

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Nope! Again, I am a teeny tiny ao3 author, no one knows I exist. 

9. Do you write smut?

No, but I do read it!

10. Do you write crossovers?

Crossovers are nearly 50% of what I write lol 

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope! I am too miniscule for thieves to care :3

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but I wish someone would like my fics enough to do that for me :’)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes !! !! :D My lovely bf makes original books with me :D  

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

Damn, that’s hard, but I think I’ll go to my roots and find some ships that no matter how long it’s been, I will always ship: AarMau (Aaron x Aphmau) and ZaNa (Zane x Kawaii~Chan/Nana).

15. What WIP do you want to finish but you don’t think you ever will?

Slowly Learning What It Means To Live (again?) I love the concept, but I fucked it up as soon as I started. Maybe a rewrite is in order there.

16. What are your writing strengths?

My brain perceives the world as if it is narrating my life in a novel. It makes it pretty simple to write. I also slip into the character of who I’m writing really easily. 

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Not describing the settings/character movements enough at the same time as dialogue. Also, really long run-on sentences.

18.  Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I use it as a way to practice my Spanish, so yeah, I do it sometimes. BUT ONLY WHEN IN CHARACTER. Also, I use google translate occasionally to write in japanese so my characters (who can speak japanese) can have private conversations in public. I think it’s alright.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Dream SMP

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written? We're All Dead in Devil Town... (But I Feel a Little Safer When I'm With You.)

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I am totally a human and not just three raccoons in a trenchcoat

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Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Hermitcraft SMP

Rating: General Audiences

  Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

  Relationships: Arek Lisowski | Keralis & Xisumavoid

  Characters: Arek Lisowski | Keralis, Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF)

  Additional Tags: Pining, Gay, Secret Identity, (xisuma never told anyone that they're a voidwalker), Asphyxiation, Voidwalker Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF), Xisuma can't breathe Overworld air, Tired Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF), Respawn Mechanics (Minecraft), He/Him and They/Them Pronouns for Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF), Title from an Eva Cassidy Song, Song: You Take My Breath Away (Eva Cassidy), I find it funny because they literally cannot breathe in the same air w/o at least one of them having a filter lol, but they are also hopeless romantics Series: Part 2 of Lucky to Be Alive, Happy to Be Free AU (Hermit!Fundy and Yogurt AU)

Summary:

Ah, classic Seshwami, overworking themself to the point of passing out. Of course, Keralis is there to help.

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Fuck

Me RN inside, taking this test in school for fun: 😳😳

Me RN outside: I'm SIxTy sEvEN PerCeNT GenDEr 😜

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Owen meets Ra (he's scared):

AAO AU Grian: and so I was ... [continues yapping] AAO AU Owen: (Just met him and Scott left them alone) [looks left and right - scared.] Uhhh... Grian? Who is that behind you? I have never met a human like that... AAO!Grian: Huh? [Looks behind him] Oh, hey Qraura! (Foxel, thinks that's her name - they can't remember RN) how are you, mate? AAO!Qraura: You should kill him [Owen]! AAO!Grian: [very unimpressed] No. AOO!Qraura: [frog blink] Okay. [Leaves]

AAO AU by Nadia225 on YouTube! If you like Hermitcraft and Watcher-related AUs, I'd recommend looking it up!

(Qraura is a friend that Grian made - she is just a normal Watcher, not a runaway or anything. Everyone was mildly scared of her bc normally Watchers only come to HC/ESMP to take over.)

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Just some doodles I drew today. None have any particular meaning, just testing my art style