âPractical,â She acquiesced. âAnd not exactly a cliche. Iâll give you that, Doc.â Natalie almost never felt bad for being, for lack of any other description, a little shit. Her mother had cast her as the difficult child since a very young age, and she had fought against that image once, and then given up. If she was to be seen as a problem child, she may as well be a problem child.Â
As such - it was maybe a little entertaining to watch the doctor squirm. She wasnât cruel, didnât enjoy it for his discomfort - but it turned the tables, didnât it? She wanted to make him think - the way she wanted to make her parents think. What they did to their patients, what they did to their children - had it really been so long ago that it was them in the chair all eyes were fixed on? Them, that was screwed up, that had their lives molded and shaped so that they became exactly what they were afraid of?
âIt makes sense,â Natalie offered slowly, by way of response. Vaguely entertained whether or not to tell the truth. Instead, she settled for - a near truth. Closer than perhaps she was comfortable with admitting. âThere are rules. But within those rules you can make of it what you will. Thereâs a line between genius and madness there,â A smile touched her lips, ironic and almost coldly assured. âA line that isnât crossed.âÂ
âMy turn. So I take it you enjoy this - sitting in a stuffy office all day talking to depressed people and difficult teenagers.â She smirked. âThink youâre a bit fucked in the head yourself, Doc?â
mendel had to actively remind himself that he did not need validation from his patients for anything. still, it was kind of nice to hear her almost sort of? agree with what he said. it shouldnât matter to him. but it does---stuff like this always does. he just wants to be good at his job, and for people to like him as a psychiatrist. it was fear that always nagged at the back of his mind.
most importantly, he wanted to connect with his patients. he wanted them to trust him---so in turn, he gives them trust, lets them play weird question games with him---whatever. in all honesty, this was kind of fun to him---sometimes his job got boring and some sessions were just awful to sit through, but this mix up was proving to be interesting. mildly stressful, but interesting.
âinteresting,â mendel responded, having not looked at it like that before. plus, her answer was giving him a little more insight to the type of person she might be. he made another mental note to himself---this could be helpful later.Â
âno,â he answered without hesitation. âi mean, itâs true, it is difficult, but i donât think itâs messed with me. sometimes i get upset, or even frustrated, but in the end, iâm still just a regular working man.â he believed this was true. it really was, though. he wasnât happy necessarily, but he wasnât âfucked in the headâ. he was generally a very optimistic person, so it was difficult to bring him down so easily.
âalright. my turn---whatâs your relationship with your mother like? aside from her spontaneously dragging you to psychiatry sessions,â he asked, being forward about it. the man wanted to know.Â