my angel, flung out of space

twentythree • she/her • south asian living elsewhere • wlw • blog theme is me. hence a mess

[aerithpilled]

the butch/femme scene of 1990s san francisco by chloe sherman

[subculturekiller]

this photo belongs in the library of congress

[tenderwatches]

sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four

[stories-by-hails]

For anyone who needs this

[writing-prompt-s]

!!!!

[schmata]

hey don’t cry. hundreds of butches with leathery bodies and soft guts and salt-and-pepper hair giving & receiving crinkley-eyed smiles and warm nods in the hallway and the street ok?

[tenrosedyke]

I love Logan being in his pathetic little depressed cunt era. Like yeah thats right. your kids all hate you and fucked off like you told them to and they were the only people that challenged you and now you're stuck in room after room of people who cater to your every whim and are too afraid to even crack a joke at your expense. you got everything you wanted and now you're dealing with the consequences. BITCH

[jessaerys]

obsessed with the truly vast and desperately lost sadness that inhabits within logan. no one will look him in the eye, no one will level with him, no one will show themselves to him, he insists and insists and demands for a shred of human connection because he is a living dead man who doesn't know he has died. and he has died because he no longer can accept the love he craves even when it is offered to him: he is a starving man but his stomach has long ago shrivelled up and been excised, he sewed his mouth shut and doesn't even remember it. he is ostracized in his own empire, he is exiled from humanity, he has turned himself into a thing that kills everything it touches and then begs to be touched. midas king coded !!!!!

[yunabot]

there’s something so satisfyingly cyclic about how the first and last seasons of succession both begin on like… birthdays with the stench of death. the inevitability of death– and more broadly, the inevitability of the passage of time–  feels more tangible on a birthday, especially for a larger-than-life figure like logan whose mortality is otherwise difficult to fathom, and especially on a show like succession that deliberately obfuscates the timeline. logan wakes up on a milestone birthday feeling sick and old and feeble, and all of a sudden he can’t let go of the CEO job because retirement is a death sentence. and then, maybe for the first time, his children must confront the fact that their father is only human– an 80 year old man lying unconscious on a hospital bed. by the time season 4 rolls around, logan, who has spent most of the show blustering like he’ll never die, is spending his birthday trying to rationalize away his fear of damnation. i think this is even true of kendall’s birthday, where his failed attempts to turn the clock back and return to some imagined happier past drive him to the brink of suicide. like a birthday is a sort of grim and absolute demarcation of time passed, on a show where time is otherwise always hazy and malleable

[mxndofilms]

Tom Wambsgans - Let's go!

[lesbiankendall]

kendall roy + negative space

[kazs-inej]

god i am not your strongest soldier

[yunabot]

oh kendall i’ve missed that maniacal smile :}

[yunabot]

me when i’m 10000000% definitely killing dad this time

[romulussy]

You look tired, and your face is giving me a headache.

SUCCESSION (2018 – 2023) | 4.01: The Munsters

[romulussy]

Can we not do a whole show trial here?

[killbilled]

If Willa doesn’t come back, that’s fine, ‘cause I don’t need love. It’s like a superpower. And if she comes back and doesn’t love me, that’s okay, too, ‘cause I don’t need it.

SUCCESSION 1.04 - “Rehearsal”

[daughterofliterature-deactivate]

— Ernest Hemingway

[soporificsedatives-deactivated2]

This Is How You Lose the Time War, Amal El-Mohtar and ‎Max Gladstone

[vivacissimx]

Reflecting lately on the degree to which Cersei's brothers treated her as complicit in her abusive marriage, the specific ways in which she was expected to manage their emotions. Robert was obviously not her choice of husband (that brute you made me marry), she was the foremost recipient of Robert's violence & callousness. Yet we see early in their marriage, when Cersei sends Jaime to confirm Robert's infidelity, that Jaime returns and asks if Cersei wants him dead. As if Cersei... has a choice. To condemn Robert to death at the cost of Jaime's life no doubt.

That's not isolated: Cersei later hides bruises from Jaime because his first instinct would have been violence towards Robert, putting her in further danger from her abusive husband should Jaime do anything short of murdering him and whisking her/the children far away.

Jaime goes on to be upset during the royal trip to Winterfell, upset because Robert might force himself on Cersei any given night, and it's left to Cersei to manage that hurt by urging him to go hunting. Jaime throws Bran out a window for witnessing their ill-advised liaison and the next morning Tyrion finds him "with a lazy smile" while Cersei freaks. Jaime's coping mechanisms of repression are well-documented at this point yet from Cersei's POV her husband is in the room with the kid who could bust the whole case wide open should he wake, and she's alone in displaying concern.

Even later, when Jaime expresses that it should have been him who killed Robert instead of Cersei, that implies that either he considers his hate of Robert more righteous than hers or that he values his protective instinct towards the woman he loves over hers towards herself. Regardless of which, it diminishes who Robert's victim was - Cersei. When Jaime expresses blame towards Cersei for their children not knowing him as their father ("Tommen is no son of mine, no more than Joffrey was." His voice was hard. "You made them Robert's too."), when he compares her to Robert while she acts out her trauma despite having gone through a similar experience himself (someplace along the way he had become the Smiling Knight) therefore being in a position to offer empathy.

And these were all highly gendered expectations! Jaime rarely seems to consider Cersei's lack of mobility or ability to defend herself, centering himself in this dynamic as the savior, her as the perfect victim (a role she fails). Cersei for her part views Jaime in a similar manner, rarely considering his desires or internal struggles above her own conception of him, yet she is aware of the gendered ways in which they're separated.

Cersei's treatment of Tyrion was mocking & abusive so the schadenfreude he feels towards her isn't shocking (Tyrion had rather liked Robert Baratheon, great blustering oaf that he was... doubtless in part because his sister loathed him so). That said for Cersei, who perceived Tyrion as the actor who would one day feed on her joy, Tyrion's muted approval of her misery likely fed into her fear & hatred of him. For him to take little issue with the relationship despite being at some level aware of the violence within it was all that she would have registered. That Tyrion was otherwise affectionate towards her children in ways Jaime wasn't, that he largely left her alone, was likely lost on her in exchange for becoming even more hostile towards him.