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ahh i have a lot of followers to sort through; too !! ;;;
holy shit guys, i exist.  today this blog will be going under heavy revamp & reconstruction, but iâm still here !!  i plan to wipe atsushiâs slate clean, so, basically think of this as me completely remaking.  of course, iâm not actually doing that, because making a new blog is a hassle, but iâm getting as close to it as i can !!  i have a whole heap of work to do, but i missed this dashboard & atsushiâs muse too much not to come back !!
canisnxcto replied to your post: fr the time being iâm on my comfort/anti-stress...
Take as much time as you need silly
iâm actually mostly done with borks, coding wise, but i seem to have lost our conversation on discord dfgkdf
fr the time being iâm on my comfort/anti-stress muse over at @pagehoped thank u for sticking around this blog for so long tho yallre angels and i love you đđđ
I PROMISE THIS BLOG ISNâT ABANDONED BTW IâM JUST . H
manipulation and bullshit apologies.
alright tumblr,  your local therapist is here to talk about manipulative behaviours, and what you need to look out for. i wanna say that this is specifically aimed at all you who get called out for legitimate reasons and make terrible apologies / posts about it, hopefully so you can see why people wonât accept them. hereâs some traits manipulative people display:
1.  a lack of understanding of how they create situations.  those who are manipulative often will try to blame outside factors for what they have done to land themselves in this situation ( i.e. i couldnât help using that problematic faceclaim, itâs because no one told me )  this shifts the blame away from themselves and makes it look as if it is another person job to educate them / stop them doing the problematic thing.
2.  a lack of understanding of boundaries.  manipulative people will often fail to see where a line is drawn between them and another, they feel entitled to keep a conversation going, even when it is abundantly clear that another person doesnât want to speak. ( i.e. logging onto another account / switching to anonymous to reach someone who has blocked you. )  this makes the person they are speaking to look bad for not wishing to respond, therefore shifting the gaze to another being uncommunicative.
3.  avoidance of responsibility for their own actions. a manipulative person may understand responsibility, but they will often fail to see that it is on their shoulders. ( i.e. claiming that another should have educated them, that they couldnât possibly have looked it up alone. ) this makes another person look like it is their role, and their fault the problematic behaviour has happened.
4. playing on the emotions of another. a manipulative person may play on the emotional sensibilities of another person. ( i.e. i know i did this, but you talking to me about it has spiked my depression / anxiety. / claiming that a situation has upset your mental health as a way to get out of it )  this shifts the feeling to one that they are being attacked by the ânastyâ person doing the calling out, or having the conversation with them. this is, in part, playing the victim in the situation.
5.  acting two-faced. they might be acting as if they are the âsaintlyâ one on the dash, when their words away from it are different. ( i.e. âi donât understand why theyâre coming for meâ vs. angry ims being sent between people. ) this is another way in which they will play the victim card when it suits.
6. minimising the effect that their actions have had. they may pretend that they have upset a few âSJWsâ rather than accepting that they have done / said something wrong towards an entire race / religion / sexuality e.t.c.  ( i.e. acting as if itâs just a small bunch of people being upset rather than admitting that they actually did something wrong ) this is meant to make it a bit of a joke and make it seem like itâs an overreaction.
of course, these arenât all the traits iâve seen, but they are a good portion of the way in which people arenât actually apologising and are instead trying to worm their way out of a situation and i wanted to look at them and why they are manipulative so hopefully people can understand.
     i wonder if i should get him a present ...
i hate feeling so helpless i donât want to be a burden to anyone else
MY FRIENDS ARE ANGELS PSA.
HECK. ok u Know ilu lots but what makes your sushi so special to me is the sheer amount of love and care you have for him. you bring out not only the heavy aspects of his character, but what i truly appreciate is your emphasis on the hopeful and happy aspects. this truly makes for a well rounded character and i love that đ
anonymously tell me what you think of my character portrayal. i canât respond; i can only publish.
a good atsushi. the best atsushi. the greatest atsushi to ever atsushi
anonymously tell me what you think of my character portrayal. i can't respond; i can only publish.
[anon] HI hey hello my knowledge of bsd ends @ what i watched in ur stream that one time but i lov ur sushi n sushi in general, ur one of the reasons i want to get into bsd more when i, u know, stop sucking @ watching things dfhgdfhgdfhg u obviously have a lot of passion for sushi and bsd in general and it makes what u do really enjoyable to read !! [/anon]
anonymously tell me what you think of my character portrayal. i canât respond; i can only publish.
you learned your vocabulary through whispered words around the hall corner ,  through accusing fingers pointed towards the innocent ,  through the sounds of cage doors opening .   you learned how to live your life through watching it crumble .   you learned how to survive by being outcast ,  by being a burden ,  by being worthless .   you learned to love yourself by finding a family ,  by finding friends ,  by finding that you're worth far more than you were taught to think .  Â
you learned that you're not your  upbringing ,  youâre your  future .
PTSD isnât just flashbacks. while a lot of movies, books, games etc equate post traumatic stress disorder to having extremely vivid flashbacks in which one thinks the trauma is happening again, this is not the only symptom of PTSD, nor is it a requirement for having the disorder.
other symptoms of PTSD include
problems sleeping
nightmaresÂ
hypervigilance (constantly checking surroundings for safety, looking for any possible threat)
being easily startled
being emotionally numb or not experiencing joy
seeing the world as a terrible place
memory lossÂ
trouble relating to others
physiological or strong emotional reactions to reminders of traumaÂ
intrusive thoughts about the trauma
(full list of criteria here)
flashbacks are not the be all and end all of PTSD. itâs a much more complex disorder than itâs portrayed in a lot of media, nor is it military exclusive. i hope this post can at least help educate some people beyond the incomplete and in some cases outright wrong information that a lot of people have.
once i figure out how to hold a conversation, itâs friendship for you bitches
Itâs normal to wish things were different. But itâs a waste of time to dwell on it, and we can miss out the most important things in our life. Remember what you have: your favorite songs, your bed, books, your best friends, pretty sunsets, cute unique features, your dreams and aspirations. Life will never be perfect, but there will always be good things to be happy about at every moment.
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   HUG DAZAI !
          perhaps it would have felt stranger had he not expected the sudden contact from reading atsushiâs expression moments earlier , but it still stiffens the detective when arms wrap around him tightly . another long series of moments pass before the older has the courage to look down , eyes met with brilliant white , choppy yet smothered against his own chest . ah .          â  âŠÂ  â  it looked a bit odd , to hug someone like him , especially when his former student harbored all kinds of difficult feelings towards him , and he was never one to coddle .  still , a hand raises to rest on locks , his other arm resting over the youngerâs back .  (  âŠÂ this was the right thing to do , right ?  )  â  âŠÂ   i - itâs alright .  itâs alright , atsushi .  iâm not going anywhere ⊠â       Â