Thinking about how wild it is, that Asat Pramad found it easier to assume that Motoko had somehow broken the established limitations of an Imagenae and had been traveling the cosmos for 15 years without dying........then to believe that Himeko was still alive.
Thinking about how the confrontation in the Dean's Office, when he mockingly talks about how Himeko supposedly abandoned her dreams and died. That she was afraid of the vastness of the cosmos, and afraid of the burden of responsibility, and instead retreated from it and handed everything to someone else, and then chose to die.
......when he isn't talking about Himeko AT ALL.
He's really talking about himself.
He is the one that glimpsed the vastness of the cosmos, and has become afraid. He's the one that now views the Trailblaze as this terrifying thing filled with endless possibility, and Himeko herself says in her Furbobo interview that she pities how he became trapped and paralyzed by the endless possibilities he saw. He couldn't move forward, and he was a coward too afraid to commit or choose.
He was also someone that had responsibility dropped in his lap in the most tragic circumstances. Akivili fell, Dolly turned to crystal, and everyone started turning on each other and infighting and abandoning the Express while looking to HIM to fix it all. No one realizing how broken he had become, and in the end he dropped it all on Falcon and left.
Ironically, he projected all his failings on to Himeko. He couldn't imagine that his frail little girl could be so strong-willed and brave, that she could surpass him in every possible way and manage to throw off the chains of fate to choose her own destiny.
I think it really is the cruelest, sickest joke in the end. Just not the cruel and sick joke Asat Pramad intended to play, because it was ultimately a joke on him.
That he managed to raise this exceptional, brave, strong-willed daughter that would embrace his stories, that would take to heart all the things he told her, and then she would charge forward with a determination that he ultimately lacked.
That in spite of all the ways he failed her in his absences and his being a literal monster, he really succeeded as a Father in ways that Ryusuke never could have.
Himeko says it herself, several times. She is who she is because of him, she would never have become the incredible person she is without him.
And though she claims that she only gave him a chance because he was a former Nameless, I think it's as simple as a daughter reaching out to her father. Because even with the truth, she still loved him and cherished all the dreams and hopes he gave her.
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