Resilient

We out here w/ self love and stuff.

[tiidaal]

When you kissed me

When you kissed me for the first time it didn’t feel foreign or scary, it didn’t give me butterflies in my stomach or fireworks in my heart. Kissing you felt like coming home after a long, cold day and wrapping up in your favorite blanket to watch a movie with the one you love the most. Kissing you felt like rain on an old tin roof in the middle of the night as you drift off to sleep. It felt like the crackle of a fire when you’re curled up in your favorite chair reading a book. I was comfortable. You felt like home. I don’t think I’ll ever stop missing my home.

[tiidaal]

What I've learned:

Here is what I’ve learned. I have learned that people only stay as long as it benefits them. I sat and held a boy while he cried for over an hour, and within a month he shattered everything I thought I knew about love. I have had a boy tell me he loves me, and within a that week I watched that same boy walk away from me without a single explanation, just a simple “I’ll miss you.” I have had someone promise me on everything that they wouldn’t do something, then within six hours they did the exact thing they promised they wouldn’t do. People will continue to do whatever benefits them, no matter what they say. But here’s the important thing I’ve learned; no matter how much you want to, you cannot hate. Hating just breaks you down, it makes you weak and miserable and you feel like the world is against you. You must love like it is the last thing you will ever do. You must love the person you are, the person you are becoming, and every person you meet along this journey. I have come to the conclusion that I will find my person, the one who doesn’t break promises or walk away from me, when I know who I am and where I stand in the world.

[thoughtkick]

“The most confused we ever get is when we’re trying to convince our heads of something our heart knows is a lie.”

— Karen Marie Moning

[naturaekos]

“I saw a shooting star and thought of you.”

—

[tiidaal]

How can I explain that the boy with blue eyes and messy hair felt more like home than my house ever has?

[ashleymacleanblog]

“That boy, he’s different. His words spark fires in places I thought would never see light. His name is like a melody, I could hum it all day long. Like a night of cloudless chimes and starry skies, the best of dark and bright meet in the aspect of his big blue eyes. It’s nothing I’ve really felt before. So it made me wonder, what it was like to be in his arms, how it would feel if he reached over and grabbed my hand. And it had me dancing around the topic of how badly I wanted to be the air that filled his lungs. And I was never a girl who was interested in science, but. I’d like to know why my heart felt like it was defying gravity whenever he smiled, or why my mind acted as if a chemical explosion went off every time I heard his laugh spill out from the seat behind me.But you just keep tip toeing around me, like I’m a ticking time bomb. Not noticing how attracted I am to you, and how much I’d be willing to give you. The way your eyes look through me as if I’m glass makes my young heart shatter. Each time. But I suppose that’s what I get, for being me.”

— “3am thoughts about the boy who will never care to look twice”

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[anancientheart]

ok universe, i’m ready to feel good things. make me feel good things.

[anancientheart]

whenever i post this it works  reblog if u want to feel good things & the universe will bring u something sweet 

[tiidaal]

Come Home

Tonight you’re a couple states away,

afraid we’ll never be the same.

Wish I could make you stay,

but you treat love like a game. 

My phone lights up at 3 o’clock, 

and I can’t help but hope it’s you.

Sometimes I think I hear a faint knock,

but you don’t have a clue.

[vanish]

[fitzgeraldquotes]

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Debutante

[tiidaal]

I told the moon about you while she told me about the sun. Just like us they're in love but can't be together

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[tiidaal]

Soulmate who didn’t stay

You looked down at me with your crystal blue eyes and messy brown hair and the saddest look on your face, “I just don’t think we can make this work”

But what about the times you would steal me away for a kiss? Or the nights where you would hold me until 3am without a word? The nights we stayed up all night watching your favorite show no matter how much I hated it? The silent kisses on the top of my head when you didn’t know how to say it, but I knew what you meant? What about the night you finally told me you loved me? You expect me to believe that any of that was ever real when you can just walk away a week later and pretend it never happened? 

I love you too. I really hope you come back soon. This bed feels empty without you in it. 

[tiidaal]

Please come back.

I sleep with my ringer on and my do not disturb off now just in case you decide to respond before I fall asleep.

[poems-and-word]

Poems & Words

[tiidaal]

“Maybe I’m a fool for distancing myself from you. Maybe that’s why I couldn’t admit that I loved you, because for some reason...I couldn’t accept that maybe, just maybe, you might have loved me too.”

[tiidaal]

“We could’ve been great, you know.” She said quietly as she looked down at her hands folded in her lap

“What do you mean?” He responded

“Like, I would’ve done anything for you and you threw that away. I know we’re both young and we’re both broken but we could’ve fixed each other. We knew every little piece of each other and you threw that away for a girl that didn’t even last you a week. Is that what you are now? Are you just going to go from girl to girl and hurt them because you can’t heal yourself?” Her voice breaking

“You never meant anything more to me than all those other girls, you were the same to me as they were. That’s just how it is I’m sorry” He said finally, as he got up to leave