Learning To Improve

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Pills? Or Happiness.

So one of my new commitments is not dieting anymore but making decisions for a healthier permanent lasting lifestyle. To take control with God of my soul, mind, and body. The more I’m eating better and the more I hear people and their opinions about healthy living the more I’m molded into who I want to be and what is best for me. I used to be the person who thought a pill could make me lose weight but I would feel terrible, unhappy, and in reality will I forever be popping pills in my mouth to keep up? I think about people who think this way because “eating healthy” is too hard or not to their liking. I think about it this way Taking pills for diet: 1. You don’t have self control or don’t want to. 2. You can’t possibly be happy. 3. You are not self disciplined. 4. You are forever gonna be popping pills into your mouth. 5. Pill side effect 6. What happens after the pills run out? 7. Expensive!!!

Healthy exercise and healthy food intake:

1. You take charge of what goes in your body. 2. Guess what I eat 5 TIMES A DAY! 3. I feel happy 4. I feel great and with more energy 5. I get my nutrients from the food I eat. 6. I’m losing weight without side effects. 7. I’m not just losing weight I’m getting stronger! 8. Less money spent 9. Lowering the risk of diseases. 10. Becoming disciplined 11. Not being scared of food and enjoying it. 12. Self confidence boost 13. Relieves stress 14. It’s more about how I feel than how much I’m gonna weigh at the end.

Here’s the thing I know what it’s like to take a pill and lose weight so fast but feeling internally Ill and unhappy. Not only that but it didn’t help me learn how to eat to maintain, it didn’t help me learn what to put in my body, it didn’t help me keep a permanent healthy lifestyle. It didn’t mold me. Don’t get me wrong vitamins are fine I’m talking about all these fatburner, increase metabolic rate, suppress hunger pills. Like ARE YOU SERIOUS! Our bodies are design to eat!Thanks to my mentor in my journey I understand that. The less you feed your body the more it retains and the slower your metabolism also if u don’t exercise. But don’t go out and get a cheese burger 5time a day or three that’s not what I’m saying. Talking about healthy food here. I also used to think I didn’t have time to exercise and prep my food, here’s the secret I TOTALLY DID! But I was putting my time and effort in things that were useless. Watching TV, playing a video game, or just simply wasting time. I realized yes I do have 1hr everyday to work out, yes I do have time once a week to prep my food. And if it happened to be that I didn’t then I’ll find the time. Instead of looking through my Instagram or Facebook feed stalking on people (jk) before bed for like two hours I’ll prep my meal.

So here’s the deal my dear family and friends I love you all very much and want you to live a healthy life without having to have someone take care of you. A life not thinking about taking pills or being disappointed in how you feel. This is not about only losing weight anymore, which is a perk from it, but about being happy.

#healthy #lifestyle #happy #nopills #selfcontrol

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No

Does anyone? Have I? Maybe in another world? In another dimension? In an alternate universe? No... I guess not... Nobody... Not I... Not anywhere... No one gets what they want. It's life.

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Think Again

Pause. Think Again. Pause. Gather your thoughts back together. Pause. Breath slowly. Pause. Think Again. Pause. Cyndi you can never be the same ever.

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The Struggle is Real

Im just gonna start off by saying yesterday's run was a real struggle, no joke. Like I had previously said before I was still sore from Monday but I figured the recovery time shouldn't be that long so I decided to go on the run. I started walking for a little probably only a few feet then I began to run. I could feel the soreness in my calves, ankles and upper thighs. Yes it was hard. I have struggled with running and have been afraid of it because of pain but this wasn't helping, but I thought to my self that I could do this. That once I was warmed up it would go away and that the more I kept this running thing going the more my body will adapt. So I started to get warmed up and the soreness did go away but I started to cramp on my right leg. Yep, that did not feel nice. I tried and stretch it out and keep walking and running but it was really bothersome. I decided just to push through it and keep running as much as I could and walking when I couldn't anymore and stretching it out when it was too much to walk or run on. Yes I did this most of the way. I was disappointed in my self maybe I wasn't running with proper posture or I wasn't paying attention to my stride. All these things were going through my head and I was sad because I really want to do this. I got home and I took time to stretch really well and as I relaxed positivity kicked in. I began to think to my self that I pushed through, that I had done it, and that everyday I should take it as it comes and push through. I'm still not sure why I cramped but I learn as I go. Being completely honest I have not tweaked my eating habits and it's definitely something I'll work on as soon as I can. Yes I know eating has a great deal to do with it and it's something I want to correct as well. I'm taking baby steps and trying my best as I know how. Wish me luck on today's run.

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So I decided to start running on Monday and not give up. FAIL! I totally didn't run yesterday BUT that does not mean I've given up. Today is a new day and another chance. I want to tell you about experience tough on Monday. I was actually really surprised at my self. In the fall session at school I took soccer and as hard as I tried to build endurance I just could not. The pain was so unbearable. I'm not going to lie to you tough because I did build a little endurance to run almost half of half a mile (lol not much) with no stopping but still the pain was really bad the rest of the way I would have to walk and when time for playing came I felt pain. I would get really ugly sharp pain on my shins as well as an unbearable burning sensation in my calves. I would ask around to see what it might be, why it was hurting sooo much and if it was normal. Let me tell you right now I am not light weight I'm a 5'1 ft chick and I weigh 180lbs so losing weight is a must for my health. All I would get from people tough was, "I don't know", "It's because you don't run often", "That means it's working". That last one totally annoyed me. One day as I went to one of my girl friends home from a workout, I was feeling pain, she had barely gotten a treadmill and I wanted to try it out. I had already kicked off my shoes so I was like what the heck I'll just run barefoot. What! No Pain!? I was extremely surprised. I figured that maybe just maybe it was my shoes. Let's be honest here I have never really ran because of pain and the fear of pain and to me running and not feel pain was a supernatural thing. I researched on different shoes that would simulate barefoot running but would keep my feet protected. A friend recommended some Skora running shoes to me. So I saved up and bought them on Black Friday on sale. I did transition into them, I did not start running in them until this Monday. Yea I know I lag it and my determination is not my forte. So I walked in them and wore them to work since November of last year till now and when I ran in them this Monday, no pain. Yes! Finally I ran with no pain. Of course I did get tiered tough but I didn't stop due to pain. If I stopped it was only a few seconds to catch my breath and then kept running. I almost ran the whole mile without stopping. I did get the smallest of blisters because your supposed to ease into running in minimalist shoes but I took them farther than I ever had. I'm sure the blister will go away and my feet will get used to this idea. I'll keep you updated on this though. I am so sore at the moment I've never been sore from running but NOW I can say It's Working lol. I used here the MapMyRun app which worked really well for me. It automatically would split my run when I would be done with a mile and tell me my pace and the timing I had done it in. Also you can play your music through the app which is nice. Overall this running experience has been the best and the most motivating one that I have had in all my life. Run with Map My Run - GPS Running, Jog, Walk, Workout, Heart Rate, Sleep, Weight, Step and Activity Tracking, Coaching, and Calorie Counter by MapMyFitness https://appsto.re/us/0tEzr.i http://skorarunning.com

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I worked on a small project and here are the results. Just a wonderful example on how to make something inexpensive look elegant with the budget given.

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✝✝gospel/gospel✝✝

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I wish it was winter already. ;n;

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Ok so I love winter and have a thing for sweaters and coats. Lol

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Looks good! I know too much excitement. Lol #lovefood#somethingnew

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✝✝faith/verse✝✝

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The Journey

Let me start off by saying that nobody is perfect and so it's up to the individual to live one day at a time. I'm not perfect and have made mistakes I wish that I could take back, but that's the thing, life does not go in reverse. Here's the thing though I feel that I started living and seeing life for what it is after making those mistakes. I'm not saying life wasn't bliss before, and it would of been nice to see life in all it's components of white, black, and grey without failing your self. But for me I saw life and started to really learn what life is to me after I made my mistakes. People shouldn't make mistakes to see this but I was stubborn. I didn't think of my choices and their consequences I was naive. For whoever reads this, not knowing whom I'm writing this to, I guess what I want to say is live one day at a time, embrace it and absorb it to it's fullest. Think of every decision you make before acting upon it, because it can change how you live everyday. Your decisions affect how the following day will make you feel and who knows the lasting effect of it. It can be guilt, sadness, loneliness, melancholy... Or it can come in happiness, joy, comfort, security, fulfillment... We can't control everything in life and some of these things will come and we can't avoid them but still take it one day at a time. It will be more bearable than looking at it at a grander scale. For me I focused on what was important to me. I focused on God who had forgiven me, I focused on clinging on to faith and taking one day at a time, I focused on my marriage on my loving husband, and I focused on wanting to be happy. Let me tell you it was difficult and sometimes it still is but it's a lot more simple now. I don't feel complexity in my life. So live life one day at a time, think of your choices before acting upon them, and remember to view the world for what it is so it doesn't swallow you into it. We're not perfect but we can only try to live a happy life.