'Tism Lizard

28 (they/them), Melbourne Australia. Dune, Foundation books, spec evo, Monster High, whatever I'm autistically into.

[kumkaniudaku]

And then you can’t even say shit about bc people start trying to put you in a jacket and shit. Like omg it’s so strict???

[365piegirl]

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[milkwavess2]

ciel homu

[tismlizardposting]

TFW my day is genuinely like this:

Travel to my fashion workshop and make kink gear

Open fridge and someone has put a tortilla in the CNC Machine then displayed it on the fridge

Nice

Go for a walk to get my partners meds

Pharmacist confused as hell that my partners femme deadname is of someone who needs birth control. And they think I'm a woman. Questions about my hypothetical penis appear in the pharmacists head. Awkward conversation but I find it funny.

Acquire burger and consume

Make more kink gear and pack dinosaur print granny trolley full of gear

Go to drag show

The show has hobby horsing and I end up sewing shitloads of patches on a friend's jacket after consuming a pickleback, which is a concerning flavour of drink but I'm oddly enthralled by it

Someone lipsyncs Oh So Quiet but only the instruments. None of the lyrics. Amazing.

Catch tram back and stop off for HSP

Gap ppl all over the street BC it is The Gay Area of my city

Typing this in the kebab shop that's blasting Kesha really loudly as I consume my HSP near my granny trolley full of kink gear

Hot girl sits across the table from me and tells me 5 times she likes my hair (I think she keeps forgetting she told me this)

Wins all round really.

[tismlizardposting]

In another development, a very professional man handed me a business card in the kebab shop whilst LMFAO was blasting that "wiggle wiggle wiggle" line. The business card was for ket, MD and coke.

My life is a Smiling Friends bit.

[tismlizardposting]

TFW my day is genuinely like this:

Travel to my fashion workshop and make kink gear

Open fridge and someone has put a tortilla in the CNC Machine then displayed it on the fridge

Nice

Go for a walk to get my partners meds

Pharmacist confused as hell that my partners femme deadname is of someone who needs birth control. And they think I'm a woman. Questions about my hypothetical penis appear in the pharmacists head. Awkward conversation but I find it funny.

Acquire burger and consume

Make more kink gear and pack dinosaur print granny trolley full of gear

Go to drag show

The show has hobby horsing and I end up sewing shitloads of patches on a friend's jacket after consuming a pickleback, which is a concerning flavour of drink but I'm oddly enthralled by it

Someone lipsyncs Oh So Quiet but only the instruments. None of the lyrics. Amazing.

Catch tram back and stop off for HSP

Gap ppl all over the street BC it is The Gay Area of my city

Typing this in the kebab shop that's blasting Kesha really loudly as I consume my HSP near my granny trolley full of kink gear

Hot girl sits across the table from me and tells me 5 times she likes my hair (I think she keeps forgetting she told me this)

Wins all round really.

[theragamuffininitiative]

Alright I want to know something here:

the 🙃 emoji means (approximately)

silly!*

ugh!*

secret third thing you will explain in tags*

Voting ended onJul 10

*if comfortable doing so, you may include your age range/generation in the tags for helpful demographic data

kindly reblog for bigger sample size, thanks!

[tismlizardposting]

I'm sure you could diagnose me with something based on my 4 long-term blorbos

[tismlizardposting]

Anhedonia is so wild because I can sometimes physically feel the moment I go from distressed -> "idc anymore man". I will be peaking on the "high intensity + negative emotion" scale and then it's like I clip outside of the map, it just dissipates and there is *nothing* anymore and my key emotion is 👍 even to things I'd otherwise enjoy.

Opened a really cool dinosaur game the other day when feeling like this, played for a few minutes hoping for some delayed dopamine and I may as well have been watching paint dry. Exited game. Did something else instead idk what. To note, paleontology is actually a special interest of mine.

Took a day off today, left the house on my own and the presence of other people felt weird. Went to a bookstore, got sushi (which was actually awful and I need a better sushi spot), did some tasks outside, got home, layed down for 2 hours in front of my heater. I actually bought a book surprisingly, despite reading (instead of audiobooks) feeling rather inaccessible. Maybe this will be forced "slow down" time?

Currently trying to figure out how to sidestep multi-week episodes of anhedonia and some findings so far include:

- Go do tasks outside but like, legitimate errands

- Hot shower good

- Bookstore good

- Ignore my wallet and just buy whatever food I want, to see if I actually have interest in food again. In the very least it'll give me something to have an opinion on, at a time where it's hard to form an opinion on anything at all. (Interestingly the fact sushi was terrible led me to researching other places to eat and now I have future plans to check out 2 different eateries which means more Outside Of House).

- Write in a timestamped manner detailing what I've been doing, to help keep track of time

- Wear clothes I have previously enjoyed even if I'm not feeling any particular way towards them in the moment

- Binge watch a tv series, but only the length of something that can be completed within 1-2 days

Anyway these have been my findings. Maybe they will be useful for someone. Maybe I am typing into the void but that's what this app is good for. It is the diet soda of social medias, and far removed from the slop posting of meta which I don't wish to engage with in this particular way.

[rarehertz]

cock reveal in 12,000 years

[cheddar-baby]

11,999 years

[cheddar-baby]

11,998 years

[daneelsolivaw]

oh you know

[respectissexy]

Having experienced a lot of it in my 20s, I think some of the worst, pettiest, most straight up this-is-just-bullying-you're-passing-off-as-praxis incidences of Queer Infighting endemic to young people can be best understood as attempts to exercise power by people with very little power.

Like you're 22, you're queer, you've just become a Marxist, the scope of World Suck is overwhelming and you have $30 in your bank account. What can you do to feel like you have any power? Well, you can try to get your frenemy cancelled for cosplaying a character from a problematic show. You can write a public callout post over someone's obviously friendly use of a slur you don't think they technically have the right to reclaim. Doing this stuff can make you feel like you have power and your actions have an impact. Unfortunately the impact in question is a negative impact on other marginalized people. But that often takes some maturity and self-reflection to notice.

[drtanner]

I'm reminded of this post from 2017. To paraphrase, OP took part in community service via their university and part of that was cleaning the bathrooms at the local homeless community centre, which would frequently get trashed, not because the homeless people using them disrespected the work of the people cleaning them but because they had so little control over other things that happened in their lives, and the bathroom was something they could affect.

This, too, is a trashed bathroom; young queer people living through hell and having precious little control over their circumstances or the world in which they exist can affect something by using the language of social justice as a cudgel on their would-be allies, as well as getting a brief feeling of power over someone else by doing it.

It's not worth it. Don't trash your community bathrooms.

[noelle-ism]

i stopped giving a shit about "legit" purchases of digital products after i spent $80 on the entire Dark Horse collection of Trigun/Trigun Maximum ebook mangas, learning that I only got access to reading them through a proprietary website ereader function, couldn't download them, and couldn't get a refund, and then literally only a year later, getting an e-mail stating that Dark Horse was shutting down that part of their company and I wouldn't even be able to read them anymore. Fuck that

[noelle-ism]

Pirate shit. Don't feel bad for it. It's not "your fault" that artists, independent or otherwise, can't make a living. You downloading an album or ebook for free isn't the cause of the problem. The cause is capitalism, plain and simple, and pirating is a lucky loophole that companies are still trying to stomp out.

[theywontletmebeprincipal]

catholic priest drag king called Father Issues

[tismlizardposting]

If I see one more AI event flyer with nothingburger statements on it, 15 different fonts and an unreadable layout, I am going to punt someone into the sun

[tismlizardposting]

I seriously need to shove my entire face into a pigeon, a chicken, or a swan perhaps. I think it would fix me. I need to huff a bird.

[maneater--mildred]

Five-upping the boss

[tismlizardposting]

500 cigarettes

[tismlizardposting]

Linux life is sudobashing to solve an issue for 2 hours and then realising the simple solution was that ur printer cable is dead.

[zmiyinaart]

Faith

A fire priestess - heavily inspired by the Scythian costume.

One of the chief gods of the Scythians was Tapiti, compared to Hestia. Today her name still lives in the words like teplyi (warm) and topyty (to melt/drown).