The dichotomy of bipolarism
"Crying does not make you weak"
"Allow yourself to feel every emotion intensely"
But how come when I feel very happy it becomes a bad thing? When I start crying everyone gets mad? Ever since I was diagnosed I have felt very confused about who I am and what I ought to do. After learning about the symptoms, tendencies, and risk factors, I look back at my life and think that I have always been this way. Although I realized I acted in ways that may have shown signs of impulsivity and extreme emotions, but I always just thought of myself as rebellious or just living in the moment. I thought that experiencing happiness and sadness is normal. Or I guess my normal is not normal to everyone. I thought it was good to have so much energy. That's what got me the highest honors in grade school and high school. That's what gained me a lot of friends and I was always the favorite of the adults.
But now everything has changed.
