Thank you to everyone who wrote me messages in my inbox with suggests and encouragement. I got to a really low point and was rushed to the ER and received four IV bags to hydrate me and over six hours to make me stable enough to be considered okay to leave my bed, even to the bathroom. I was in a room surrounded by cameras and I had to meet with several nurses, doctors, and ED specialist. They also had to call my mother who came as well. It was a very, very difficult time being in the hospital. I was informed by everyone that I was truly fortunate to have the friend I do who forced me to go to the hospital because was very likely to die in less than 24 hours if I had not have gone. I am still not strong enough to go back to school, and I have several follow up appointments and new therapists and doctors that I have to meet with. Although my family does not understand eating disorders completely, they are very scared because the main doctor informed my mom that I am not allowed to be alone and that the slightest slip up again, and I need to be rushed to a special care unit and sent to be sustained in a treatment center afterwards. I got away with not going to one now because my mom insisted I come home and that someone would be with me 24/7 but that if I got worse off, she would send me.Ā I formed a great fear of food and have been forced one 'Ensure' drink after another to help keep calories in me so that I do not need to be hospitalized once again. I am doing my best. I am sincerely trying. I do not want to go through that again. It was a very scary experience. I was so weak, and felt myself dying and I finally gave in that I needed serious help. Please, please, please do not let yourself get to that point. Get the help you need. You may not appreciate now, but you will in the long run.Ā As for now, I am getting off of all social networking cites to help me recover with very minimal possibilities for triggers. I will eventually return.Ā Please, stay strong, stay healthy, and realize one bad day or one bad choice does not define who you are or what is going to happen to you. I have faith in you. You can do this. You can recover. Minimize your triggers. (Is it a certain friend? Don't hang out with them. Is it a certain cite? Sign out for a few weeks. Is it a certain class? Talk to your advisor about changing it or just overall dropping it. Health before school. Always.) You can do this.Ā Until I return Tumblr, my sincerest 'Best Wishes' to you allā„Ā
