tolkienandfitness

A place for motivation and keeping track of my health. Sara 26 Michigan Full time Teacher Full time Tolkien Addict Check out my primary blog for-the-love-of-durin.

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Update

Hello all of my beautiful people!  I figured I would jump on for a quick update.

Daniel and I have been married for almost 3 months now and everything is going great!  We’re still working on the house, but hopefully we can have it done by Christmas.  I’m back to working at the school, but I’ve moved up to teaching middle school.  It’s basically like my first year all over again.  I’m trying to figure out how to teach the older classes and manage my time and the kids’ behavior.  

I’m having some major struggles with it, mainly because of my own mental health.  I just don’t want to go to work anymore and I don’t get excited with teaching like I used to.  Sure, everyone has a time when they don’t want to go to work, but I was almost in tears last week because I just didn’t want to be there.  If it wasn’t so much work to get a sub, I would probably take a personal day.  It’s only getting worse though.  Today, my boss came to me because a parent called.  Why did they call you ask?  Because I didn’t say hi to their child (who is one of my students) at the town festival this past weekend.  Can you believe it?  I didn’t even know the child was there, and yet, the parent is making a huge deal.  They didn’t even come to me about it.

It’s not just at work either.  I don’t want to walk my steps, I don’t want to hang out with my friends.  I don’t know what’s going on with me.  I just feel lost and don’t know what to do anymore. 

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I cheated. I cheated about 1500 steps. Why? I don't know really. Got sidetracked. Crossed things off my list. Worked until late. Didn't take breaks. Decided to get to bed because my sleep has been terrible. All of the above. I feel guilty for doing it, but it still feels good because I got so much work done today and even though I'm still getting to bed late, it's earlier than the last few days. Sometimes, sleep is just as important as eating healthy and exercising. I didn't cheat as much as I have the last few days either. I'm working on it.

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I did better today. I can actually say that all these steps are true. Haven't been able to say that in a little while. It feels good to get back at it. I didn't go too crazy on the over eating but I did do it today. Not as much as I have the past few days though. I really need to keep an eye on it.

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Hello darlings! Long time, no update! Things have been going okay. I've been cheating a lot 😕 so it's been really affecting how I feel. It doesn't help that I'm always working on something or just always working period. I moved up to the middle school so it's almost like my first year teaching all over again. I feel like I've gained weight and my resting heart rate is rising again. I really need to stop making excuses and get back into it. Time to restart, again.

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Haven't posted in a while. Here's a few of my latest days. Haven't been sleeping well- staying up late and getting up early. The usual. I'm at my parents' this weekend so I'm sure I'll get a weight in done. Last time I didn't post it because I was about to start my period and I didn't want the difference to screw with my brain. The last time I did a weigh in I was at 187. 💪🏼 feeling good!

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I didn't end up syncing my Fitbit yesterday. Daniel and I got home from the store to a tornado warning so we spent the rest of the evening watching the news and hanging out in the basement. While we didn't get any tornados in our area, we definitely had rotation and the city where my grandmas live had an EF-0 tornado. Thankfully, Boone was hurt.

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I had everything typed out and then the tumblr wargs attacked. Let me see if I can remember everything I had written the first time. Daniel and I have been married a little over two weeks now and we are loving every minute of it! On our wedding day, I was finally under 190 lbs. 187.6 to be exact! While I was glad to I ally be under 190, it wasn't a healthy weight loss. I wasn't exercising because the anxiety I was experiencing was debilitating and I wasn't eating because of the stress and nerves. I completely lost my appetite. On our wedding day, I had a bowl of cereal, a turkey sandwich (which I barely was able to finish), and a half plate of food (at the reception). About half way through our honeymoon, I got my appetite back. I've gain about half a pound (I haven't gotten in the scale in about a week now so I don't know if that's accurate right now), but at least I can be healthy about my weight loss now. I'll be back with more regular updates as soon as I can! We are still working on renovations and the school year will be starting soon. Stay healthy and happy darlings! 💕

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Can you believe I'm married?! It's been a crazy crazy week!

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Can you tell my anxiety has been getting the better of me. 😕

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Only a few more days left! Keep checking things off the to-do list!

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Hello my lovelies! I'm sorry it's been so long since I've updated. The above photo tells why! 😍😳

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My diet today was 👎🏼👎🏼. My brain and my stomach were not communicating until I felt like I was going to be sick. I think that'll be enough motivation to keep my eating in check tomorrow. Don't want to get sick.

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My anxiety has been debilitating lately. I haven't been doing much of anything except going to work. I got back at it today though! 🚶🏼

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Today was the last day of school for my students. My angry student have me this letter. To say that I cried is an understatement. If I didn't have to get up in a few hours for my summer job, I'd give a little more detail as to why this letter is so important to me. Maybe I'll post something about it tomorrow. Anyways, after work I ended up napping for two hours because of a migraine. It was pretty strong because I still have that hangover feeling and it's been a few hours.

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174.5 days down, 0.5 day to go. I can do this!

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Umm, I don't know how accurate that active time is. But I'll take it. I was on the move today- packing up my classroom, packing up the stuff I'm transferring to my new classroom, organizing papers, taking down bulletin boards. I got so much accomplished today. In other news, my first class graduated 8th grade today. I'm so proud of them and that they were able to get their act together. They actually graduated!

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I didn't have to worry about getting my steps today! I took my students to the gym for some play time and I ended up winning a 1v1 basketball game against one of my kiddos and we played dodgeball. Not too bad at all.