Love, Lie and Life

Life is a roller coaster. Flies you to the moon, drags you to the ground.

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Closer - The Chainsmokers (Cover by TJ) . #TheChainsmokers #Chainsmokers #cover #music #song #singer #vocals

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Another silhouette. . 📸 @mikhananda (at Wisata Candi Ceto & Perkebunan Teh Kemuning, Karanganyar, Solo)

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Cerita yang mungkin akan terus diulang tapi saya tidak akan pernah bosan. Tepat 2 tahun lalu kita bernyanyi di panggung itu dengan kelegaan luar biasa menyadari akhirnya kita bisa sampai disana dengan segala keterbatasan yang ada. Dari kekurangan dana, permasalahan internal, kekurangan squad dan segala macam. Tidak akan pernah lupa saat ngamen di setiap akhir pekan dan berjualan kue di siang bolong keliling perumahan demi tambahan dana. Tidak akan pernah lupa dua rice cooker dan satu kilogram beras yang kita wajib bawa agar bisa tetap kenyang. Tidak akan pernah lupa tidur di lantai dingin pelataran McD bandara Changi dan sandwich kering tempe karena tidak ada uang. Tidak akan pernah lupa latihan pukul 5 sore tiap hari, lelah, tapi tetap semamgat demi bisa ada di panggung itu. Tidak akan pernah lupa menghebohkan lingkungan hotel saat kita semua latihan dan semua orang keluar untuk menyaksikan. Apalagi semua squad perempuan yang sudah berdandan cantik namun masih harus berada di Songtaew menuju tempat kompetisi terkena angin dan sampai venue semua berantakan lagi. Kami tidak mampu membayar banyak untuk melenggang tinggal si hotel mewah dimana kompetisi dilaksanakan, sehingga memilih hotel murah dan harus menyewa Songtaew (semacam bemo terbuka) untuk menuju lokasi kompetisi. Tidak akan pernah lupa rasanya semua itu membuahkan hasil dan Indonesia Raya berkumandang di negeri gajah putih. Lebih dari itu, tidak akan pernah lupa perjuangan kalian semua baik squad maupun panitia yang belum berkesempatan untuk berangkat. Saya bersyukur memiliki kalian sebagai team. Saya bangga pada kalian. Hingga saat ini.

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Cerita yang mungkin akan terus diulang tapi saya tidak akan pernah bosan. Tepat 2 tahun lalu kita bernyanyi di panggung itu dengan kelegaan luar biasa menyadari akhirnya kita bisa sampai disana dengan segala keterbatasan yang ada. Dari kekurangan dana, permasalahan internal, kekurangan squad dan segala macam. Tidak akan pernah lupa saat ngamen di setiap akhir pekan dan berjualan kue di siang bolong keliling perumahan demi tambahan dana. Tidak akan pernah lupa dua rice cooker dan satu kilogram beras yang kita wajib bawa agar bisa tetap kenyang. Tidak akan pernah lupa tidur di lantai dingin pelataran McD bandara Changi dan sandwich kering tempe karena tidak ada uang. Tidak akan pernah lupa latihan pukul 5 sore tiap hari, lelah, tapi tetap semamgat demi bisa ada di panggung itu. Tidak akan pernah lupa menghebohkan lingkungan hotel saat kita semua latihan dan semua orang keluar untuk menyaksikan. Apalagi semua squad perempuan yang sudah berdandan cantik namun masih harus berada di Songtaew terkena angin dan sampai venue semua berantakan lagi. Tidak akan pernah lupa rasanya semua itu membuahkan hasil dan Indonesia Raya berkumandang di negeri gajah putih. Lebih dari itu, tidak akan pernah lupa perjuangan kalian semua baik squad maupun panitia yang belum berkesempatan untuk berangkat. Saya bersyukur memiliki kalian sebagai team. Saya bangga pada kalian. Hingga saat ini.

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Now you know why AWESOME ends with ME! . Captured by @nafridarara . #sunnies #hm #starbucks #instagram #instagramers #instagramhub #instamood #instacool #instadaily #instalook #instalike #photooftheday #lookoftheday #ootd #like4like #xperiaz2 #sony #tirajeans #TRJholiday #TRJLook #ootdventure (at STARBUCKS COFFEE, Solo Paragon Mall, Jl Yosodipuro, Solo)

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My favorite mirror is your eyes. 📸 @nafridarara . #tosca #color #ootd #dailylook #style #male #instagram #instagramers #instagramhub #instago #instafashion #instamood #instacool #instasize #instadaily #photo #photooftheday #photography #mirror (at The Sunan Hotel Solo)

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It’s amazing how 3 minutes with the wrong person feels like an eternity, yet 3 hours with the right one, feels like only a moment.

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If being smart costs my appreciation towards others, I'd rather be average. I am stupid perhaps, but I know how to embrace people rather than to push them away. . #bw #black #white #blackandwhite #sunnies #instagram #instagrammers #instadaily #instalike #instasize #instapic #instamood #instamoment #monochrome #photo #photography #photooftheday #like4like #Sony #Xperia #Solo #Indonesia

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Hidup Berlanjut.

Depok dan Jakarta, 04 Juni 2016

Berada di kota yang selama ini kujauhkan dari inginku. Rasanya tak pernah sedikitpun terbersit di benak bahwa ini adalah tempat yang ingin kutuju dalam seumur hidupku.

Tapi manusia memang harus berhati-hati akan segala harapnya, karena kadang hidup akan mengombang-ambingkan dirinya menuju tempat yang justru ia tak pernah inginkan.

Sudah delapan bulan sejak hari wisudaku. Sudah ratusan hari dari patah hatiku.

Hidup lebih menyenangkan bagiku saat ini. Aku begitu menikmati setiap proses yang kulewati dalam mencari sebuah pekerjaan idaman dan mempersiapkan diri untuk memulai membangun kehidupanku sendiri.

Keberuntungan datang dan menjadi sahabat karib belakangan ini. Ia datang dan tersenyum lebar padaku dan datanglah berbagai kesempatan luar biasa hanya bagiku.

Namun, masih selalu ada tanya yang tak terjawab dan belum waktunya terjawab.

“Bagaimanakah akhir cerita hidupku nanti?”

Apapun itu, aku hanya berharap dikelilingi ketulusan dan cinta dari pasanganku, sahabatku, dan keluargaku kelak.

Satu harapan kecilku bagi mereka, semoga aku bahagia dan begitupun mereka.

-TJ-

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You know you really love someone when you can't hate them for breaking your heart

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Yogyakarta, December 16th 2015 1:51AM

Hey, Love! It should be our 7th, no? We should have been cuddling to celebrate it since last month I was in more than 2100 miles away from you.

I miss you.

I wish now I could hug you or simply kiss your forehead, eyelid dan rub your head when you’re sleeping like I always do. I love to see you sleeping and I’ll smile to be grateful that I have you.

It’s gone now :)

But anyway, happy 16th. Love you most, boo!

==== GET REAL ====

It’s been 3 days since the day you promised me to come. But still, you never show up. I have traveled miles away just to see you but you never understand and say you never ask for that. You have never hurt me so bad before, but this is cruel. It hurts me to my core :) I am really disappointed.

I have known almost all of the lies and what you have covered from me. I have never imagined it that a person can do that terrible thing to another. I have to say, no one ever done this in my life and it slaps me. It leaves a mark on me now. I have a lifetime scar from you.

Friends told me that I’d be home just to be dumped in person. They were right.

Too bad. Even now I know almost everything, I still love you like the day you fell asleep next to me at McD, the day you gave me the bouquet, the day you brought me a cake, and the day you took me to that sunset.

I have never loved a person this deep. I can say it because I have the sense to keep you from any harm. Let them hurt me, not you. Let me work my ass off, not you. Before I met you, I never knew what it’s like to be able to look at someone and smile for no reason.

You’re gone and it shows me how mature this love that I have for you.

This love keeps asking me to forgive since it says that I will never hate you for anything bad you have done. The love is bigger than hatred. You are still my favorite hello and hardest goodbye.

Because to me, you are perfect :)

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The Last Day

Yogyakarta, 12 12 2015

So here I am on the last day of our days together.

I have always known that this day will come and shatter me to pieces. I love you wholeheartedly and no one is ready to lose their one and only.

----THROWBACK----

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I was in the cabin of GA 873 flying from Hong Kong to Jakarta. I felt nothing. “Will I ever be ready?” was the only question pushing back and forth inside this skull.

You said you’ll come and hug me once I stand right in front of your eyes. I was over the moon since the only person I think about each second said that to me and I just could not wait!

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I landed safely and the heat of the sun burned my skin. Every minute passed. People passed on by. I could not say I am excited. I was afraid. I don’t wanna come back to Jogja just to get my face slapped, myself dumped in person. My heart was too fragile and it’s not a whole since I knew the truth. But this love is still genuinely yours......

#GA214

Sky was bright, gloomy was my soul. My eyes stared at the sky with heart losing emotions. The flight felt too fast for me, time was too cruel to set the moment.

That bright sky turned dark and I know Jogja was no longer far. My eyes were wet. I DID NOT WANT TO LAND! The sky got darker and darker. We flew through the clouds and clouds were thick. Clouds ate the plane’s wings. Soon I prayed “God, take me with you. I’d rather die or gone than land and see my lover. I want to disappear and never come back.”

I landed on the ground. My tear has gone. I have to face it. ----SINCE THEN----

You came out of nowhere and grinned. I could not smile and I could feel how fear controlled me. God, I am afraid to lose this one. I know I love this one with all my life on it.

It was awkward and we called each other by names. Not usual.

But we talked and shared and things got better. We don’t call each other by names, but by the word we have always been using for months.

You told me not to talk about the issues because you did not want to ruin the good mood we were currently having.

----DAYS PASSED----

We were in a coffee shop and you wanted to show our friend that we are a nice couple with tons of romantic things, plans, and beautiful relationship.

We walked together and had conversation like we used to have. God, it’s heaven. I love this creature you create and I wish this one is fated to me.

We had dinner and it was decent. On our way back I sang for you and you took my hand, held it closely to your tummy and kissed the back of my hand. And again, I flew to the moon. How could I ever lie or let this one go? I LOVE THIS ONE! 

I SAY I LOVE THIS ONE. YOU!

----ANOTHER DAY PASSED----

We had a plan and you were gone.

My feeling is strong and I know where you went. I know you well and so I know when you are lying.

I am shattered like hell but I always forgive because I know my love is bigger than hatred. Don’t you know that You are the only one I want?

You told me things you have had hidden all this time. It ripped my heart. Darling, why you have to be so mean? I am a man, and I have a heart.

I grabbed the poison and I was hopeless. You don’t even moved to come and see me dying. I am shattered for one more time. You want to get rid of me through the phone. WAIT! I have traveled 3.380 kilometers just to see you and talk! And I know I am just a rubbish now.

----FINAL STAND----

I am now waiting for you to come with heart broken to pieces but still forgive.

I am willing to accept you the way you are.

I still have the faith that I will be able to alter your life and make you see that I am here for you and only for you.

I live by hope.

But seems today, hope is the one that will kill me to my core.......

If it’s over, I am ready to go.

With my heart left on your feet

1436 -BT-

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I want to see the world. But with your hand in mine, boo

Torry J.

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Sometimes

Sometimes we say “I just want you to be happy”

But deep inside in our hearts we know that we still want to be their happiness.

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I am so addicted to the idea of us together

Torry J.

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I know that I am truly, deeply and madly in love because I have done things more than the depth of my feelings

Torry J