lost in the darkness

just a lost girl trying to find happiness | 27 ♡

[tote-traeumerin]

i am not willing to waste my energy fighting for a friendship only i miss.

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I hoped I could outrun my demons.

but they are in the air i breathe.

surrounding me every step i take.

tugging at my clothes.

clinging to my skin.

filling my lungs.

suffocating my soul.

- there's no point in running.

[tote-traeumerin]

The days are just passing by.

I'm withering away.

This cannot be it.

There HAS to be more.

[the-enchanted-little-star]

[alltimesos]

“are you ok?” no but I’m funny

[tote-traeumerin]

Even though I am a mess

You never treated me like I needed fixing.

One of the many reasons

why I love you so much. ♡

[feelingsoftheday]

I'm sorry for all the times my mental health made me a bad friend.

[barelyliving-barelybreathing]

and a bad partner

[tote-traeumerin]

you used to pick me up

then break me down,

tear me to pieces

then fit them back together.

you spread my insides on the floor

admiring all the broken edges,

then found your joy

in fixing the mess you made.

you liked the process

not the end product,

healing then shattering

again and again and again.

You did it so often

I'm certain

I was

your favourite puzzle.

[tote-traeumerin]

I hoped I could outrun my demons.

But they are in the air I breathe

Surrounding me every step I take

Tugging at my clothes

Clinging to my skin

Filling my lungs

Suffocating my soul.

It's pointless to run.

[feelingsoftheday]

ⓘ This user is tired.

[maedchen-der-vorstadt]

„I'm not crying because of you; you're not worth it. I'm crying because my delusion of who you were was shattered by the truth of who you are.“ - Steve Maraboli

[trauertherapiert]

“Manche Erinnerungen hören nicht auf weh zu tun, egal wie viel Zeit vergangen ist.”

– Seelentrauer on Instagram

[wartenichtfuerimmer]

&´ was, wenn ich das alles nicht schaffe?

- wartenichtfuerimmer

[tote-traeumerin]

Nothing feels better than coming to terms with something that made you feel horrible for months or even years.

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I made plans for the future, hoping they would save me from the past.

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my parents' friend is the reason I hate my own body

I was 13 the summer

he told me that, damn, my thighs had grown a lot

- I looked at them with disgust.

my friends are the reason I hate my own body

for years

I felt like I was too much because they were so little

- I looked up to them.

my sister is the reason I hate my own body

over and over again

she told me that I should lose some weight

- I look nothing like her.

my mother is the reason I hate my own body

for as long as I can remember

she talked about how much she hated her own belly

- mine looks just like hers.

my boyfriend is the reason I accept my own body

every single day

he makes me feel beautiful and loved

- the way I look is fine.

[tote-traeumerin]

I LOVE how healthy our love is.