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🎼 𝜗𝜚 ⋆₊˚ jesper fahey irl minor, she/her free 🇵🇸

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hey buddy ur cool as hell !!! ur posts devestate me beyond words though. 💔

HELLO ! i am so glad that you think I’m cool!!!! and as much as i apologize for devastating you beyond words… i am glad even more so that i’m able to do that too 🙏🙏 lowk thats my goal as a writer HSSHDH. seriously thank you so much tho !!! <333

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HI FRIENDS can someone please fill me in on tumblr culture… i’m very very new here and I don’t know the ways.. like do i make mutuals on here.. are there rite of passages i have yet to do…

thank you so very much 😞😞

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man there’s something so devastating about wylan not being able to bring himself to dump his things. like this line was truly my breaking point i started bawling. it was weighing him down, but it was all he had.

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god this quote means so much to me. wylan thinking he was utterly unloveable for the entirety of his life, consoling himself with what conditional love his father offered him until wylan could hide his dyslexia no longer. wylan clinging to the impossible chance that his father’s cruelty was still somehow out of love. that he wasn’t a monster, that deep down wylan was still his boy.

no one had loved wylan until he met the crows, not really, not without a price. his mother had, but he hadn’t known it long enough to feel it.

all the nights wylan spent cold and alone in the barrel, crying himself bare in an empty bed. the night he spent fighting through the ketterdam harbor, hopeless and despised by the people who were supposed to love him.

wylan who knew what a kid was never supposed to know, that his own father would kill him with no remorse.

wylan who felt broken, who was sure he was broken and took every scrap of blame for it.

then he met the crows. a group of degenerate misfits who seemingly had nothing to lose. who seemed bound together by a job and nothing else.

but then suddenly he had a sweet suli girl who would wrap him in her arms when he was upset, who would reassure him that he wasn’t who his father was.

he had the deadliest boy in all of ketterdam who saw skill in him no one else had before, who would tell wylan in his own way that he was useful, that he was capable, that he was part of his crew.

he had a charming heartrender who never once doubted him, who had smiled disbelievingly along with him as his bombs detonated.

he had a tough fjerdan boy who protected him and the rest of them, who unlearned so much of the ugliness in his beliefs to be here with them all, with him too.

and he had a beautiful zemeni boy who would poke at him and tease him, who had sunk right down with him as he shattered onto the ground after he had seen his mother, who had screamed his throat raw when he thought wylan had died. who’s kiss felt like an explosion, who’s eyes felt like dangerous hope.

he had a family, he had a crew, he had people who had seen him at his worst, who had known every point of shame burrowed within him, and loved him anyway.

they were his first friends, his only friends. and they were everything wylan had thought he’d never get. but he did.

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if you appreciate living in a state of sanity then do not think about how both jesper and wylan, two boys with gaping wounds of shame in them, fell in love with someone who saw them as unequivocally perfect. and who vowed to convince them of that.

jesper fahey who grew up hiding his powers, who could hardly even bear to voice out loud his grisha identity, who was taught that his shame was a shield.

wylan van eck who grew up teaching himself to mask and to deceive, to stall his father’s inevitable cruelty as much as he could. who was beaten and berated and mocked, who was taught that his shame was a rightful punishment.

and yet they love each other both in spite of it all and because of it all.

jesper thinks wylan is brilliant, wylan thinks jesper is brave. they think of eachother as everything and more.

jesper convinces wylan that his dyslexia isn’t a defect nor an error, that it doesn’t make him any less of a person, any less of the remarkably clever explosives expert that saved both his and everyone else’s asses time and time again.

wylan convinces jesper that his power is undeniably a part of him, and a beautiful one at that. that maybe it isn’t easy, but neither is anything worth having.

and together, they heal and they grow and they forgive. and they convince each other that they aren’t their shame, and maybe they never were.

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does anyone else see the vision. same (honorary) siblings, different font!!!

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headcannon that nina teaches wylan how to wink and it instantaneously becomes jesper’s #1 weakness

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at some point in time jesper starts harassing kaz to form a handshake with him. for the sake of brotherhood and friendship and yadda yadda. kaz indulges in it for about five minutes for the sole purpose of pick pocketing jesper and then putting it all right back. like he quite literally only did it for his own satisfaction.

kaz tells jesper he couldn’t give less of a crap about the whole handshake thing, but he still memorizes it completely. one day kaz begrudgingly performs it with a very happy jesper after a particularly hard job and everyone’s confused as shit but appreciating it nonetheless

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we don’t talk enough about the crows comparing the worths of their return rewards. jesper being so bored he starts it up in the first place, and of course whining about his not being the highest. kaz being smug and proud of the weight of his reward, matthias being dead against the mere thought of kaz even being worth that much and wylan wondering how people who penetrated the world’s most secure prison are the same people having this stupid ass conversation.

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@ kaz brekker i will personally pay with my OWN HARD EARNED CASH to get you classes on how to talk to your girl. please please please your lack of game genuinely wounds me. because you think like a poetic love fool bastard but the second you open your mouth i never fail to be surprised inej hasn't stabbed your ass yet.

like THIS for example.

he thinks this typa shit then tells her she's an investment to him ?!!;;&:&;& oh kaz how you need a firm smack on the head.

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six of crows ships and their greek mythology parallels

kaz and inej are orpheus and eurydice, because maybe the boys looking back doomed both the girls, but it was also ultimately an act of love. they looked back at their weaknesses, the women they were goners for. kaz and orpheus were devastated, kicking themselves for it, kaz for letting inej get captured, orpheus for letting eurydice get trapped in the underworld. all because they loved their girls enough to look back.

nina and matthias are odysseus and penelope. both nina and odysseus separated from their lovers to go to battle, nina to whatever troubles were to cross her next, odysseus to the trojan war. both matthias and penelope waiting for their return. nina vowing to reunite with matthias in their next lives, the same way odysseus vowed to reunite with penelope. nina and odysseus, two soldiers who yearn for the loves of their lives, holding out for the day they will meet again.

and jesper and wylan as achilles and patroclus. both of them a pair of boys who fought alongside each other, who fell for each other in the midst of it. boys who know each other down to the detail, who were battle partners and then friends and then more. boys who are the halves of eachother’s souls.

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this was my live reaction to chapter 39 of crooked kingdom !!! (i will never get back the part of me that was was withered away by doom and despair when reading that chapter)

ft. me texting my best friend who recommended the soc duology to me as i go through the five stages of grief !

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during every crow’s birthday, they force kaz to have a solo whenever they sing happy birthday.

solely because kaz brekker singing is a sight to behold. mostly because of his obvious detestation towards it and because it’s just dead weird seeing dirtyhands, bastard of the barrel singing.

the first few times, he does it frowning so tremendously that everyone’s half terrified his face is going to fall off.

and on wylan’s birthday, when it’s his turn to get his special solo verse from kaz, wylan starts harmonizing with him and everyone looks just about ready to shit themselves from restraining laughter.

eventually kaz accepts that he’s never worming his way out of this, so he decides to own it.

and on inej’s birthday he belts and riffs and whips out fucking hand gestures while he’s singing.

naturally, the crows have their jaws to the floor and are throughly convinced a group hallucination of some kind is happening.

kaz deems it all worth it after seeing the looks on their faces.

doesn’t stop him from chucking a piece of cake at jesper’s face when he starts shouting for an encore though.

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does anyone remember this dog dessert. i feel like jesper fahey would feel genuine remorse eating this thing. like he would definitely shed a tear or two

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wesper tending to each others wounds after a fight, but wylan’s hair is tousled and hovering over his eyes and seemingly begging for jesper’s fingers to run through it, and jesper has that wild, drunken look in his eyes he always does after a battle.

and they’re both going mad, sitting so closely their knees slot together, tensing up under the barest of each other’s touches

and suddenly it’s too much and they’re moving to pull each other in.

and it gets a little too rough eventually, wylan unintentionally pressing down on a bruise on jesper’s rib and jesper forgetting about the bullet graze on wylan’s arm.

and they break apart, laughing and cursing their injuries and feeling impossibly at home.

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kaz brekker every few chapters

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i love how it’s still second nature for inej to switch into her performance mode. her tell in the books being her squaring her shoulders as if about to perform whenever she’s about to strike an opponent.

i caught a little piece of this in one of the show scenes as well!! if you look closely, inej takes her steps one foot in front of the other as if she’s walking a tightrope. she also has her shoulders squared significantly more than usual!!

it’s because she knew she wasn’t in any real danger of getting caught during this scene, if anything it was a performance of sorts.

i love these little details about her. god inej ghafa you are it girl of the century and my best friend 4life