nightmare

my nightmare is usually about losing you

[trainwreckofwords-blog]

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R-a-y b-a-n glasses anniversary, only this day!

[4am-reflections]

TO THE GIRL WHO LOVES HIM NEXT

he will seem perfect in the beginning. he will say all the right things, bring you flowers when you least expect it. he will do everything you’ve only ever dreamt about. but it won’t last. he will change on a dime, leaving you to wonder what you did to ruin everything. i’m telling you now, you did nothing. he was destined to destroy you from the start.

he will tell you he loves you and when he does your heart will feel more full than it ever has. there will be days when he makes you feel so loved that you will ignore all the times he hurts you. don’t. when he starts cancelling plans last minute, leave. when he stops telling you that you’re beautiful, leave. when you ignores you for hours on end, leave. save your heart. you deserve more.

this man is going to come into your life and change it in ways i can’t even describe. he will hold you while you cry, then spend other days ignoring that he’s the reason for the tears. he will say he loves you, but never show it. i know how good he may seem but please, when you fall in love with him be smarter than i was and get out before he tears your life into pieces.

to the girl who loves him next. don’t.

4am

[my-writemind]

I dreamed about you again last night. Your smile was sweet, your voice kind, and your eyes only on me. We talked for hours on end without ever a lag in conversation. We were always able to do that, remember? But when I awoke to a hard stare accompanied by an insatiable stretch of silence, I couldn’t help but feel like I’m in love with a version of you that no longer exists.

And I refuse to love the new you if he can’t be bothered to love me back. (via littlewordsworth)

[duskyverses]

And my god, did I love you. I loved you with the desire of a moth seeking light that ultimately gives it a means to an end. My love for you was all consuming; all consuming and devoid of any self love,any self preservation. My love for you was like the moon giving up its place in the sky just to let the sun shine. My love for you was like fire in my veins. I don’t know if I miss that anymore. I can’t tell the difference between that fire in my veins and the drugs in my friend’s; I don’t know if it was doing me any good at all. But see now I’m like an eagle, soaring high; soaring into skies that I never even gave myself a chance to wonder about when I loved you.

I’m never coming back down // a.b (via letters-anonymous)

[my-writemind]

I dreamed about you again last night. Your smile was sweet, your voice kind, and your eyes only on me. We talked for hours on end without ever a lag in conversation. We were always able to do that, remember? But when I awoke to a hard stare accompanied by an insatiable stretch of silence, I couldn’t help but feel like I’m in love with a version of you that no longer exists.

And I refuse to love the new you if he can’t be bothered to love me back. (via littlewordsworth)

[my-writemind]

And it was at that exact moment that I realized several things at once; we’d been shouting for exactly two hours and seven minutes, my mascara had run down my cheeks along with my tears, and yet despite all this I had never loved you more.

I would rather spend the rest of my life fighting with you than getting along with anybody else. (via littlewordsworth)

[trainwreckofwords-blog]

moving on 1. if it still hurts to look at him, do not fall for another man. you aren't actually falling for him, you're only looking for something to fill the void. 2. when he finds someone after you guys have ended, don't trash her because she's just accepting the love - as you did. 3. remember that it's okay to wear the jeans he liked or the shirt you wore on the first date, he shouldn't affect the way you dress just because he was once attracted to it. 4. it's okay to move on from him. don't go back to him, he didn't love you right the first time, don't let him get a second chance at breaking your heart. 5. the next boy you love is probably going to make you wait and that's okay because maybe he's going to throw the same thing to you, but remember that you need to move on.

for anyone who needs it // f.w

[my-writemind]

There are a myriad of ways to break someone’s heart. You could lie to them; pour out toxic sentences laced with words you never meant, nor ever will. Or you could be unfailthful; hold them in your arms and whisper sweet things in their ear all while doing the same to another. You could use them; get what you want before throwing them away the same way one might toss a broken toy. But you, you chose the worst and most painful of all options. You told me you loved me, and meant to keep every damn promise you ever made. But then, you changed your mind.

You broke it in the sweetest and most terrible way you could (via pretty-prose)

[overdosedemotions]

I just don’t want to hurt you" he says. I look up at him, a tear rolling down my cheek. The right words won’t escape my mouth, but my mind races with endless thoughts. Then why. Tell me why you’re doing this. If you don’t love me anymore, just tell me. But making up excuses, pretending to care, and “not wanting to see me upset”, is just hurting me even more. And it kills because I love him. So I fought for him, and I fought hard. But is my love enough to keep him with me, or do I mean nothing to him anymore? And as he wiped away the last tear rolling down my cheek, I hoped and prayed with all my heart that it wouldn’t be the last time I would feel his warmth against me. Because I need him. Because real love is worth fighting for.

I won’t give up on us.. not this easily.. 11:41pm // 5.27.17 (via overdosedemotions)

[blackcoffee-speysidewhisky]

I wrote things about you because you gave me the slightest bit of hope in this world, that despite the hurricane, there’s some good in this life. I wrote things about you because you gave me a little bit of love, or at least what I thought was love, and I wanted so much more. I wrote things about you because I wanted you to be different, I wanted you to give me the love that I gave you, I wanted you to stay… But like all things in this life, the truth starts unraveling and all of sudden it hits you like a freight train - what was once there might’ve been just your imagination this whole entire time. And you feel foolish, because you gave your all and he gave you nothing. And so I still write things about you, not because I still love you, but because I remember what it felt like to have someone drown you, scratching at the air just to catch a breath without even laying a finger on you. I remember what it felt like having all this faith in the world, but slowly one by one, physically seeing it start to get smaller and smaller until it’s just a piece of dust sitting in the middle of your palm. I remember what it felt like to see the light in your eyes, what it felt like to hear all those never ending promises, what it felt like to be loved. And I remember how you left; not a word, not a sound, just footsteps out the door leaving me with a burning throat and cracks in my heart to carry on with. Yeah I remember all of that. Doesn’t mean I love you, doesn’t mean I still want you. It just means you let me live, and it just means that I know how to survive when people like you come around next time.

c.f. // “i don’t love you anymore, but you’ll always carry a piece of me with you” (via flannelsandthecoffeebar)

[mypenleaksiridescence]

Sometimes all you can do is lie in bed and hope you fall asleep before you fall apart.

William C. Hannan (via mypenleaksiridescence)

[wordsparkle]

You let me slip through your hands and wondered why I wasn’t wrapped around your finger anymore.

e.e. (via wordsparkle)

[drunk-on-writing]

i romanticized us so much that even when you made me cry i thought of my tears as stars spilling from the sky coming together to create constellations of two lovers dancing through space together.

but we were a supernova at best; together, we burned so brightly that the universe couldn’t handle us (cc, 2017)

[trainwreckofwords-blog]

and what is it about the hurt that made us itch to stay.

nurul ak

[trainwreckofwords-blog]

"why don't you just give up on him and move on?" my friend asked. "because", i sighed, "when you love someone that much, that deeply, you don't just 'move on'. you sit in agonizing hope that maybe, just maybe, they'll take you back all over again."

f.w // i don’t know whether to be sad or glad that you found a way to laugh without me.

[trainwreckofwords-blog]

abandonment issues i always wondered why it was so easy for people to leave what i should have questioned was why i wanted so badly for them to stay

r.h.sin // born to love, cursed to feel

[trainwreckofwords-blog]

there is only one thing worse than losing the one you love, it is losing them without knowing the reason why.

f.w // someone asked me if i knew you, a million memories flash through my mind, i just smiled and said ‘i used to’.