𝙷𝙴𝙻𝙻𝙵𝙸𝚁𝙴

THERE ARE NO MONSTERS LIKE ME

[tribridhellfire]

Hello there! My name is Evie and I’m the person behind this here blog. I am 26 years old and I live in the USA, in the EST timezone. This blog is private and mutually exclusive, meaning I will only write with you if we follow one another! This blog is for Hope Mikaelson of the cw’s legacies. Please make sure to read my rules when following.

                  &. CARRD &. INTEREST CHECKER &. MEME TAG &. SHIP CALL

[tribridhellfire]

I moved Hope to @nexusvrti​

[justanotherrpmeme]

Send 💬  for me to make you a starter with a random line of dialogue from this generator.

[justrpmemesandmusings]

Send “New Years Kiss” to give my muse a kiss at midnight on New Year’s Eve

[hereticurse]

I’m trying to rise above it so let me freaking rise! / indie lizzie saltzman, adored by Evie.  ©

[hereticurse]

I’m trying to rise above it so let me freaking rise! / indie lizzie saltzman, adored by Evie.  ©

[puckrph]

SHIPPY STARTERS

quotes taken from various poems and love letters. feel free to tweak things as needed to fit with your muses! feat. e.e. cummings, pablo neruda, vladimir nabokov, anais nin, henry miller, vita sackville-west, and violet trefusis.

‘ i carry your heart with me; i carry it in my heart. ’ ‘ you are whatever a moon has always meant, and whatever a sun will always sing is you. ’ ‘ yours is the light by which my spirit is born: you are my sun, my moon, and all my stars. ’ ‘ i like my body when it is with your body. it is so quite a new thing. ’ ‘ i like your body. i like what it does, i like its hows. i like to feel the spine of your body and its bones, and the trembling-firm-smoothness which i will again and again and again kiss. ’ ‘ your slightest look easily will unclose me. though i have closed myself as fingers, you open always, petal by petal, myself as spring opens—touching skillfully, mysteriously—her first rose. ’ ‘ something in me understands the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses. ’ ‘ nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands. ’ ‘ i do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no i or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when i fall asleep your eyes close. ’ ‘ i love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul. ’ ‘ i crave your mouth, your voice, your hair. silent and starving, i prowl through the streets. bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day i hunt for the liquid measure of your steps. ’ ‘ of everything i have seen, it’s you i want to go on seeing: of everything i’ve touched, it’s your flesh i want to go on touching. i love your orange laughter. i am moved by the sight of you sleeping. ’ ‘ maybe nothingness is to be without your presence. ’ ‘ i love you, i love you, i love you—and perhaps this is how the whole enormous world, shining all over, can be created—out of five vowels and three consonants. ’ ‘ i swear by all that’s dear to me, all i believe in—i swear i that i have never loved before as i love you—with such tenderness—to the point of tears—and with such a sense of radiance. ’ ‘ i love you, my sun, my life, i love your eyes—closed—all the little tails of your thoughts, your stretchy vowels, your whole soul from head to heels. ’ ‘ with my love i could have filled ten centuries of fire, songs, and valour—ten whole centuries, enormous and winged. ’ ‘  i am reduced to a thing that wants [name]. ’ ‘ i love you, and when i awake in the morning i use my intelligence to discover more ways of appreciating you. ’ ‘ wear that beautiful dress you had on last time. i want to see the white of your flesh against it. i want to commit excesses. ’ ‘ i lie, [name], when i tell you that i do not want to worship you. ’ ‘ i am too gallant with you. i want to look at you long and ardently, pick up your dress, fondle you, examine you. do you know i have scarcely looked at you? there is still too much sacredness clinging to you. ’ ‘ i looked around my room to see what i could offer you; i saw only my silly watercolors and notes—notes everywhere, and on the backs your name—show this to [name], ask [name], see [name]. ’ ‘ there is a barbaric splendor about you that conquered not only me, but everyone who saw you. you are made to conquer, not be conquered. you could have the world at your feet. ’ ‘ you are my lover and i am your mistress, and kingdoms and empires and governments have tottered and succumbed before now to that mighty combination—the most powerful in the world. ’ ‘ how i adore and want you. you can’t know how much. ’ ‘ i love belonging to you—i glory in it, that you alone have bent me to your will, shattered my self-possession, robbed me of my mystery, and made me yours. ’ ‘ i am starving for you, if you must know it. ’ ‘ i want to go away with you. i must, and will, and damn the world and damn the consequences and anyone had better look out for themselves who dares to become an obstacle in my path. ’ ‘ oh my darling, precious love, what is going to become of us? ’ ‘ nothing and no one in the world could kill the love i have for you. i have surrendered my whole individuality, the very essence of my being to you. ’

[hopedaily]

I’m guessing you’re the Krampus.

[casanovawrites]

THE 100 SENTENCE STARTERS, SEASONS 4-5. * survival, regret, guilt, battle, murder, etc.

i know you want to make up for all the things you’ve done, i do too. but we need to think of the bigger picture.

i made the call, and i’ll live with that.

how many people do you have to save before you forgive yourself?

you still have hope? 

you’re the one going too far, using the same justification, ‘ it’s all for my people. ‘

if you just tell them the truth, maybe they’ll surprise you.

i think peace is overrated. it’s the fighters who survive.

you can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved.

here’s the take away: you have to be willing to die to really live.

for all its faults, earth is really beautiful.

whatever choice i make, somebody always dies.

have you ever loved someone so much that no matter what they do to you, or themselves, you take it?

it’s gonna be wonderful. you’re gonna rebuild the world.

if we leave, we can’t come back.

is that really a risk you’re willing to take?

we’ll survive. we’ll just wish we didn’t.

we made death the enemy. that’s how we survived.

you’re a healer, not a fighter.

it’s not the truth. it’s what we say to justify the horror we inflict on other people.

why do you always have to be the one to sacrifice?

you didn’t need me anymore. 

i don’t ever want to see this place again. 

you did things to survive, that’s in the past.

what’s one more, right? we’re already murderers.

we’re talking about taking one life to save hundreds. 

if you say we’re doing the right thing enough, maybe i’ll believe you.

i’ve been fighting the abusive power all my life.

i want to see an end to the violence just as bad as you.

i’m not preparing for war, i’m planning for peace. 

we’re all just people. all this will ever be is a battlefield.

seeing you fighting to survive, that’s who i fell in love with.

as soon as this fight is over, you will fall apart again.

i was part of something bigger than myself. i didn’t know i needed that, but i did.

it felt good to be safe. i never felt that before - like i had a home. 

don’t tell me you’ve never killed for revenge.

i don’t need you to protect me. i protect myself. i always have.

you know nothing of my pain.

we were happy once, weren’t we?

i don’t want to be a killer anymore.

i don’t want to take lives to save them.

everyone dies. let’s show them how to live.

we survive together. all of us, like always.

only a fool fights a war they can’t win.

living with what we’ve done to survive is worse than death.

what happened to us being the good guys?

how do you explain the sun to someone who’s never seen it?

i know it sucks, but sometimes there are no good choices.

how many innocent lives have you sacrificed?

you were just trying to save your people, so am i.

you think better days are ahead, but that’s not true.

there is no light at the end of the tunnel. there is only the tunnel.

we are the problem - human beings, all of us. 

it doesn’t matter what we do. all we’ve done is make things worse.

trust can be earned.

i won’t apologize for protecting you from yourself.

our friends come first.

i’d walk through fire for you. i’d die for you.

you’re better at blowing things up than fixing them.

be strong, direct, unrelenting.

peace without war is still possible.

i came here to tell you that i love you very much, no matter what happens. 

careful. you took a thorn out of a lion’s foot, but they’re still a lion.

we’re still on the same team, right?

you want to weaken than enemy? what’s weaker than an enemy at war with itself?

real warriors hate war. 

this is a place we can start over and rebuild.

the ghosts can have this place.

if you do this, there’s no coming back.

you can’t save someone who’s already dead.

go to war if you want to, but at least tell them they have a choice.

it means we lost the battle, not the war.

hey, you still want a gun?

how do you choose between the monster and the devil?

what we do here now is how we survive.

living with ourselves is another story.

i’m not mad at you for saving my life. i’m mad at you for making me care about yours.

i never said i was a hero because i’m not one.

a week ago, you were a traitor. next week, you might be again.

i’m just tired of always having to choose the least bad option.

it’s broken. i broke it.

we’ve all got blood on our hands, don’t we?

i should have killed you when i had the chance.

i don’t need ghosts telling me what i lost.

i know you’re scared, i am too. but i have to do this, and you have to let me.

life should be about more than just surviving. 

it was you who saved me. 

i may never be able to fix what i broke, but i can save you. 

look around you. do you see signs of hope here?

it’s hard to keep track of whose side you’re on.

first we save their lives, then we let them prove that they deserve it.

so it’s okay for me to be the monster, but not you, right?

your mistake was power - liking it. it’s the kiss of death. 

one garden. two serpents. eden never stood a chance. 

[tribridhellfire]

             @phnxd​ said:  “   time  on  my  hands  could  be  time  spent  with  you .   ”

A smile graced Hope’s lips as she looked him over, reaching out to grab his hand in her own. “Well, I have all the time in the world to spend with you.” They could do what they talked about, backpacking and so much more. “As soon as you graduate we’ll leave.” No more monsters would be coming for them so it was the perfect time. Money wouldn’t be an issue either, since it was no shock that the Mikaelson family were loaded. “We can travel for as long as we want.”

[tribridhellfire]

          @twincurse​ said:  ‘  if  it’s  all  in  my  head,  tell  me  now.  ’

A laugh escaped the tribrid’s lips. “It’s not in your head.” That was the truth. She felt it too, the push and pull they had, it was more than just friendship. Much more. Leaning in she pressed a kiss to her cheek. “Try not to think too far into it, trust your feelings.” 

[tribridhellfire]

          @twincurse​ said:  ‘  did  i  deserve  all  the  hell  you  gave  me  ?  ’

What a pointless question that is. Without her humanity she can’t seem to care if she deserved it or not, she was focused on number one, herself. “Maybe.” She said as she caught her eyes, staring into them, unblinking contact. “You certainly don’t know how to stay away.” Maybe that was why she was dead now. Heretic, a witch and a vampire. “You should be thanking me.” She said simply, she upgraded her without knowing. Maybe it was better this way, she was dead now. “Now you tell me, do you deserve all the hell I give you?”  

[tribridhellfire]

          @twincurse​ said:  ‘  who  knows  if  he'd never  showed  up,  what  could  have  been.  ’

Landon. The name she avoided saying tugged at her emotions, he was dead and yet...Here she was, sitting with Lizzie, alive and well, survivor’s guilt intact. “Well...”She paused, breathing out, her head moving to face her better. “Maybe we could find out now?” There was nothing in their way now. Landon was gone and Hope knew he’d want her to move on. Maybe the answer to the loneliness was right in front of her this whole time and she had been too blind to see it. 

[tribridhellfire]

            @twincurse​ said:  “Most wonderful time of the year, my ass.”

That was something they could agree on. Hope had never been the one for the holidays since her parents died and her family was so far away. It turned her into a bit of a grinch, and apparently, it did to Lizzie as well. “Yeah, I just don’t get what the big deal is...” The halls were empty, everything seemed to be on stand still while everyone was home for the Holidays, at least it was free from festive spirit for the most part, despite what Alaric and Josie tried to do for the kids still stuck here over winter break. 

[tribridhellfire]

Day 2 of knowing jatp was cancelled and I’m still upsetti. 

[soulprompts]

𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘴.

continuing from this list i made earlier!

“ i miss you. ”

“ i don’t think i can do this anymore. ”

“ were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? ”

“ please don’t make me say it. ”

“ i need you. ”

“ please don’t go… ”

“ you know i’m never going to let anything happen to you. don’t you? ”

“ are you… are you afraid of me? ”

“ you’re a good person. ”

“ don’t worry. i’ll stay. i’m not going anywhere. ”

“ …is what they’re saying true? ”

“ i don’t care about any of that. i only care about you! ”

“ i’m here. ”

“ you have no idea how glad i am to see you. ”

“ just… tell me how to fix this. ”

“ please. now is not the time for lies. please, just… tell me the truth. ”

“ you know you can tell me anything… right? ”

“ hey… there is nothing in this world that you can tell me, that’ll ever make me hate, fear, or leave you. please, rest easy in that knowledge. ”

“ i never thought i’d see you again. ”

“ please… you have to understand why i did what i did… ”

“ why didn’t you tell me? ”

“ everyone has secrets, don’t they? i’m sure you’ll tell me yours when you’re ready. ”

“ you’re not alone. ”

“ you can trust me. ”

“ i can’t believe i ever trusted you… ”

“ it’s okay… everything’s going to be alright. ”

“ i…  i  don’t know how to fix this. ”

“ there’s no other way, is there? ”

“ no. absolutely not. no way. i’m not letting you do this. ”

“ you don’t know what it was like. ”

“ for gods sake, don’t do this! don’t you dare make me lose anyone else! not today! ”

“ i can’t lose you… ”

“ haven’t we suffered enough? can’t we have this one good thing? ”

“ you know, i think this might be the first time i’ve ever seen you frightened… ”

“ goodbye, my love/old friend. ”

“ you didn’t honestly expect me to let you do this alone, did you? ”

“ you lied to me. ”

“ you abandoned me. ”

“ promise me. ”

“ you promised! ”

“ please don’t do this… ”

“ we were one hell of a pair, weren’t we? ”

“ perhaps i am a little frightened… ”

“ we’re a team. remember? so let’s face this one together. ”

“ sorry. you’re stuck with me, i’m afraid. it’s part of the whole friendship/relationship thing. wherever you go, i go. ”

“ you… you must know, before anything else happens tonight… you must know that you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me. ”

“ i love you. ”

[vindctvewrites]

*♡ ˙ ˖ ✧･ﾟ  —  holiday ask meme  !  —  ･ﾟ✧ ˖ ˙ ♡ *

send  🎄 for  our  muses  to  decorate  the  christmas  tree  together .

send  🌿  for  our  muses  to  be  caught  under  mistletoe .

send  ⛄️  for  our  muses  to  build  a  snowman  together .

send  ❄️  for  our  muses  to  be  caught  indoors  due  to  a  snowstorm .

send  🛩  for  your muse  to  surprise  mine  by  making  it  home  for  the  holidays .

send  🍪  for  our  muses  to  bake  cookies  for  santa  together .

send  🎁  for  my  muse  to  try  &  guess  what  yours  got  them  for  christmas .

send  🙈  for  our  muses  to  stay  up  waiting  for  santa .

send  🥶️ for  our  muses  to  warm  up  by  cuddling  close  to  a  fire .

send  💝 for  my  muse  to  give  yours  a  handmade  gift .