TribulatedRay

"Confusion Will Be My Epitaph."

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Shorty, let me tell you 'bout my only vice. It has to do with 'lots of lovin' and it ain't nothin' nice. - Q Tip

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BPD*

Borderline. Why is it called that? Personality. Identity. . . On the borderline of complete insanity and destruction. . . Those highs though. . . Damn are they good. Couldn't it also just be on the borderline of complete bliss and satisfaction.

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So Anxious

Shivers, Trembling, Quake, Fuck. Inhale. Exhale. Contact. I love how you rarely look away. You're not afraid to watch me take you. In fact, you love to see it. I love it too.

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Masochistic Tendencies.

You're going to hurt me. Take your time though. I need to feel every second Don't hold back. . . The masochist in me will relish in the pain. Smiling the entire way down.

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Nadie sabe de mi, no mas lo que enseña. Lo que me da riza es que soy un libro esperando ser leido. -tribulatedray

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"Unknown Man"

Oh, unknown man, whose rib I am, why don't you come for me? A lonely, homesick rib I am that would with others be. I want to wed-there, now, 'tis said! (I won't deny and fib.) I want my man to come at once and claim his rib! Some men have thought that I'd be theirs, but only for a bit, We found out soon it wouldn't do- we didn't seem to fit. There's just one place, the only space I'll fit (I will not fib.) I want that man to come at once and claim his rib! Oh, don't you sometimes feel a lack, a new rib needed there? It's me! Do come and get me soon before I have gray hair. Come get me, dear! I'm homesick here! I want (and I'll not fib), I want my man to come at once and claim his rib!

-Anonymous 1983 Source: Overcoming Loneliness by David Jeremiah

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Tryin' To Get PRSSED.

Too sweet. Too Kind. Words can't describe the joy I feel when I'm around you. I can't stop thinking about your little tongue in my mouth. Juicy. Sweet. Wet. Refreshing. I want more. I want it all. I want to swim in it. Raw. Genuine. Agua Fresca. Dame Mas, Por Fas. Allow me to drown in your spirit. The fact that you even allow me To be a part of your reality is such a treat. How could I ever get tired? Your smell. Your touch. Your voice. Your taste. Your entire being. You stimulate the fuck out of all my senses. A night alone with you. . . *SENSORY * OVERLOAD *

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"FACETIOUS" -Lo Wright

Facetious. Mischievous. A smirk for a smirk. Anything. Anything but Work.

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Wishful Thinking

I wish he was obsessed with me. I wish it drives him crazy to be without me. I wish he couldn't stop thinking about me No matter how hard he tries. I wish. I wish. I wish. However, I'm feeling now That all of my wishes are just that. Nothing more.

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"Chains, Hot Water, Aquiline Features. Beautiful." - Heavy Manner

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My Fair Matriarch

Heavy. Solid. Steel Weighs like an anvil Chained to my ankle Just dragging. Pulling me back. Slowing me down. Pressing me. Stop pressing me.

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MUSIQUE

I like to let it carry me Cradling me. . . Surrounding my entire being.

It takes me everywhere it goes. High. Low. Everywhere the light shines & Everywhere the shadow hides.

It never lies to me. Tells it like it is. Fuck a sugar coat. Gives it to me straight. No chaser. No Games.

Sometimes I don't know how to feel. It tells me how. . . It shows me.

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I'M EXHUASTED

Leave me alone. I do as I'm told. I follow the rules. I don't bother you. So don't bother me. Like a hermit chillin in the sand I'm relaxed till you invade my privacy I escape to my safe space.

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SIZZURP

A vibe I enjoy matching Bitter taste. . . but smooth. Considerate enough to coat your throat. It welcomes me. It cares. A good host who makes me warm and relaxed.

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"EW. Bitch, I'm attractive. I can't fuck with you no more, I'M FASTIN' UGH BITCH I'M ATTRACTIVE." -KungFu Kenny

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// AVOIDANCE

Avoidance. Riddance. I'm dreading it. I wish it didn't have to end like this. But I really need to learn To be alone. Life is gonna be different. Everytime I think about it. I envision a shot of a large Sledge hammer crashing down On a live anatomical heart. My anatomical heart. It's gonna hurt and it always will.

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HIDDEN MESSAGE

Current Obsession. Red Top. Tatted. Red Hot. Tall, Long, and Strong. I want it all. All of you. Absolutely Gorgeous. I want you to myself. Utterly captivating. Your eyes, they see me From top to bottom. Your hands, they feel me Every inch of my body. Your lips, they taste me Consuming every single drop. Drunk off of my essence. Your scent, imprinted on me. The large inhale. I'm high. I hope you enjoy mines just as much. I'm not sure how long this will last But i'll treasure our memories Like Gold, Precious, Innocent fun. Genuine. It's a part of me now. Whether we like it or not.

*IT FEELS LIKE IM ON MY DUSTER RIDING DOWN THE HIGHEST HILL. NO TIME TO STOP. ALL I CAN DO IS MAINTAIN BALANCE TO PREVENT MYSELF FROM FALLING*