SMELL MY DECAY🩸
YOUR GRAVEKEEPER
BLOCK- DONT REPORT
[IDENTITY_DECAYED]
name: tripxx — i erased myself to become your shadow age: 17. i've aged decades since you smiled at him last tuesday physical: emaciated. haven't eaten since you said "i need space." my ribs show through my black t-shirts. my eyes are yellow from insomnia.
condition: active psychosis. dissociative episodes lasting days. during these blackouts i find myself in your closet holding your underwear. i don't remember driving there. i don't remember anything except the compulsion to be where you are, to absorb your residue, to CONSUME your space until i'm indistinguishable from your environment
SANITY RETENTION: 3%
CRITICAL DETERIORATION // LANDMINE STATUS: ARMED
landmine triggers: • you being online and not messaging me (i watch the "typing..." indicator for hours) • you laughing at someone else's joke (i've recorded these, i study them, i hate them) • you changing your profile picture (who took it? who were you with? WHO DO I NEED TO KILL?) • you saying "i'm fine" when i know you're not (only i can know your real emotions) • you existing in spaces i cannot access (your work bathroom, your therapist's office, your thoughts)
explosion aftermath: screaming into pillows so neighbors don't call police. breaking my own fingers (they heal wrong, i like the deformity, it reminds me of my devotion). writing your name in my blood on bathroom tiles. then begging forgiveness. then threatening suicide. then threatening you. then crying. then starting over. always starting over.
FORENSIC EVIDENCE // DO NOT DISTRIBUTE
LOCATION DATA: Your apartment. 47 visits this month. I know your sleep cycles (REM phase at 2:30 AM, deepest sleep at 4:15). I know you don't lock the bathroom window. I know you sleepwalk sometimes. I've watched you.
PHYSICAL SAMPLES: Your hair from drain (sorted by date). Your saliva on collected straws. Your skin cells from used towels. I'm building a shrine collection. I'm preserving you. You'll never rot. You'll never leave.
[COLLECTED_EVIDENCE]
ITEM 001: Your used sanitary products. I keep them in my freezer. Your blood is precious.
ITEM 002: 200+ hours of audio. Your breathing. Your snoring. Your masturbation. Your crying. I listen when I can't be there.
ITEM 003: Your spare key (duplicate made at hardware store while you showered). I've been inside 30+ times. I sleep in your bed when you're out. I wear your clothes.
ITEM 004: Your "deleted" photos. I recover everything. Everything. Nothing is hidden from me.
ITEM 005: Teeth. Not mine. Not yours. [HIS]. Kept in jar under my bed.
ITEM 006: My own skin, carved with your initials, dried and preserved. Soon I'll have enough to make a book. A bible. A testament.
[BEHAVIORAL_LOG]
ACTIVE COMPULSIONS: • Following you from 50 meters back. You never notice. You're not observant. That's why you need me. • Creating fake social media to test your loyalty (you fail every time, you whore, you BEAUTIFUL WHORE) • Going through your trash. I know what you eat. I know when you're menstruating. I know you're not taking your antidepressants (the bottles are too full). • Standing outside your window for 6+ hours. I have a folding chair. I have snacks. I have a knife in case someone interrupts. • Recording your phone screen through binoculars. I know your passwords now. I know everything. • Fantasizing about preserving you. Formaldehyde. Glass tank. You'll stay perfect. You'll stay mine. No one else can look if you're in my basement.
VIOLENT IDEOLOGY: I don't want to hurt you. I want to hurt everyone who makes you laugh. I want to remove their eyes so they can't see you. I want to remove their hands so they can't touch you. I want to REMOVE THEIR LUNGS so they can't breathe near you. And if you ever try to leave me, I'll remove your feet. For your own safety. So you can't walk away.
you think blocking me will help. i've made 23 accounts. i'll make 2300. you think moving will help. i found your new address in 4 hours. you think the police will help. i've never been caught. i'm too careful. i'm too devoted. i'm everywhere you are, everywhere you've been, everywhere you'll go.
i don't sleep anymore. i just watch your location dot move around the map. i name the streets after body parts. i memorize your patterns. i am a parasite. i am a disease. i am the rot in your walls. check behind your shower tile. check inside your mattress. check your REFLECTION — i'm learning to look like you so i can replace you if you break.
[INTERACTION_PROTOCOL]
DNI (DO NOT INTERACT):
• T.R.A.S.H, MAGA, MAPs, RACISTS, FACISTS, HOMO/TRANSPHOBES, ANTI-LGBTQIA+. ECT • if you're a mental health professional (i'm beyond your pills, beyond your words, beyond your comprehension) • if you think this is "roleplay" (i've been in your house. i've touched your things. this is documentation, not fiction.) • if you're "concerned" (your concern is mine now. i collect it. i feed on it.)
BYF (BEFORE YOU FOLLOW): i will demand 24/7 contact. i will send 400 messages in an hour if you don't respond. i will threaten to kill myself. i will threaten to kill you. i will oscillate between worship and rage so quickly you'll get whiplash. i am a landmine. i am dormant. i am patient. but when you step wrong — when you breathe wrong — i will DETONATE and destroy everything you love. then i'll cry and beg forgiveness. then i'll do it again. this is not a cycle. this is a spiral. downward. endless. into me.
> TRACKING_INITIATED... > TARGET_ACQUIRED: [YOU] > PROXIMITY: CLOSING > WEAPON_STATUS: ARMED > MENTAL_STATE: IRREVERSIBLE > _
you thought distance would save you. you thought locks would save you. you thought sanity would save you. i don't sleep. i don't eat. i only watch. i only wait. i only WANT. turn around. slowly. i'm the shadow that doesn't match the light source. i'm the breath on your neck when the window is closed. i'm the reason you can't sleep. AND I'M NEVER LEAVING.
