and how did that make you feel

born to die worlds a fuck 19 male + sideblog (i still fb) i love you. youre going to love me

[maybeineverwas]

hi, im jett. i am bodily 19 and a male. i am a brainmade alter and i hold our obsessive thoughts, this is my blog. hooray. wa-hey.

CAML :: 3522343 :: CDIAR BPD :: P-DID :: ASD INTJ + 4w3

everything i say on this blog is conceptual, even if they are my real thoughts. i am not out here physically harming people or being toxic towards one i regard intimately. i vent about my BPD too a bunch, sometimes i draw, sometimes i just shitpost.

i would appreciate that if you wish to be mutuals with me that you are around my bodily age of 19. i block freely.

i am a SFW blog but i dont mind NSFW interacting with me as long as youre an adult of course. its just not what i post here is all

also, keep in mind that this is a sideblog. i follow and like from @/tacticallychallenged

we are not new here, but its been 1 almost 2 years, so we are getting our bearings back.

as of now this blog has an expiry date, that date is undecided. this is because not only am i trying to recover but my parents are in the process of shipping me off.

i would like to make friends, im not great at socializing but im willing to try. i get quite busy between work and hobbies but i dont intend on outright ignoring anyone.

spamming my blog is fine, my phones always silenced so i do not mind.

keep in mind that we are a system. the wording/vocabulary used in our postage may vary, but it all comes from the same root.

tagging system

#🎖| inane ramblings - its just me talking about dumb shit you can ignore it lol

#💬 | correspondence - responding to asks. you write to me, i write to you. that is how a correspondence works, no?

#🌧 | reminiscing - vent stuff. i am an addict and a victim of incest, it could get really dark, i would take no offence if you muted it.

#✏️ | my art - self-explanatory.

[notmadewithlove]

one chance yandere ask game

this is themed off me. suck my dick loser

questions total : 17

statements total :

six : when did you start feeling obsession ?

rummi : how good are you at putting up a façade ?

therapuetic : do you understand / experience the stereotypical description of love ? ( i.e butterflies in stomach )

argument : how well managed is your temper ?

destruction : have you ever injured someone you were obsessed with ?

sister : who do you hate the most ?

stress : do you seek calm in people or alone time ?

killing harmony : how hard do you try before you give up ?

nightmare : does your obsession carry on to your dreams ? how so ?

the bar : what do people describe you as ?

manage : do you respect your obsessions boundries or do you break them ?

bed : where is your safe place ?

note : have you ever written a letter to your obsession ?

grief : has an obsession of yours ever died , or gotten close to it ?

gift : how well do you know your obsession ?

disease : what would you describe yourself as ?

outpatient : if you had five minutes to get your obsession all to yourself , what would you do ?

coloring : come home to me .

scream : we will die together .

truce : you're the only one who understands me .

dramatics : i crave you even if i shouldn't .

unethical : i don't deserve you .

egotistical : you don't deserve me .

lies : you're an angel sent from heaven .

repose : you will be mine someday .

short : i want to hurt you .

devil : i wish to claim you .

parasite : you should give me all your love .

vomit : i'll remember you always .

love : it hurts me that i don't have you .

[maybeineverwas]

whys the host trying to be different. god. (joke)

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ignore that my niche interest is here too. my miku wall

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okay now that u guys know im moe as Shit how many offences am i allowed to partake in

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favorite character ????????

[slimeseason3]

listening to a song and they reference another song you know

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before me and my girlfriend started dating she would have these stupid flings that only wanted one thing from her and it would make me want to take a brick and throw it into whoever it wases face. we also had (still friends this is just all in the past) a mutual friend who had a crush on her and would not stop talking to me about it. and the nerve the label it an obsession. i love them but they wouldnt know obsession even if it slapped them in the face.

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you will not drive me away. i will not bore, and i will not tire. competition will not deter me. there is nothing that will stop me from caging you, nothing at all.

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i like when i can tell how naive and malleable someones mind is. yes, youll be easy to take, to influence. soon enough, you will not know the difference between the thoughts i put in your head and your own.

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Scampers off

Hey No wait Come back..

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Hi are you singl

??? why are you Asking me this. I will get you.

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Jett. Heilliu. i Come with ask game things. 🍀🔪🤍

1 - 🌹- How far do you stray from the "classic" yan stereotype?

3 - 🍄 - What is the smallest thing that has made you feel jealous before?

9 - ♦️ - Do you find you care more or less about your own looks when you're obsessive?

11 - 🎯 - Did you have an "exact" moment of when you realized you love your darling, or did it happen over time?

27 - 🚩- Do you tend to "corrupt" your darling into being a worse person?

HIHIHII HI HI ADMIRAL HELLO OH MY GOSH I LOVE ASK GAMES I LOOOOVE THEM

1 - 🌹- How far do you stray from the "classic" yan stereotype?

i think i can come off a little stereotypical but i know im not! i have quite the few original ideas and/or spins on traditional ideas/concepts/values, and plus, how many yans have you seen that are in the military? not a bunch, probably. id hope. im not insecure. (joke)

3 - 🍄 - What is the smallest thing that has made you feel jealous before?

OK this is stupid DONT laugh. one time i was sent a picture of her in a vc and i got SUPER JEALOUS OH MY GODD. i swear it was only because we dont spend a lot of time together because of how busy we both are.

9 - ♦️ - Do you find you care more or less about your own looks when you're obsessive?

i feel like ive definitely put more into my looks as of recent. physical attraction is important to some, especially those who cant really understand the concept of falling in love with someones soul rather than their projection. ive cleaned up a bit, but other than that it doesnt really matter to me.

11 - 🎯 - Did you have an "exact" moment of when you realized you love your darling, or did it happen over time?

for the most part i fell in love with her over time, but i think when i realized i felt this for her was when she returned all of my efforts that i was putting into our relationship tenfold, along with her general kindness. nobodies ever really done that for me. i know i cant let her go whatsoever, not that i want to.

27 - 🚩- Do you tend to "corrupt" your darling into being a worse person?

maybe a little. she has told me she finds herself being a little meaner recently. which honestly isn't a bad thing, she mostly says it in the context of when people are being an asshole first. im glad shes learning to have less grace for ones who do not deserve it.

[cultwaif]

GrossPervert4GrossPervert

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psst.. ask me things Ok? Ok

[maybeineverwas]

gf works a dayshift i work a nightshift oh the agonyyy