Youāre pushing me away and I donāt know what to do. I care about you, I always have and I always will. Do you, do you care about me? You say you do, but then you ignore me. āIām that way with everyoneā you say, but there you are laughing, having a thirty minute conversation with another. When I try to talk to you, you barely respond; you brush me off. Youāre someone I thought Iād know forever, but there you go slipping away from me. Although Iām fully capable, I donāt understand and I donāt think I ever will - because youāll never tell me. Inseparable one minute, barely talking the next; oh, how the times change. Iād do anything to help you, and Iāve proven that. Once things got better for you, do you leave behind the ones who have helped you in the process? Is that what this is? You should surely be able to clear this up, but you wonāt.
Iāve hurt my self to help you. Iāve made sacrifices to be there for you. Is that not enough? Is wanting whatās best for someone 24/7 not enough? I never asked for anything in return but honesty. This is didnāt even get.
So itās been almost a month since you last texted me first to talk. And I realized that I shouldnāt have to question if you still want to be my friend or not. So our friendship is in your hands. Take care of it or donāt; I donāt care anymore. I love you and Iāll miss you and our close friendship but Iāve learned where I hold myself as a person. And I will never beg for someoneās attention, I will never force a friendship, and I will never keep myself in a toxic one-sided relationship. Iāve made the effort, now itās your turn. Iāve shown you that I care, prove to me you do too. Nurture our friendship back to good health, if I really mean that much to you like you say.
I care too much about people. People take advantage of this. I get used; my feelings abused. Hopefully you wonāt do the same.
Thereās a chance youāll see this but a very strong one you wonāt (I assume you donāt pay attention to me as much as I do to you). If you do see this, youāll know this is about you. I want you to see this, in fact Iāll be happy if you do.
Do what you want; itās your life. But donāt you ever say I was the one who drifted away from you or that I was never there for you. I was, however you wernt. I still want to be friends, but a friendship canāt work if itās only one way. At the end of the day, if you wanted to be my friend, youād be acting like it.
snowghoul
2087
stormborns
prguitarman
titsay
