angel

tw for ed, nsfw (ig), sh, csa, sa

[truamavabey]

angel | he/they

tw for csa, nccsa, sa, ed, sh, general mental illness vent

kink or non vent blogs dni. please don’t glamorize or romanticize my trauma

[shoelace4-48-deactivated2022061]

[tenshinopantsu]

Me, clearly traumatized: yeah, but like, what if I’m faking it??? Like, what if it’s not real???

[thedarkperidot]

The crushing moment of defeat when you do everything you can for everyone and it’s never good enough

The crushing moment where you’ve put all of your energy and soul into someone and you realise this whole time they preferred someone else

The crushing moment when you need someone, and nobody’s there.

[bigdickdaddysatan]

Please

[myfavoritebisexual]

at least my abandonment issues will never leave me

[nikish-sa]

[clusterb-itch]

[bandomgay]

Nobody:

My crippling abandonment issues and constant paranoia:

[sailorportia]

them: *goes one day without talking to me*

me and my abandonment issues:

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I’m not even a person. I’m a graveyard for people who have left me. Their presences’ linger and haunt me.

[dreamierotbabie]

(not my photo)

[traumabb]

Fuck it. Let's talk about it. I want to retraumatize myself. I want to feel awful. I want to feel like shit. I want to feel like I deserved it. I want to feel like nothing at all. It's all I can focus on right now. Does anyone else experience this? The intense feeling to make yourself feel like shit. Scrolling through posts that emerse you in your shame and guilt ™. Remind you of what happened. Triggering yourself into a reaction. Torturing yourself. I'm convinced trauma and shame and guilt ™ are all I'll ever feel.

[888angelic]

crazy how even when my trauma makes me want to sob and throw up and kill myself and kill my abuser there’s a voice in the back of my head reminding me that it wasn’t even that bad, i’m overreacting, i should be over it by now

[truamavabey]

i’m so fucking stupid it hurts so much thinking about them. i almost wish i never met him in the first place it hurts so bad.

[truamavabey]

why am i never good enough. why am i never enough. why don’t people ever want me back.

[abyssalmaki]

09.27.19