spatiotemporal subject

"i fake it so real i am beyond fake" - jean baudrillard pri, 22, she her

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cant just pile aesthetic-perceptive dilemma, over-analytic demeanors, feelings of lonely worthlessness and unproductivity atop the other

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my infinite jest any % is 5 days as of july 15-july 20th 2026 and i achieved this using a strategy of trying to will myself to not do that and to "make it last" by taking notes and annotating and using the pink glitter highlighter. it's like training a rat. after day 3 i just bailed on the derrida i was studying alongside, though. it's not like it makes a difference because my brain hangs on these things that i could just go back to it later lol. i don't care to analyze fiction while still (being-) "In" the fiction because it interrupts the gestalt of inner experience/immersion in the appreciation of the specific fiction as an art-work, like a sort of more metaphysical meditative meta-interpretation within the experience of reading fiction as an experience with art, which means the actual note-taking is more like documentation of that inner-experience than interpretive apparatus. not directing this in a weird way regarding authenticity that moralizes deterriorialization, because i am just always doomed to be passively analyzing, seeing as i am obviously engaging with writing from the perspective of someone who understands it as a subject for analysis and not as a purely aesthetic experience regardless of if it is fiction or not (which is like, gross btw) but i can game the autism on infinite jest specifically due to the story itself the narrative exists to deliver functioning as a "philosophy-fiction" (phi-fi, my oc term donut steal) where engaging with the story as a Story the way one could ontologically apply herself into the world of an entertainment-fiction while also being substantive in allusions to palpable philosophical perspectives but literalized and conveyed with a degree of immediately perceptible meta-awareness that is just, personally relatable without coming across as smarmy or overconfident. the complexity embedded within and respected in the story's adapted portrayal of the themes functions as a like inverted family guy funny moments stimmy clip in the corner that allows a perspective centring on the imagined cartoon movie im watching that is the actual story as itself. to some extent any literary fiction is going to have themes right but the specificity of the themes and nuance in the level of compounded discourses applied to them and acknowledged within the narrative, or maybe my own preexisting familiarity with the themes and their real philosophical discourses, enriches the Story as opposed to the story existing in service to the themes. healthy junk food sort of thing, immensely comforting, but that metaphor sucks because art doesn't necessitate justification and this art especially has more than justified its existence through the (sometimes literally) expressed intentions alone

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why are you calling me kid im the same goddamn age as you are

[eyewishing]

an apple a day keeps the doctor away becauyse they don,t operate on bug,s

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are we really doing this right now

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baby boomer oc frm livco crime moe thing

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dug up

someone on reddit saying nobody does art of mario. false, i do, i just don't post because i don't want to explain why they're making avant garde pooh's adventures

[stone-cold-groove]

Movement I. Mixed media on canvas, Wassily Kandinsky - 1935.

[florjus]

Rammellzee | Green Arrow 1984

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i self undiagnosed myself a few months ago for giggles but i'm breaking the bit to concede a little about this whole closing eyes thing in getting away from already pretty much being away from it all, the way it recurs in the closing paragraph, the general allusion-theme with the childhood anxieties and overwhelm (being-poked-by-a-mad-chicken-trauma based vigilance overlapping into the greater sensory nightmare of the reportedly over-stimulating animal buildings) of the encroaching chicken room funhouse emotional penultimate whatever, it is all a really genius approximation of what shit feels like out here. it's more of an individually personal expression than the more apparently mushy philosophical-journalistic meaning attribution of the more prominent ones, the part that people really tend to enjoy about these articles, in a way that feels uniquely representative to a "specific" reading. this one sticks to me. the descriptions of being in these spaces and the sort of painstaking attention paid to detailing every tiny sensorial pricking as if i didn't already have immense second-hand phenomenal anxiety based on the names of the environments alone > " I've never before realized that "cacophony" was onomatopoeic: the noise of the Poultry Bldg. is cacophonous and scrotum-tightening and totally horrible. I think it's what insanity must sound like. " (AND an entendre too wowa)

ok so for reference i don't have a scrotum but i regardless do know and innately feel (inner experience wise) precisely just what feeling he's describing there and that is the most succinctly accurate and functional description of it i have seen. that feeling embarrassed and vaguely shameful about it while having to sit down in the public space and take a moment as to not "break down" or what, like Crash Out is what i say in the future here now... euguh. visceral

[d0ds6]

infinite jest doodles

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[prokopetz]

See, I 100% believe Jon Bois when he claims he'd never heard of Homestuck prior to writing 17776, and it's totally plausible to me that what similarities exist between JUICE and Dave Strider are purely a product of the fact that they're both affectionately parodying the same extremely specific Type of Guy, but it still fascinates me that both authors were so personally acquainted with that Type of Guy.

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andrew hussie has known who mike pemulis is since before he first drew the first bottle of apple juice in dave strider's closet though. eternal recurrence friedrich nietzsche

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st louis linguistic corridor organized petty crime syndicate research documentation

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vape therapist looks like pemulis vapesona

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1 - LSD ballet incident (it SMILES)

2 - 70s chicago au """"

3 - nuclear apocalypse

4 - uhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i remember this blog exists and am not a coward consumed by self-obsessed insecurities :)

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