what about my wings?

Mia, she/her, 24 infp with a tendency to obsession main blog | A03

[approachingperfection1984]

[dogwoodbite]

[TEXT: Poem "I'm Sorry I'm Running Late I'll Be There in a Few Minutes" by Nora Rose Tomas.

"the subway door closed / on my leg last night and / now I have this huge bruise / down my thigh probably / five or six inches purple / and red the girl I'm sleeping / with keeps sending me pictures / of this white pigeon / she says she thinks the pigeon / is following her and she gets upset / when I say it is probably a different bird / each time

I understand that feeling though / like something is narrowing in on you / going through the day as if you have just / escaped tragedy / it is temping to imagine / a universe that / is putting in the effort to haunt you"

/End Text]

[valsferatu]

calicrow critters

[luna-azzurra]

The most interesting question you can ask about any character is not what do they want. it's what do they believe they deserve. because those two things are almost never the same and the gap between them is where your entire story lives. a person can want love completely and believe they don't deserve it and that belief will destroy every good thing that comes toward them in ways they won't even notice they're doing. write the gap. the gap is the character.

[cuunos]

being a kid and hearing adults say stuff like "woah 2011 was 4 years ago haha" didn't really convey the fucking horror of a youtube video crossing my recommended labelled "9 years ago" and it's from 2017. that's not true. 9 years ago is 2010 or something. don't lie.

[alvallah]

One of my favorite things about loving someone or developing a closeness or fondness towards someone is also loving and developing a fondness for the things they care about. When you learn to see the world in a new way, or you learn to appreciate the things you’ve previously overlooked, or they become your excuse to get into an interest you always thought was cool but thought you didn’t have time for. When a connection makes your world bigger and warmer and fuller and more beautiful.

[wordfather]

not my circus not my monkeys but thanks to my mutuals i know some of the lore

[kisseism]

"omg you remembered!" of course i did. I have a file on you

[driftwoodsix]

still living with my parents as an adult is just like. i'm grateful to not have to pay for groceries. i have to get out of here. i'm grateful to have a roof over my head and not have to pay rent. i have to get out of here. i'm grateful to not have to worry about sending out endless job applications that all lead to nowhere. i have to get out of here. i'm grateful i'm grateful i'm so fucking grateful. i have to get out of here

[unicorngunter]

[francisketches]

i'm coming wait for me

i hear the walls repeating

the falling of our feet

and it sounds like drumming

[hjarta-deactivated20260124]

[que-mint-tea]

in my experience it goes something like..

[fruityfinnegan]

[thatonesongyouretryingtoremember]

[icantimagineadaywithoutyou]

I see some people being super annoyed at the idea that all you need is to learn breathing techniques and you'll overcome intense anxiety right away, and, as someone with two anxiety disorders who takes two meds for it, I get that. But it wasn't actually the breathing that got Jay-Den through his panic attack. Oh, I won't deny that it was helpful. I use breathing techniques to manage anxiety. But what actually helped Jay-Den was Darem's emotional support. Jay-Den didn't just start using Darem's breathing techniques, he looked desperately for Darem in the crowd before doing so. Jay-Den didn't get his anxiety attack under control because of a brand new breath exercise. He got it under control because of Darem's comfort.

Jay-Den drew strength from the memory of Darem's hand around his fists and arm around his back. Human connection matters hugely when it comes to managing anxiety. It's massively easier to get a panic attack under control if I have someone there to hold me or even just talk to me.

I do think meditation and breathing techniques can help with anxiety in the long run, but y'all are right that it wouldn't happen this quickly, and it didn't. Jay-Den's connection to Darem was the key, not the breathing.

[leehallfae]

someone at paramount knows ball.

[werenotreallystrangers]

"The people who allow your nervous system to relax are usually the people who belong closest in your life."

[heypax]

the craziest staging in hadestown will forever be eurydice running after orpheus in chant and him NOT turning around and that being the issue. he doesn’t see her!!! the reason she goes to hadestown is BECAUSE he doesn’t turn around!!! it’s an old song it’s a tragedy!!!!!!

[astralknightt]

He loses Eurydice twice. Once when he turns his back on her, and the other, when he turns to face her

[morelikeariverthanarock]

This whole Sam plot is so fucking juicy especially with what a lot of us young adults are going through rn

I didn't have any tools put in place in my childhood to survive the tragedies of the last half decade. In re-parenting myself I have to come back to people and friends and family changed. New. A completely different person in some places.

If my friends and family are going to stay in my life they need to learn who I am now. They don't have to love and accept me, but I do. And that's what matters. Because my life is MINE.

Other people putting their expectations on me had been my problem. Sovereignty on ground I chose to plant my feet on is the point, and I will stand with my strength regardless of what people think.

'Growing up' looks and feels uncomfortable to people in your life who benefit from your wonder, kindness and need to fit in. Boundaries irritate people who are used to taking advantage of the kind of person you are in their perception, whatever character or role you play in their life.

Either way, coming back to the same place as a new person is harder for other people than it is for you because they're trying to keep balance in your wake and you're half a mile ahead in the still water.

I've changed, and if you love me it's time to catch up. Getting to this point was my hard work, and I deserve someone else to put effort into me too

[kirkenovak]

Ok.

But plot twist.

Darem spotted the Hot Klingon and made a beeline straight for him, flirting in the most Klingon way imaginable.

But Jay Den did his research and he knows that that’s not how humans flirt (yes Darem is not human but he looks human-y) and he interprets it the way he does - that Darem is an asshole and a bully to be avoided.

Meanwhile, Kyle uses the most basic vanilla pick up lines and flirting 101 and it works because this is how humans flirt. Jay Den picks up on it immediately.

And Darem is there on the sidelines doing Live Darem Reactions wondering why his clear signals don’t work. He’s aggressive. He’s macho. He’s posturing. Ok, he also did that breathing exercises thing with Jay Den which normally, whoa boy, such a good move, any other person and he’d score there and then, but obviously not working on the Klingon, but anyone else, heh! He starts to wonder maybe he should read poetry? There’s something about that in the book he read. Or he could start picking fights with Jay Den harder. And Kyle too, just in case.