Graduation only exams left to go and then I will have finished these 9 months in ACG #graduation #acg #newzealand #foundationcourse (at Crowne Plaza Auckland)
What is your relationship with food like? Write a letter as if it were a person.
Dear Food,
god this is awkward. I like you. A lot. I like preparing, growing, harvesting and obviously eating you. Our relationship is usually very healthy and happy BUT sometimes we fall into bad patterns where I only eat sugar, fat and other junk food. When ever I prefer not drinking, soft drinks and alcohol to water and tea. I know it is because I am stressed and cannot cope anymore and that I have to work on that but it still sucks. Also I cannot stop myself, whenever the opportunity presents itself I buy sweets. I would love if we could have a healthy, balanced relationship where I can experience every facet of you. I will have to work on that.
Andie
Diary
Today my motivation to get up was so small I decided not to go to the chemistry extra class and just go to school for physics and biology. I spent my free period working on my GT essay. I was sitting on the floor to the amusement of my teachers. Today I read through my school report... I mean it sounds good but to be honest I think it is cringe worthy and embarrassing and I do think my teachers just started making up ironic shit...
I then waited to practice the piece but he did not show up again. I give up. I will tell the organiser they can just give up on us. At least they will not have to cut anyone who has been preparing properly. I did some laundry today oddly enough that makes me proud... even though I only did because I desperately needed to do it. Oh, and I cooked lunch for tomorrow.
Diet
cappuccino bought
rice and mushrooms
custard with rhubarb
Exercises
3x8 wraps of single leg squat/pulsing plié squat/one-legged revers plank bridge/superman lift/donkey kick
6 cat & cow/Pilates roll up, 2 locust, ALAYC second wall sit an
35 crunches
30 second plank
6 push ups
20 side knee crunch/Russian twist, 20 high knee run
What do I want out of my life? How do I make sure I get it?
I want to be happy.. that means being able to look in the mirror in the morning and feeling content,spotting my reflection and not seeing everything which I think is wrong and actually recognising myself. I means being able to leave the house whenever I feel like it and being able to cope. Having friends and family who understand me and see me for who I am. Not constantly having backache. Having clear skin. Being able to relax without feeling guilty. Going to the movies/concerts/plays whenever I want because I have the time and the money. Occasionally eating junk food without making myself feel bad. Being confident enough to tan in public. Stop feeling less talented than my sisters and friends.
lose weight and sort out diet
discover myself; change style, hair,
sort out time management, procrastinate less
sort out my posture
spend more time with friends and family
control finances
find and recognise things I’m good at
Diary
Today I struggled to get up, I’m not sure why I had slept enough but I just didn’t want to go school. The 10 hour time difference is getting really annoying I just want to hold a conversation at a time where neither of the participants is either falling asleep or has just woken up or is busy. I had chemistry and physics. Today one of our teachers told me that every time he sees me I’m watching something on my phone... I’m sorry... I do believe that relaxing in my half hour lunch break is as important as eating!!! We tried practising our piece again today but he didn’t show up I’m only slightly annoyed... anyway I had time to work on the GT essay and then go and eat some pasta from a take out truck with her ( : After that I went home and continued working, worked out and chatted with my roommate.
Nothing to report as I only started this evening so I didn’t set myself any goals. I did do all my homework even physics.
Emotional eating journal
My biggest barrier to weight loss is
finding the motivation and keeping going
and here is why:
I go through phases where I fancy a work out because of some stored up energy or because I feel particularly gross the problem is I then plan a massive project like I did today and the next day I don’t feel like it anymore and then I do not do it and forget all about it. Back home it was easier because I trained in a team and had trainers I admire and respect and would have tot ell them exactly why I was not coming to training. Here I just cheat myself. Procrastination is one of my biggest challenges in every aspect of my life, even at home I avoided going to training especially when it was the team where the collective motivation was very small to begin with. I like working out and cannot understand why I cannot motivate myself to do it on a regular basis. I just remembered something and would like to change the biggest challenge to my sugar consumption. It is unhealthy and dangerous but I have trained myself and have already done so to use it as a coping mechanism for when ever I feel stressed, down, sad, angry, etc.
Diary
Today I had all my four subjects: biology, statistics, chemistry and physics. After school I wanted to go and practise the piece for the graduation but the music room was blocked so we sat down in the common room until six doing a little work but mostly talking, messing around and comparing languages. After we said goodbye to him we then went to enjoy a male together.
Diet
Also nothing to say as I din’t write it down. I will start tomorrow. Promise.
Exercise
3x8 wraps of single leg squat/pulsing plié squat/one-legged revers plank bridge/superman lift/donkey kick
4 cat&cow/Pilates roll up, 1 locust, 1-5 second wall sit
25 crunches
20 second plank
5 push ups
15 side knee crunch/Russian twist, 20 high knee run
So I have decided to challenge myself once again, but by making a big deal out of it I hope to force myself to do it... but as usual I have probably decided to take on too much at once I hope to follow it through for the next 30 days.
What I’m trying to do is the following:
school:
As my exams start pretty soon after this challenge finishes I will be recording my learning process, and if I reached the goals I have set for specific dates.
mental health:
emotional eating journal challenge
diary:
to keep up on what is going on in my life
diet:
I will not be counting calories, but recording what I eat and drink, when I ate out and when I ate a home cooked meal.
cruising around auckland harbour with these lovelies on the second last day I'll miss them when they go home😢😢💕💞💕💞💕💞 #boat #harbour #tour #family❤️ #familytimeisthebesttime #familygoals #familyfun #sisters #auckland #newzealand (at Auckland Harbour)
'Oh you can search far and wide, You xan drink the whole town dry, But you'll never find a beer so brown, Oh you'll never find a beer so brown, As the one we drink in our hometown, As the one we drink in our hometown. You can drink your fancy ales, You can drink them by the flagon, But the only brew for the brave and true... ...Comes from the Green Dragon!!' (at Hobbiton, New Zealand, Lord of the Rings Film Set.)
But Sam turned to Bywater, and so came back up the Hill, as day was ending once more. And he went on, and there was yellow light, and a fire within; and an evening meal was ready, and he was expected. And Rose drew him in, and set him in his chair, and put little Elenor upon his lap. He drew a deep breath. "Well, I'm back," he said. - J.R.R. Tolkien (at The Shire, Hobbiton, Middle Earth.)
In a hole in the ground there lived a hobbit. Not a nasty, dirty, wet hole filled with the ends of worms and an oozy smell nor yet a dry, bare, sandy hole with nothing in it to sit down or to eat: it was a hobbit-hole, and that means comfort. - J.R.R. Tolkien (at The Shire, Hobbiton, Middle Earth.)
And when he asked what it was that he could give her that she'd never had, her answer was so simple. "Consistency" she said. "If you want to give me something that no man has ever given to me, then don't give me mixed signals nor mixed emotions that leave me wondering; I'm tired of wandering. If you're goin to be here with me then be here, if you ever feel the need to leave, then stay gone. All I need at this point from someone is consistency." - Cici B.
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