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Winter Snow: Open
The holidays had passed and it seemed like time was running faster than it had ever been before. Maybe it was because of his unborn child’s birthdate coming closer and closer with each passing day. Maybe it was because now he seemed to be of samber mind things were just going smoother than they had before. Or maybe this was just all in his head? Tiziano sighed as he tapped his fingers against the warm glass of his coffee cup as he stood inside staring out of a coffee shop he managed to find himself at. It was cold and he had to have something to warm himself up before he continued his path towards his father’s. He felt happy, but at the same time, terrified. So many things in his life were going to change and he didn’t have much control over them. They were good changes. Of course. But still he couldn’t shake this feeling of dread.
Pressing the cup too his lips he took a long drink before letting off a sigh of content. Feeling someone walk up towards him, he looked towards the side for a moment before his gaze fell towards the frosted window in front of him. “The snow is beautiful this time of year, isn’t it?” He said slowly, before taking a drink yet again of his coffee.
i love seeing what you do with not only tiziano, but all of the other characters you've played too. your writing is really fun to read and it seems like you're always coming up with original plots and such, and i applaud you for that bc i'm bad at coming up with anything. it's almost thanksgiving in america, so i just wanted to take time out of my day to remind you that i think you are a wonderful person and you deserve to have a wonderful week and i am thankful for you. <3
Awww, why thank you! That means a lot. I feel bad for not being here as often but college and work are taking most of my time anymore. Being thankful for me? Dawwhhh that is so adorable. It makes me smile. Thank you!
It’s November
“Don’t even get me started. These people must be festive, I can’t even count the amount of Christmas lights I saw on the houses I passed yesterday. As for me, I don’t even have a bowl of peppermint candies sitting on my kitchen table. I’m obviously a little behind. Everyone I know might end up getting bookmarks. Bookmarks are good gifts, right? They’re thoughtful. Sort of.”
“Bookmarks? I guess so...but what if the person doesn’t read that much? What are they going to use the bookmarks for? People have be suggesting socks to me.”
It’s November
You mean you don’t do your christmas shopping in July? Weird.
“No, I don’t. Um...should I? Whoops.”
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It’s November
Oh, no, it’s that time again? At least you can be assured that you aren’t the only one horribly unprepared. I would give you some present buying advice, but I would need to think of some clever, fool-proof method soon. People always need socks, right?
“There is going to be a ton of us fighting for the last pair of socks in the department store. I’m glad to know that I’m not the only one. Christmas shopping is a huge chore but I do like the reactions when people get gifts.”
It’s November
“Go with whatever their first initial is. Something that shares the same first letter. Like… Sam, you could go with socks. Ellen, you could go with… an elephant. Of course. Because who doesn’t want socks or an elephant?”
“You know if someone gave me a pair of socks I would’nt be disappointed. I always needs socks. I always lose my socks. Half the time they don’t even match, it’s painful actually. An elephant? Hm, the idea is a good one I do have to say that.”
It’s November
It’s too fucking early for Christmas. People need to calm down. But if you’re asking, I’d like some fuzzy Star Wars slippers, The Mummy Blu-Ray collection, chocolate and The Rock’s phone number.
“Alright, the rest of that I could get, but I don’t think The Rock’s number is something. I don’t even know the guy. He’d probably laugh if I even asked for it like, ‘lol who are you?’”
It’s November
“Give everyone a giftcard–it’s easy and cheaper.”
“That’s kinda impersonal don’t you think? I might be able to do that for the people I work for but I don’t think my family, my wife, or my friends would enjoy a gift card. “
It’s November
“With all the Christmas stuff out, I just realized how unprepared I am for this Christmas. What am I going to give to everyone? I have, literally, no ideas. So, I might just ask people for a list of one thing they want and go from there. But, there’s no surprise to that......I’m going to have to get creative.”
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“Well, that’s good. I’m glad to hear that.” She nodded. “I can imagine it would be hard to cope to not only a new place, but a place so different than what they are used to, with a different language being spoken all around them. I’m not sure I could do it. But perhaps I’m just too old.” Placing her cup down again, she smiled, “I’m sure it’s better for them to be nearby. For you and for them. They’re right there if they need anything. And it would be easier to adjust, I imagine, since they have you around to help them out. And Chloe being someone that they know, at least.” Glancing at the younger blonde beside of her, she smiled, barely catching his words, but they were loud enough she heard them. “I am too.” After a second, she added, “I’m not sure I could have raised five boys. I think four was the limit for me.” Not that she loved them any less than her daughter. All of her children were her world. And growing up, Chloe hadn’t acted much different from them – she played with the same toys, made just as big messes if not bigger, and she had her moments were she was loud and rambunctious as well, but she had understood her a little more. Whether she was right or not, it seemed like to her, she didn’t need her father around as badly as her sons had, even if they were older when they’d gotten their divorce. She could maybe be enough for her, at least.
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He smiled slightly as she spoke about how they were good and how she understood how hard it had to be for them with the language barrier and being far from their home. And it was hard.It was hard for him. “No, you’re right. It is difficult, but I think they did better than I did myself. They’re stronger than me.” He said, his voice falling at the ending of it, though he recovered smiling once again when she spoke of Chloe being there for them as well, “They both love Chloe.” He knew that for sure. It wasn’t something he was really worried about. Even if his father didn't like her, Flavio liked her enough for the both of them. It had to help that they were close in age. “Boys are a little hard to handle. My mother was only blessed with two, my brother and I. I wasn’t a hard kid to handle and I was well old enough to help her with my brother.” Tiziano wasn’t entirely sure if there would have been three of them if his mother didn’t lose the baby that was before Flavio. All he knew is that it was hard for her and the feeling rubbed off on him. Enough that he wrote a song about the experience and later put it onto an album. When Chloe stuck her tongue out at him, he narrowed his eyes at her, shaking his head lightly.
Tiziano stared at her for a moment before shrugging his shoulders. He didn't tell her but now he was feeling bad about even given the kid his last name. Yes, he and Chloe were married and technically she had his last name,maybe. He wasn’t entirely sure if she even went through with it when he brought it up a while ago. Though as he said, if she didn’t want to, he wasn’t going to make her take his name. It didn’t have to be that way. But now, as he thought about it, it had more of a right to have Chloe’s name than his own. “I guess,we could hyphenate our names so it has them both” He said lightly, not really knowing if any of them heard what he had said before turning his head from them, rubbing his face tiredly. When she replied, he looked back towards her with a small yawn. “We have time, yes.” He said with a gentle nod of his head.Though that time was passing by a lot faster than he liked to hope. He wasn't sure if he was prepared for the time that everything fell onto her shoulders. That she was going to have a child and everything that came along with it.
He had been staring where Chloe walked off until he heard Teri's voice, causing him to stiffen slightly as the words registered to him, causing him to slowly to look towards her once again. As she spoke, he sighed gently,eyes falling towards the floor for a moment before he looked up towards her once again with a small frown. She was apologizing to him for what she had said. That she thought they had been moving too fast, but the truth was, he believed she was right. He only found himself doubting his actions more and more as time progressed and having time to lay in the bedroom or bathroom getting sick over and over allowed him time to think on things. When she spoke about her ex-husband, he remembered Chloe saying something about it in the past. That maybe it was the reason why she was so doubtful when it came to their relationship before. He said that he wasn’t him, that he wouldn’t be him, and that it wasn't fair to compare him to her father. Teri was afraid of the same thing happening to-her daughter. They both had been really hurt, and he had to understand where they were coming from. He didn’t have that. It couldn’t understand that pain.But he did know that he didn’t want to deal that pain to someone else. Looking up from the floor and back towards Teri when she finished speaking. “I don't know if I really deserve and apology.” The apology only made him feel guilt.She must not know about anything that had happened between Chloe and him. The day he ended up in the hospital and what he was dealing with now.
“I don’t think you really owe me an apology.” He replied lightly, scratching at his wrist through his shirt. “I think you were right about the thoughts you had dealing with the two of us. We were at different points in our lives, and I was blind to that at first. I loved Chloe, that’s all I knew, and that I was tired of being alone. I’m not attracted to women, so it wasn’t lust. No, I just loved her that much….I do love her that much.” He let off a deep sigh as he continued, if she was going to be honest with him, he needed to be honest with her. “But I made changes, I decided I would wait until she was ready to pursue those things that I currently wanted.But because of mistakes, things didn’t play off as well as I would have hoped.I didn’t want us to get married the way we did. If she didn’t want to be married ever, then I would be content with that. If she did, then I would have liked to give her what she wanted.” He would never feel good about that until it was fixed. He would give her a real wedding whenever she wanted one. “As for the child,I thought---I thought we had done everything right. But I guess not. I want a child, yes, but I don’t know if Chloe really is or not and I feel bad about it.”He looked down towards the ground once again before shaking is head, “I was upset with what I thought you said about me, but you have the right to feel as you wish. I don’t think you stepped over any boundaries.” He should be able to understand more than he had about why she felt the way she did. She was her mother. Of course she wasn’t going to like him completely in fear of her daughter making the same mistake as she had. "I'm not a perfect man, and I've done wrong and made many mistakes. But for now on, I'm going to do what is right. My life is going to change once the baby is born. If I can't be the best husband, son, or friend. I will be the best father I can possibly be."
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“It’s not,” Teri admitted. “But it’s better than nothing. I can live with that, that’s all I’m saying.” She was being nice, so nice that Chloe wondered if she was making extra effort, if she assumed Tiziano thought that she didn’t like him and she was trying her best to prove to them both that that wasn’t the case, without outwardly saying so. “How is your family?” She asked then, realizing she hadn’t heard anything about them in awhile. The last time she had seen them had been months, and Chloe had barely mentioned them over the phone that she couldn’t remember, though in fairness, she hadn’t asked. “How are your father and brother doing? Are they still staying close by?” When he said that nothing could change that, she nodded once, taking a sip of her coffee. It was easy to tell that he genuinely meant it. “Thank you. I appreciate that.”
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When she asked about his father and brother, Tiziano smiled slightly, “They’redoing fine. Going on with their lives, doing different things. It took them abit to get used to living here, being the language barrier and all, but they seemto be catching on quickly. Probably far more quickly than I had when I firstlived in England. But yes, they’re living close by. About fifteen minutes away.”He couldn’t even being to explain how much better he felt now that they were closerby. Driving distance at least. It allowed him to bring a little bit of homeover with him and he felt more at ease. Though he soon felt a little guilty ashe realized that Chloe didn’t have that option. But then again, she had movedto get some space from them, not that she didn’t want them around. Hersituation was a little more complicated than his, and he couldn’t understand itunless she understood it herself.
“Well I’m happy that fate had allowed that.” He replied quietly, andmore to himself than to her. He wonder what place he would be in if he hadn’tmet Chloe at all? Probably not any better than he was currently, if not worse.She would probably be in a better place. Maybe it wasn’t the time to think aboutall that at the moment. To him, he had helped with Alice, so having a girlwould be a little easier for them. Plus, he liked women much better than heliked men. Trusted them more as well. It seemed only fitting he would want adaughter, but he probably wouldn’t trust anyone, no matter the gender, aroundher other than her family. When Teri asked Chloe, he looked towards her with acurious expression. It seemed like her mother was provided with the same answershe had provided him with a little while ago. “Si, I think she does too.” Hechimed in after a moment, though it didn’t take him long for his attention to bepulled towards the names.
“I---well, there are some interesting Italian names but I’m not entirelysure if you would like them. They’re different. It’s probably odd enough that itslast name isn’t going to be----normal to your guys either.’ In the end, it feltlike Chloe should have more say than him over those sorts of things. She was puttingall the effort into everything and all he seemed to do was get himself introuble. “A middle name?” It wasn’t something he was used to, but he wasn’t againstit. He knew Chloe had a middle name, though it didn’t seem to be of much use. “Sure,I don’t see why we couldn’t.” When she said she really didn’t want to thinkhard on the name until they knew what they were having, he understood that,because then they could put all their effort on one gender instead of two. “No,I don’t think I could wait unless you wanted to. I’m a little too impatientwhen it comes to this.” When they found out what they were getting, thingswould be a little more solid than they were currently. Not only could they thinkmore about a name, but prepare to get what they needed for its arrival. Itwould be nice to not have to use a genderless pronoun either. “But maybe I canfind an Italian name that has a American sounding nickname, so we would bothwin? Then we can see if we’d want to use it as the middle or the first name.”He sure hoped it was the first name, but again, he didn’t feel that he had muchof the right, his child or not.
When Chloe took out her phone, telling them that her agent was callingand that she had been trying to get a hold of her all day, he frowned, eyesfalling towards the phone. “No, go ahead and get it over with now so you don’thave to worry about it later.” Tiziano said with a small smile, “We’ll try tofind something to talk about.” Though the thought of being alone with Teri wasslightly frightening to him, and he knew that Chloe was worried about that aswell. What would happen if the two of them were alone together? Would this bethe time that Teri would be straightforward with Tiziano because her daughterwasn’t in their presence? As Chloe moved off to take the phone call, heswallowed thickly before turning to look at Teri once again. Maybe it was timefor him to say he was ill and needed to lay down, but no he couldn’t, it wouldbe rude and he didn’t have to add more things to her list that she didn’t likeabout him. Though it wouldn’t be a lie, he really did feel bad. He did want to laydown. The thought of the soft bed and the covers around him was growing moreand more appealing as he slightly day dreamed about it. But reality soon hithim, and he blinked his vision away to look at Teri once again, before shiftinga little uncomfortably in his seat. “So, um, what would you like to talk about?”Allowing her to pick the topic gave her most of the control, but he didn’t wantto be the wrong to ask something wrong. He wasn’t going to be the one to startanything between them.
Small Talk || Chloe & Tiziano
“Oh, no, I was planning on staying in a hotel,” Teri assured him quickly. “I really would feel like I was in your way, then.” Chloe felt like she should object, tell her that it was fine if she’d rather stay with them, the guest bedroom was just sitting there, untouched, but she didn’t want Tiziano to have to worry about it and she knew how her mother was. She was stubborn, and if she felt like she was imposing, she wouldn’t be talked into it. Just as she was sure she wouldn’t let her pay her for the money she’d spend to stay somewhere else or the plane ticket she had purchased to fly out there. And she couldn’t say anything, because she was the same way. She always had been. She’d gotten it from her mother. “I doubt she’s getting bored of you. She’ll spend a few days with me and remember why she moved out to begin with,” the woman joked, but her daughter denied it with a shake of her head. Leaving her mom, or her family in general, had definitely been the hardest part about getting away, even if she had needed to, even if she felt like the distance was still needed. “But I am glad to hear that, I don’t want to force my company on anyone.” After a short pause, she added with a laugh, “I wasn’t sure if either of you would be home, and I didn’t want to call or text and ruin the surprise. I was afraid I’d have to stand outside of the door for two hours.”
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Itwas weird how open she seemed to be with the two of them having a child sounexpectedly, but it was a good feeling. At least it was at least one thing hedidn’t have to worry about any longer. She might not like him, though she seemedto be tolerant of him at the moment, but she’ll love their child and that wasall that mattered. But when she spoke about seeing the child through computer screens,he couldn’t help but cringe at the thought. He wasn’t big when it came tosocial media and stuff like that, though he did use it sometimes. He couldn’t beconsidered one of those people who relied on it every day and checked it justthe same. “That’s not really personal, though, isn’t it?” He said after amoment of silence, “I think we’ll be able to work things out so you get to see itmore times than not. Even if I, or Chloe, have to fly in circles. It would giveyou more time to see Chloe as well. Family I very important to me…” Though whenit came to his family, it seemed like they had drifted apart after his mother’sdeath. That wasn’t his fault, but maybe he should put more effort into keepingin touch, “Oh, good!”
WhenChloe began speaking, he turned to look at her as she spoke, taking in herwords as well. Nodding at the parts he agreed with. They were both on similarterms when it came to the topic, which made things easier for them. “Si.”Tiziano said with a stronger nod of his head at her question. “Nothing canchange that.” He repeated, glancing over towards Teri. When she then spokeabout being worried about Chloe living so far away, he frowned at the statementthough he understood why. For any parent, no matter the age of the child, hadto worry about their wellbeing, and being across an ocean from them had to be farmore terrifying since she couldn’t just be straight there if something happened.It seemed like Tiziano added to those worried dragging her daughter into thesituations he had. No wonder she didn’t like him that well. He was the one whogave her every reason not to.
Whenshe thanked Chloe, he got pulled out of his thoughts, looking back towards Teriwith a curious look, though it fell into one of dunbfoundness when she spokeabout baby names. It would be a lie if he said he never really thought of anywhen he found out that he was really going to be a father. “No, it’s fine.” Hesaid quickly, pulling himself out of his mind once again, waving Teri’scomments off. “You’re not prying or anything, you were just asking normalquestions.” What had he thought of? Wasit a boy or girl? “Well I’m not sure if I have a hunch, personally, but I dowant a girl. Though that doesn’t mean I’ll be upset with having a boy either.Either way, I’m going to be happy. Name wise…well, I don’t think anyone isgoing to be on board with them. They aren’t names you’re used to. They’re….well….Italianor similar.” He said with a nervous laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. “It’sprobably best to just let Chloe pick it.” Though he knew how Chloe was withdecisions, in the end they probably were going to have to flip a coin or dosomething similar.
Helooked towards Chloe with a small, curious smile, “So, do you have any namesthat I don’t know about?” He wasn’t entirely sure what Chloe had thought aboutor not. What ran through Chloe’s mind most of the time was a mystery to him,other times, not so much. It was a win lose scenario for him.
