"I was raped, stripped off my dignity and honour, and I was humiliated. It was gang rape by MUSLIMS."
I was raped, stripped off my dignity and honour, and I was humiliated. It was gang rape by MUSLIMS. Nobody could of ever gotten inbetween me and my Lord. My deen was so high. All I was ever focused on was my deen. And how to get to jannah and die a good death bi izn illaah. I spent most of my days and time in the masjid, reading quraan, hadiths, meeting with sisters. I loved it. That was my life. Just for Allaah azzawajal. However, one of these nights.. I was leaving the masjid it was Winter of course it gets dark really early. I left the masjid round 8pm. Not for once did I think anybody would harm me because I was so i to worshipping Allaah I didnt think He'd allow anything bad to happen me cause He is protecting me. I was walking on main road, there's always cars driving up and down. That night there wasnt much cars driving.. Anyway, I'm walking minding my own business. A black car with blue flashing lights pulls over.. For me. 2 Asian Pakistani guys, they tell me to get in the car. I said no. I kept refusing, until the guy in the passanger seat got out, put his hands on my mouth and dragged me into the car. As they drove off, I was fighting in the back. Doors are locked. Windows tinted. Music was so loud, that nobody could hear me. Baring in mind, I was wearing the full Islamic attire. The jilbaab and niqaab and gloves, there was nothing about me that could attract anybody. First thing I say to the guys after I had calmed down from screaming as I knew it wouldnt help but make situation worse. I told them that they could return me to my family and my family would give them any amount they would ask for. They laughed at me.. They parked up near a park. Turns engine off, they both look at me as I have tears flowing down my face, I looked terrified, I was terrified. They looked so evil. So horrible. I could see the devil in their eyes. They started touching me, I told them to fear Allaah and that Allaah is watching. They laughed and told me to forget Allaah for now. They'll repent later. They kept touching me, I'm screaming and fighting them off but regardless of how much I tried.. I just couldnt. It was one weak girl against two big guys. I couldnt. I felt helpless. I called out to Allaah so many times, nothing happened. Now, this guy... Is just on top of me. He raped me. He killed me. He destroyed me. He humiliated me. He finishes, then he hugs me and says everything is gonna be okay.. After that. I gave up fighting. I had no energy. My voice was gone. Nothing left of me. Now the second guy does what he does, then they both get back into their seats and drive .. I was in the back.. Jilbab pulled up, niqaab still on my head but not covering my face. Gloves were off.. And my underwear. I was just dead. I couldnt move, or say a word while these two pigs were infront laughing the whole way. Then they dashed me on road. I rememer it was a Saturday night, many people were out drinking, when they dashed me on road.. Blood was on me, I was crying, just laying on the floor.. I got up to run towards cars to just die.. I thought I might aswell die. How can I tell my family this.. How can I face the world on my own? As much as I tried, I couldnt. I went home, I got upstairs get in the bath and lay there till early morning. Family didnt notice anything. I never wanted to get out the bath, I felt filthy and dirty. I felt their hands still on my body. That was the end of my faith.. I became a whole different girl from that day. I turned to alcohol. To drugs, to love here and there. I became numb to everything around me. I couldnt cope. Till now, I am still trying to breathe.. Trying to forget, trying to heal.. But its almost impossible. My imaan is gone. I need rescuing. These so called Muslims messed my life.. No I havent reported it cause I havent even told my family yet. I'm so afraid. This took place in 2014. I'm so hurt and scarred for life.. Who will really marry me and love me.. Who will marry me and deal with my backflashes and my crazy depression episodes.. Who will just love me despite all these scars on my heart. Just help me.. Please. I am a Muslim, I believe in laa illaaha ill Allah Muhammadurassul Allaah. But I dont practise I'm lost. Help. End quote. I don't usually comment on stories but wallahi brothers and sisters, this sister's email hurt me. I'm destroyed by just reading it and I know must of you will be too hence why I'm commenting on it. Please know that the sister does not know the identity of these men and I am encouraging her to speak to her family and getting her in touch with people near her who can help her more. Please help with ad3iya. -UkhtiKumFiDeen













