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Hi. I'm Vortex and this blog is fully vent account for my unstoppable ramblings and suffering. they/it ! but tbh I use any

mostly use tags like "PTSD safe" and "depression safe" but u can associate my posts with any other disorders because I have not had any confirmed diagnoses

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sometimes , when the pain is unbearable , I just want to grab a hammer and crush my skull. That's the way I'll finally end my suffering

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Not everything in my life about traumas and apathy,but my personality is so broken and no one is interested in me w/o "deep lore". gosh. Am I that awful I can be appreciated only if I have traumatic events?

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I dunno what I'm afraid of but I'm afraid.

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Age regression as coping mechanism is helpful, actually. Thank tumblr users for normalizing this. I live in an environment where age regression is synonymous with "Down syndrome".

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I told you about my trigger A THOUSANDS TIMES but you still doing it. Why can't I just fully dissociate from the world? I'm afraid.

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Demonize myself is much more easier than explain everything I've done. It brings me so much pain but I don't see any other option

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your stubbornness really pisses me off. Will you ever admit your guilt?

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It's still continuing.

I can't take it anymore. Please stop.

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I don't have enough powers for anxiety but I'm still feel it. It's killing me