12/2024

⭐️minors dni!!⭐️ 23y ht: 5'3” | hw: 230lbs | cw: ??? | she/they

[ultrawhitemonsters]

꧁༒☬𝓐𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓶𝓮☬༒꧂

☽ ◦ ❀call me daisy❀ ◦ ☾

(minors pls dni, if you need to talk to someone, pls find a safe adult)

♡ 23 yrs old, she/they

♡ capricorn sun, leo moon, cancer rising

♡ 𝙙𝙞𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙙: bpd, cptsd, and adhd ♡ 𝙨𝙪𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙙𝙞𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙨: bed, pmdd, agoraphobia

♡ i am a junior in college going for my b.a. in psychology with a minor in 2d studies: drawing, painting, and printmaking!

♡ i love all things horror ♡

games, movies, etc! i would love to watch a horror movie with someone or play games together!

♡ i am looking for mutuals who dont mind me disappearing constantly (oops) ♡ come to me with your special interests/hyperfixations! i will listen to you speak about something youre passionate about for hours! ♡ some things that interest me: birds, horror, makeup, chickens, sims, poetry, music, pikmin, my little pony, wendigoon... and lots more but ask me if you want to know if we share interests~

♡♡♡♡my asks are always open, tell me about your day, vent, ask for advice, anything!♡♡♡♡

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this is my safe space, please respect that, if i have posted something triggering to you, please block me

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i support recovery and i want nothing more than for everyone who sees this to seek help and support!

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(for ED help -1-866-662-1235)

(for crisis help - text HELLO to 741741)

there will be no thinspo, meanspo, fatspo… etc on this blog! the only things you will see here are relatable content, my personal vent posts, and things relating to my struggle with mental illnesses or if i feel like it, fandom stuff, but probably not

[ultrawhitemonsters]

HUGE TW THIS IS A VENT POST

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my bf told me he prefers skinny girls again and he has to have them while watching p0rñ because its “his nostalgic preference”

im 230 lbs. he knows what it does to me when he says that.

hes begging me to eat but im not going to. im tired of being trapped in this body with this disorder, fighting to be seen through layers of fat.

he will see me.

he will date the girl hes always wanted me to be

[pissgoon]

sorry i didn’t answer your message im consumed by a grief that never leaves me and everything feels pointless and agonizing, i have nothing funny or uplifting to say and have spent my days sitting in a dark room grappling with a deep seated emptiness i cannot explain or fill, i hope you’re doing well though talk soon

[ultrawhitemonsters]

my bf: *goes to work*

me, longing for his return like he’s away in a distant land fighting in a terrible war:

(after reading nostalgic love poetry on tiktok and sending him all of it)

[buzzyfuzzybee]

To any child scrolling through these tags thinking “god I wish I had an eating disorder”, “I wish I could be anorexic”, etc, I want you to know it’s not worth it.

In these posts you only see the sides of an ED that seem desirable (prominent collar bones, a thigh gap, reasons to keep pushing), but never the parts that would disgust and frighten you (inability to control your bodily functions, gaining and losing the same five pounds for years on end, pushing all of your friends and eventually yourself away).

Sometimes it seems attractive to be that “perfect broken person”. The one people look at and think “woah she’s so small” or “she needs help.” Sometimes you may feel like this is the way to show people that you are hurting. To give yourself worth.

But, sweetie, this isn’t it. It never will be. It’s not what people will tell you it is. Most of us will never be that “perfect broken person.” We’re not mysterious or tragically beautiful, we’re just hollow, wishing that we could go back to how things were before.

Wishing you have an eating disorder can be a sign you already have one. Please, talk to a therapist, a friend, a parent, anyone. Find someone that can tell you that an eating disorder cannot make things better. And listen.

I know that you are here because you are hurting. So, darling, let me tell you. I see you. I’m so sorry that you are going through this. You are so beautiful. You are amazing. You are deserving of life. Of food. Of happiness. Of everything you have tried to tell yourself you aren’t.

I know I can’t fix you. But, you can. You are so strong. You don’t have to let yourself go down this path only to look back years later and wished you’d turned away. Please leave these tags, go find anyone who can help you, and live. Just live. Please.

You deserve it.💗

[toothistired-deactivated2024092]

i have bingerexia but i wish i had starverexia

[hughjasz]

i wish i hated food

i wish i got nauseous just thinking of eating

i wish the sight of food made me want to claw my stomach out

i hate constantly fighting myself

[glownshow]

my mom

pros: pays for things and lets me live in w her for free (yay!!!)

cons: gave me an eating disorder (not cool)

[xyzvuu0]

my ed has made my mind cruel i don’t mean the things i think

[butterflykickz]

[ultrawhitemonsters]

i hate that i have to be big while having an ed

no one ever knows or cares. i need motivation

[stuckinapril]

i’m so brave for enduring it every day (being a girl in my 20s)

[dzdndcnfsd]

My ugw is 0 I don't want a fucking body

[ultrawhitemonsters]

i finally made it to a place where its easier to ⭐️rve than not. ive always struggled so much with binging and i really mean it this time. please let this be the time that i lose this. i wont stop until i see who i want to see in the mirror. please someone keep me in check

[emptygirlll-deactivated20260508]

Posted something on my snap and people won’t stop saying “omg you ate”

No I didn’t you guysssss stop spreading rumors about me 😔

[reallyreallyreallytrying]

has anyone seen my sharp rock? i left it in the river for 100 years for safe keeping and now i can't find it. its many uneven edges have sentimental significance

[thepersonalquotes]

my therapist: you're a good person me: oh no I've tricked you too