What's freedom for the pike is death for the minnow

archie | 17 | mmfd rp

[blytthe]

Loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere. In bars, in cars, sidewalks, stores, everywhere. There’s no escape. I’m God’s lonely man. 

Taxi Driver (1976) dir. Martin Scorsese

[biancajaggers]

The Stone Roses in Paris, 1989.

[finn--nelson]

Two Old Friends ▪ Finn and Archie, Part 1

Finn and Archie had been friends a very long time. Yeah, Finn considered him his best mate. He loved the lad and would do anything for him. The two saw each other down the chippy and Archie wasn’t looking himself. Finn thought it odd, considering everything was sorted now. He suggested going for a chat. Him and Archie weren’t the best at letting people know how they feel but that was something Archie said he wanted to change. Finn wasn’t so sure. He liked being a little closed off, a little secretive, even though this meant he seemed like a right grumpy sod to outsiders. This didn’t matter though, as long as the gang and Rae understood him. They were the only real ones that did and he was thankful for that. Everything that had happened recently, it taught him that everyone had stuff and sometimes they didn’t wanna talk about it. But sometimes that’s actually what you need the most. The chats Finn has had with Rae since everything, they’ve been open and they’ve become closer because of it. It was weird, Finn and Rae seemed to work just as well when they weren’t together. That’s what was so good about their relationship. They were best mates. Like him and Arch. With a slight difference of course.

Finn finished football practice - one of the only things he enjoyed now that he left college and moved out. During that period, it became harder to see everyone and he missed it. Last summer, the summer of ‘96… that was the best time of his life and he wanted to get that back. He didn’t have enough time to head back to his flat to change, Archie was probably already on his way. Archie had a tendency to be stupidly early. Finn packed his kit away and took a quick shower.

Walking past the pitch, he noticed the weather changing. It wasn’t cold anymore, the sun seemed to want to come out and be enjoyed by everyone but there was something holding it back. Finn walked past a young family on the seesaw and headed for the swings. This was his most used spot in the park. It’s where him and Archie had spent so many hours talking over the years. It’s where he and Rae has that chat. It’s where he’d taken himself to be alone and just think.

He plonked down on the left swing, pulling out a cigarette and lighter from his denim jacket. He felt like he hadn’t had a proper smoke in ages, something he desperately needed. He pulled a drag and watch the smoke float away. Once it disappeared, there came walking Archie.

[unclearchie]

Archie was struggling, really struggling. It was strange, he didn’t think everything would be all fine and dandy, he didn’t think it would go back to normal. What even was normal? That definitely wasn’t Archie. It’s not like he was alone, everyone had their own shit to deal with. But everyone else seemed to be able to deal with it – or at least they could just hide it. Archie had kept his secret for so long, and at first, the relief he felt was immense. But recently, it was if he was still keeping something from everyone. And it was eating away at him, which was something he didn’t think he’d be able to cope with for much longer.

Finn was someone Archie wanted to confide in, but neither of the two boys could bring themselves to do it. That awful toxic masculinity. But there was this kind of unspoken agreement between the two, which was especially evident after Archie came out, that even if they didn’t say how they felt, they would back each other. Being friends for 12 years meant something, even if they didn’t tell each other that. Finn agreeing to meeting for a chat was music to Archie’s ears, neither were talkers but Archie needed this – otherwise, he felt like he’d explode.

Archie found Finn on the swings, he brushed down the swing before sitting down on it and turned to Finn, giving him a weak smile.

“Cheers for meeting, I…I really appreciate it, Finn.”

[finn--nelson]

Finn could see Archie wasn’t right, no not that he wasn’t right, but it was obvious something was going on. Finn knew what it was like, not saying anything, not letting on, when in reality he was struggling to keep it together. That only happened a few times, one being when he and Rae first split. That was fucking hard. But like everyone else, he dealt with it. Wasn’t easy, but he kept going. That’s just what everyone had to do.

“It’s ‘lright, bud.” He offered Archie a cigarette, even though he knew Archie didn’t smoke, not seriously anyway. As expected, his friend waved it away and started to fiddle with his specs. One of the many things he knew Archie did when he was nervous. For the first time, Finn felt an awkwardness between them. After 12 years of friendship, 12 years of playing football, mucking about down the rec, going down the pub. This feeling, it wasn’t nice. He didn’t know what to do. He wanted Archie to be happy, he was his best mate and only wanted the best for him. He got that things were going to be tough for a while, it wasn’t going to be all smiles and roses. Life wasn’t like that all the time. Everyone had stuff they had to fight to deal with. But Finn didn’t like seeing any of the gang like this, especially Archie. 

“You seen Chopper? He’s being a right melt at the minute, honestly don’t know how to handle ‘im. Kept going on ‘bout how we all need to see each other. Works both ways though, donit.” He offered the boy beside him a reassuring smile and lit his second cigarette of the day. He knew he had to swerve the conversation to the real reason they were meeting. “Arch, I know something’s up, I can always tell ‘ya know.”

[unclearchie]

Archie hadn’t expected Finn to linger too much on filler conversation, wasn’t a great talent of his but he didn’t blame him. He liked that about Finn. There was never any bullshit with him. Archie knew Finn only offered him a cigarette to be polite, he really only smoked to fit in. It was stupid, really. Yeah, Finn looked cool doing it, but Archie could never really pull it off. He’d stick to playing football and reading. There wasn’t going to be anymore fakery from Archie, he knew he couldn’t.

Archie laughed at the thought of Chop. “That’s Chop, for ‘ya. Always thinking up something.”

“Yeah, I know. I’ve been… Just been thinking about everything, ‘ya know? It’s just been a lot. I dunno, I’m being stupid really.” Archie laughed it off, it wasn’t as if anything serious was actually going on. But something did feel right, like there was a sort of disturbance in his life. It wasn’t how people were reacting to him, anyone who was originally bothered by him had kept their distance and everyone else, well, they had been brilliant. Better than he had ever thought they could be. College was much easier now; the gang was back together, and he could actually enjoy himself. Durham was in his sights. He didn’t like to brag, but it was likely he’d get in. His parents would be proud. He’d have the time of his life. But none of that seemed to matter, not in the last few days. Talking to Chop hadn’t helped, it distracted him for a few hours sure, but walking home he had time to think and he didn’t fancy that. He knew he’d had to stand up to his thoughts and feelings at some point.

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop

Archie hadn’t been feeling himself lately. He didn’t know what the was wrong, really. Everything was fine at college - he was getting straight A’s as usual, the gang was all back together and he’d finally come out to everyone. But there was something nagging at the back of his mind. It was like he still he had his little secret. It was like there was something he didn’t want everyone to find out. 

Bumping into Chop was perfect. It gave him a distraction. And Chop’s solution to anyone feeling slightly down was to drink. And today, Archie didn’t care about how bad it was door you or how he was slowly loosing money. Especially after quitting his job at the leisure centre (which was mainly to do with this random stress and panic attacks Archie was experiencing. 

Archie left his house at quarter to, he fancied a walk - maybe it would help him calm down a little and collect his thoughts. He knew he couldn’t be acting like this in front of Chop. Archie loved Chop, but it wasn’t like it was with Finn. Him and Finn had been friends since primary. It was like they had a special bond, something that no one else could touch. Chop on the other hand crashed into their lives during secondary. He’d always been this chilled out, cool, easy-going lad who loved to party. That was what made him so great, you could just forget all of your worries and have a laugh with him. You never had to be serious. But he’d always be there for you if you did. 

As Archie approached the Black Swan, he noticed some of the lads from college - not particularly friendly ones either. He noticed that after coming-out, people did act different towards him. Some of it was actually really positive, people seemed to think he was brave and that it was cool he could be himself. It gave others another chance to take the piss. But Archie wasn’t in the mood for that right now. Once the lads standing outside the pub doors noticed him, they starting to smile but Archie just pushed passed them. The first thing he saw was Chop’s brilliant, goofy smile, so he headed over.

[captainfckingtentshop]

Chop had been living the high-life. Unlike the rest of the gang, he didn’t go to college meaning he could be living it up. That was only when he was off work, mind. But that didn’t seem to bother him, he was always up for a laugh and a pint. Recently they’d been so much shit and drama with everyone (which made him glad he left college at the start), that he just wanted things to go back to normal. like they were during the summer last year. When he bumped into Archie, looking pretty down in the dumps actually, he knew it was a great time to grab a beer with his mate.

Chop had a lot of mates. He was what you’d call a people pleaser. Those dickhead lads from college, the ones giving Archie a hard time, well, Chop didn’t wanna muck it all up. He had a pretty good set up, but he knew what they were saying and doing was wrong. Archie was one of his best mates and he should never had let it got so far. He’d been a right tosser to be frank. This drink would be perfect to make sure everything was alright between the two. He was sure it would be, I mean Chop doesn’t go around kissing all of his mates. 

Chop walked towards the pub, taking in the sunshine. His tan was slowly coming back and he couldn’t wait for the summer. The summer with the gang was always lit. Heading out to the pubs, house parties, more sexy parties - the lot! He walked through the doors, greeted the lad behind the bar with his cheeky smile and got two pints in. He found the usual spot the gang located and sat down. He kept checking his watch and straightening out his tracksuit bottoms, like he was trying to impress someone. Archie may seem like a bit of a toff, but Chop didn’t get why he was acting so nervous. 

Chop couldn’t be more relieved when Archie walked through the door, even if he was looking rather flustered. He smiled and signalled him over, pointing out he’d got the first round it.

“‘ere he is!” Chop patted Archie on the back as his friend slipped into his seat. “I’ve missed you lad”, he pointed his finger towards Archie and smiled. He just wanted everything to be normal and the best way to do that was to put on his cheeky, chappy front. “It feels like I haven’t seen you properly, in ages! What ‘ya been up ta?”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop p.2

Archie chuckled at how happy Chop was. That was one of the great things about Chop; he always seem so happy and if he wasn’t he’d find a way to make that so. Archie wouldn’t say he was a sad person, but after everything that happened he was finding it hard to be happy all the time. Maybe he was just stressed. This was his last summer in Stanford before he left for uni. It was a scary thought. Or maybe he’d just become overwhelmed with the past few weeks and it had finally toppled him. Whatever the case, a pint with Chop would always do you good.

“Alright? Yeah I know mate, I think everyone’s just needed a bit of space, you know.” Archie paused, mulling over what to say next. What to say without ‘annoying’ Chop. “A lots happened.” He glanced down at his glass, took a quick swig of the drink and looked Chop straight in the eyes. He could see his friend looking down, at his half-empty glass, as if he wanted to say something but was too embarrassed.

“But I think everything is gonna be alright now, right? Just need the gang to be back together and it’ll be cool. It’ll be great, yeah?” Archie was trying to reassure himself as much as he was Chop. Everything was gonna be alright.

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Nah, that’s fair! We all need that sometimes. ‘ya what I need space from? Those fucking cars and the lads at the garage - much of right twats. I tell ya it’s doing my fucking head in right now.” Chop brushed his hand on the back of his head. Like so many young boys, he did this when he was nervous which wasn’t often. But recently, Chop was getting nervous around his mates more often than not, which scared him a little. “You lot are full of fucking drama I tell ya. But whatever. All water under the bridge, right?”

Chop noticed Archie looking at him, he knew exactly what he was thinking but didn’t want to bring everything up again. He thought everything was sweet but maybe that wasn’t the case.

“Come on Arch, what ya worrying for? I know… we need something big for all for us to do, ya know. Just us 6 mind.” He furrowed his brows, trying to think of a good idea. “I know I plead to no more sexy parties, even though I host the best ones in Lincolnshire”, he winked at his friend, trying to build a more comfortable atmosphere between them, “but, you cannot deny meh to host one last one. Just the gang, eh? ‘ows that sound bud?”

[unclearchie]

Archie raised his eyebrows at Chop’s remark about the garage. He always thought Chop loved his job. Archie could never do it, but he’d always thought each to their own. Chop always seemed happy with his lot.

“Nah, everything’s fine. Think when we don’t see everyone, it gets me worried. But yeah.” He gave his friend a reassuring smile, to signal everything was good between them. Then Chop mentioned parties. And not just a normal party but the legendary sexy parties. Archie couldn’t help but laugh at his friend.

“Sexy party?” He question him and chugged back his drink. “You know Chopper, that’s the best idea you’ve had in ages. Gotta make it a good'un though.”

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Yes, lad! That’s the spirit. This is gonna be the sexy party of all parties. The ultimate! I promise ya!” Chop couldn’t hide his excitement, he banged his first on the table, scaring a few of the regulars. He laid back into the booth, giving his friend one of his legendary goofy smiles. He knew this was how the gang would get back on track. Yeah, everyone had their own stuff going on but that didn’t mean they couldn’t find time for each other. It didn’t mean that they couldn’t work and help each other out in their time in need.

“We’ll ‘ave it at mine! It’s a bit shabby, but ya know it’ll be great! Ya know, I’m pretty good at these ideas.” He winked at Archie and finished his drink. “I’ll get another pint, but you can get the next, ‘lright?” He laughed at himself as he walked up to the bar.

[unclearchie]

“Imma hold you to that Chop!” Archie smirked at himself and watched his friend walk towards the bar. Not surprisingly, Archie’s mood had improved considerably since meeting with Chop. He knew this party wasn’t gonna solve everything, which Chop would be sad to hear, but it would be a start. And Archie was actually looking forward to it. Chop was right. This was gonna bring everyone back together. Maybe they’d all get drunk and forget their worries. Maybe they’d get really deep and actually talk about everything that had happen. Whatever the case turned out to be, Archie was gonna enjoy himself and not think too much. Something he was prone to do. 

He glanced up to see Chop walking towards him, with two more pints. His friend passed him and they both cheers each other. Chop seemed to be glad that Archie was in a better mood, thinking it was down to him. Which it could be said, it was. 

“So, what have you got planned for this party then?”

[captainfckingtentshop]

Archie was actually showing a real interest in Chop’s plans, which excited Chop. The two boys were very different and their friendship didn’t seem the most likely. When they all met, it was Finn who seemed like a buffer. He was almost a mix of the two. But since then, Chop and Archie had grown in themselves but also as friends. 

“Now that is the question Arch! I ain’t saying I dunno the plan yet, but don’t ‘ya worry ‘cos I will! It’ll be a chance for ‘ya to finally get laid, eh?” Chop chuckled nervously, unsure whether the joke was too far. When a small smile crept from Archie’s mouth, like it couldn’t help but escape, he knew it wasn’t a touchy subject. “But, er …I wanted to ask ‘ya summat.” Chop paused, gearing up to ask Archie. He did feel like he was prying, mainly because Archie hadn’t shared a lot about his love-life since coming out, mainly because of the way Chop had reacted which he felt badly for. But they were friends and he wanted to show an interest. It was no different than talking to Finn about Rae, or vice-versa. 

“Did anything ‘appen with you and Barney? ‘ya know, at the last party? Like, looking back on it now, knowing what we know, ‘ya seemed pretty ‘appy and I dunno Barney…you seemed to get on.” Chop bowed his head. He didn’t know how to come out with, not properly and he felt ashamed. Ashamed that he couldn’t just ask his best mate straight out. There was nothing wrong with asking, Archie was sure to be happy that Chop actually cared but somehow Chop just couldn’t. 

[unclearchie]

Getting laid had been on Archie’s mind a lot recently. He’d done some stuff, obviously, with guys and girls, the latter being something not particularly enjoyable. But he’d never gone… the whole way. He’d wanted to, of course he did, but given the fact he hadn’t come out that long ago, he hadn’t really had the chance to freely look for the right guy. 

He’d never really spoken to Chop about his love-life, only before, which was whenever Archie was gone for a few days (busy with studying or work), Chop would ask about who the girl was keeping him so busy. But that was as far as it went. But now, well Chop had every right to ask about guys, it’s just what people did. But up until recently, he could only confine in Rae, so this was all very new. 

“A lot’s happened since then, Chop.” He laughed at his own comment, he couldn’t have been more right. “There’s been…other lads, ya know. But…” He thought to himself for a minute, that night after Barney kissed him during spin-the-bottle, he spent basically all night with him. They just chatted, about basically everything. Barney had hung out with the gang a little before, he was friendlier with Chop and Finn, but that night something just clicked between them and Archie couldn’t help himself get interested. Barney was funny, knew how to tell a good story and not a bad kisser. It was just nice, especially during that time as Archie was so bloody confused about everything concerning his sexuality. But nothing happened, not really. They never kissed again, just spent the night together. But it allowed him to realise that, yes, he did like guys and that was all thanks to Barney. Afterwards, he never really spoke about it to anyone. Him and Barney stayed friends, but nothing ever happened. Archie sometimes wondered what would have happened if it did. Barney was quite a flirtatious person, so he was hard to read and Archie didn’t want to go exposing himself back then. But now, well he was a free agent, but that was months ago and well…

He could see Chop hanging on to his word, so he coughed and allowed Barney to escape his mind. 

“Nah, ha, he’s a good laugh but nothing. Just because you finally realised Izzy was the one during the game, doesn’t mean the rest of us found the love of our life, ya know.” 

[captainfckingtentshop]

As soon as Chop asked, he wished he hadn’t. Not that he didn’t want to know, but he could see Archie thinking about what had happened that night and Chop didn’t want to hash it all back up. It was Archie’s business and yeah, he was his mate, but he didn’t want to make him feel uncomfortable. 

Chop could tell there was something more, he didn’t think Archie was holding anything back but… he could tell Archie liked Barney and maybe…but nah.  

“Right, sorry mate. I didn’t wanna pry, ya know. It’s your business. I just…wondered ‘cos…well you’re me mate and I just want ya to be ‘appy.” Chop forced a weak smile. That was true, he did want Archie to be happy, not just with his sexuality but in general. The whole reason he suggested going to the pub was because Archie was looking pretty down. 

The mention of Izzy made Chop blush a little. He’d been so oblivious to her, but once he got her it was the best thing he could have done. They were good, really good now. The past few weeks had been tough, but they understood each other better now. Yeah, Izzy shouldn’t have kissed that Peter tosser. But Chop should have been a better mate to Archie. They’d both made mistakes, but realised it just in time to save their relationship. 

“Yeah, well I was being a fucking idiot, wasn’t I? It all worked out though, eh? For all of us.” 

[unclearchie]

Archie smiled at Chop’s apparent concern. Happy. Yeah, Archie wanted to be happy; he wanted everyone to be happy, but the problem was finding how to get to that point. He knew it was possible. He hadn’t been completely unhappy, definitely not, but he wouldn’t say he was happy. Happier, yeah. 

The only time Chop ever tended to blush was when he was talking about Izzy, he was so besotted it was ridiculous. Them getting back together was probably a turning point in the gang. They were always so positive and kind, when everything fell apart between them, between Finn and Rae, with Chloe going missing, it was like 

“Well I won’t deny that, mate. Everything’s cool now though.” Archie gave his friend a smile, a proper one this time. 

The two boys spent the rest of their evening reminiscing about the past year, until Archie couldn’t take anymore. 

[fluorescent-mood-lighting]

[finn--nelson]

Two Old Friends ▪ Finn and Archie, Part 1

Finn and Archie had been friends a very long time. Yeah, Finn considered him his best mate. He loved the lad and would do anything for him. The two saw each other down the chippy and Archie wasn’t looking himself. Finn thought it odd, considering everything was sorted now. He suggested going for a chat. Him and Archie weren’t the best at letting people know how they feel but that was something Archie said he wanted to change. Finn wasn’t so sure. He liked being a little closed off, a little secretive, even though this meant he seemed like a right grumpy sod to outsiders. This didn’t matter though, as long as the gang and Rae understood him. They were the only real ones that did and he was thankful for that. Everything that had happened recently, it taught him that everyone had stuff and sometimes they didn’t wanna talk about it. But sometimes that’s actually what you need the most. The chats Finn has had with Rae since everything, they’ve been open and they’ve become closer because of it. It was weird, Finn and Rae seemed to work just as well when they weren’t together. That’s what was so good about their relationship. They were best mates. Like him and Arch. With a slight difference of course.

Finn finished football practice - one of the only things he enjoyed now that he left college and moved out. During that period, it became harder to see everyone and he missed it. Last summer, the summer of ‘96… that was the best time of his life and he wanted to get that back. He didn’t have enough time to head back to his flat to change, Archie was probably already on his way. Archie had a tendency to be stupidly early. Finn packed his kit away and took a quick shower.

Walking past the pitch, he noticed the weather changing. It wasn’t cold anymore, the sun seemed to want to come out and be enjoyed by everyone but there was something holding it back. Finn walked past a young family on the seesaw and headed for the swings. This was his most used spot in the park. It’s where him and Archie had spent so many hours talking over the years. It’s where he and Rae has that chat. It’s where he’d taken himself to be alone and just think.

He plonked down on the left swing, pulling out a cigarette and lighter from his denim jacket. He felt like he hadn’t had a proper smoke in ages, something he desperately needed. He pulled a drag and watch the smoke float away. Once it disappeared, there came walking Archie.

[unclearchie]

Archie was struggling, really struggling. It was strange, he didn’t think everything would be all fine and dandy, he didn’t think it would go back to normal. What even was normal? That definitely wasn’t Archie. It’s not like he was alone, everyone had their own shit to deal with. But everyone else seemed to be able to deal with it – or at least they could just hide it. Archie had kept his secret for so long, and at first, the relief he felt was immense. But recently, it was if he was still keeping something from everyone. And it was eating away at him, which was something he didn’t think he’d be able to cope with for much longer.

Finn was someone Archie wanted to confide in, but neither of the two boys could bring themselves to do it. That awful toxic masculinity. But there was this kind of unspoken agreement between the two, which was especially evident after Archie came out, that even if they didn’t say how they felt, they would back each other. Being friends for 12 years meant something, even if they didn’t tell each other that. Finn agreeing to meeting for a chat was music to Archie’s ears, neither were talkers but Archie needed this – otherwise, he felt like he’d explode.

Archie found Finn on the swings, he brushed down the swing before sitting down on it and turned to Finn, giving him a weak smile.

“Cheers for meeting, I…I really appreciate it, Finn.”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop

Archie hadn’t been feeling himself lately. He didn’t know what the was wrong, really. Everything was fine at college - he was getting straight A’s as usual, the gang was all back together and he’d finally come out to everyone. But there was something nagging at the back of his mind. It was like he still he had his little secret. It was like there was something he didn’t want everyone to find out. 

Bumping into Chop was perfect. It gave him a distraction. And Chop’s solution to anyone feeling slightly down was to drink. And today, Archie didn’t care about how bad it was door you or how he was slowly loosing money. Especially after quitting his job at the leisure centre (which was mainly to do with this random stress and panic attacks Archie was experiencing. 

Archie left his house at quarter to, he fancied a walk - maybe it would help him calm down a little and collect his thoughts. He knew he couldn’t be acting like this in front of Chop. Archie loved Chop, but it wasn’t like it was with Finn. Him and Finn had been friends since primary. It was like they had a special bond, something that no one else could touch. Chop on the other hand crashed into their lives during secondary. He’d always been this chilled out, cool, easy-going lad who loved to party. That was what made him so great, you could just forget all of your worries and have a laugh with him. You never had to be serious. But he’d always be there for you if you did. 

As Archie approached the Black Swan, he noticed some of the lads from college - not particularly friendly ones either. He noticed that after coming-out, people did act different towards him. Some of it was actually really positive, people seemed to think he was brave and that it was cool he could be himself. It gave others another chance to take the piss. But Archie wasn’t in the mood for that right now. Once the lads standing outside the pub doors noticed him, they starting to smile but Archie just pushed passed them. The first thing he saw was Chop’s brilliant, goofy smile, so he headed over.

[captainfckingtentshop]

Chop had been living the high-life. Unlike the rest of the gang, he didn’t go to college meaning he could be living it up. That was only when he was off work, mind. But that didn’t seem to bother him, he was always up for a laugh and a pint. Recently they’d been so much shit and drama with everyone (which made him glad he left college at the start), that he just wanted things to go back to normal. like they were during the summer last year. When he bumped into Archie, looking pretty down in the dumps actually, he knew it was a great time to grab a beer with his mate.

Chop had a lot of mates. He was what you’d call a people pleaser. Those dickhead lads from college, the ones giving Archie a hard time, well, Chop didn’t wanna muck it all up. He had a pretty good set up, but he knew what they were saying and doing was wrong. Archie was one of his best mates and he should never had let it got so far. He’d been a right tosser to be frank. This drink would be perfect to make sure everything was alright between the two. He was sure it would be, I mean Chop doesn’t go around kissing all of his mates. 

Chop walked towards the pub, taking in the sunshine. His tan was slowly coming back and he couldn’t wait for the summer. The summer with the gang was always lit. Heading out to the pubs, house parties, more sexy parties - the lot! He walked through the doors, greeted the lad behind the bar with his cheeky smile and got two pints in. He found the usual spot the gang located and sat down. He kept checking his watch and straightening out his tracksuit bottoms, like he was trying to impress someone. Archie may seem like a bit of a toff, but Chop didn’t get why he was acting so nervous. 

Chop couldn’t be more relieved when Archie walked through the door, even if he was looking rather flustered. He smiled and signalled him over, pointing out he’d got the first round it.

“‘ere he is!” Chop patted Archie on the back as his friend slipped into his seat. “I’ve missed you lad”, he pointed his finger towards Archie and smiled. He just wanted everything to be normal and the best way to do that was to put on his cheeky, chappy front. “It feels like I haven’t seen you properly, in ages! What ‘ya been up ta?”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop p.2

Archie chuckled at how happy Chop was. That was one of the great things about Chop; he always seem so happy and if he wasn’t he’d find a way to make that so. Archie wouldn’t say he was a sad person, but after everything that happened he was finding it hard to be happy all the time. Maybe he was just stressed. This was his last summer in Stanford before he left for uni. It was a scary thought. Or maybe he’d just become overwhelmed with the past few weeks and it had finally toppled him. Whatever the case, a pint with Chop would always do you good.

“Alright? Yeah I know mate, I think everyone’s just needed a bit of space, you know.” Archie paused, mulling over what to say next. What to say without ‘annoying’ Chop. “A lots happened.” He glanced down at his glass, took a quick swig of the drink and looked Chop straight in the eyes. He could see his friend looking down, at his half-empty glass, as if he wanted to say something but was too embarrassed.

“But I think everything is gonna be alright now, right? Just need the gang to be back together and it’ll be cool. It’ll be great, yeah?” Archie was trying to reassure himself as much as he was Chop. Everything was gonna be alright.

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Nah, that’s fair! We all need that sometimes. ‘ya what I need space from? Those fucking cars and the lads at the garage - much of right twats. I tell ya it’s doing my fucking head in right now.” Chop brushed his hand on the back of his head. Like so many young boys, he did this when he was nervous which wasn’t often. But recently, Chop was getting nervous around his mates more often than not, which scared him a little. “You lot are full of fucking drama I tell ya. But whatever. All water under the bridge, right?”

Chop noticed Archie looking at him, he knew exactly what he was thinking but didn’t want to bring everything up again. He thought everything was sweet but maybe that wasn’t the case.

“Come on Arch, what ya worrying for? I know… we need something big for all for us to do, ya know. Just us 6 mind.” He furrowed his brows, trying to think of a good idea. “I know I plead to no more sexy parties, even though I host the best ones in Lincolnshire”, he winked at his friend, trying to build a more comfortable atmosphere between them, “but, you cannot deny meh to host one last one. Just the gang, eh? ‘ows that sound bud?”

[unclearchie]

Archie raised his eyebrows at Chop’s remark about the garage. He always thought Chop loved his job. Archie could never do it, but he’d always thought each to their own. Chop always seemed happy with his lot.

“Nah, everything’s fine. Think when we don’t see everyone, it gets me worried. But yeah.” He gave his friend a reassuring smile, to signal everything was good between them. Then Chop mentioned parties. And not just a normal party but the legendary sexy parties. Archie couldn’t help but laugh at his friend.

“Sexy party?” He question him and chugged back his drink. “You know Chopper, that’s the best idea you’ve had in ages. Gotta make it a good'un though.”

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Yes, lad! That’s the spirit. This is gonna be the sexy party of all parties. The ultimate! I promise ya!” Chop couldn’t hide his excitement, he banged his first on the table, scaring a few of the regulars. He laid back into the booth, giving his friend one of his legendary goofy smiles. He knew this was how the gang would get back on track. Yeah, everyone had their own stuff going on but that didn’t mean they couldn’t find time for each other. It didn’t mean that they couldn’t work and help each other out in their time in need.

“We’ll ‘ave it at mine! It’s a bit shabby, but ya know it’ll be great! Ya know, I’m pretty good at these ideas.” He winked at Archie and finished his drink. “I’ll get another pint, but you can get the next, ‘lright?” He laughed at himself as he walked up to the bar.

[unclearchie]

“Imma hold you to that Chop!” Archie smirked at himself and watched his friend walk towards the bar. Not surprisingly, Archie’s mood had improved considerably since meeting with Chop. He knew this party wasn’t gonna solve everything, which Chop would be sad to hear, but it would be a start. And Archie was actually looking forward to it. Chop was right. This was gonna bring everyone back together. Maybe they’d all get drunk and forget their worries. Maybe they’d get really deep and actually talk about everything that had happen. Whatever the case turned out to be, Archie was gonna enjoy himself and not think too much. Something he was prone to do. 

He glanced up to see Chop walking towards him, with two more pints. His friend passed him and they both cheers each other. Chop seemed to be glad that Archie was in a better mood, thinking it was down to him. Which it could be said, it was. 

“So, what have you got planned for this party then?”

[captainfckingtentshop]

Archie was actually showing a real interest in Chop’s plans, which excited Chop. The two boys were very different and their friendship didn’t seem the most likely. When they all met, it was Finn who seemed like a buffer. He was almost a mix of the two. But since then, Chop and Archie had grown in themselves but also as friends. 

“Now that is the question Arch! I ain’t saying I dunno the plan yet, but don’t ‘ya worry ‘cos I will! It’ll be a chance for ‘ya to finally get laid, eh?” Chop chuckled nervously, unsure whether the joke was too far. When a small smile crept from Archie’s mouth, like it couldn’t help but escape, he knew it wasn’t a touchy subject. “But, er …I wanted to ask ‘ya summat.” Chop paused, gearing up to ask Archie. He did feel like he was prying, mainly because Archie hadn’t shared a lot about his love-life since coming out, mainly because of the way Chop had reacted which he felt badly for. But they were friends and he wanted to show an interest. It was no different than talking to Finn about Rae, or vice-versa. 

“Did anything ‘appen with you and Barney? ‘ya know, at the last party? Like, looking back on it now, knowing what we know, ‘ya seemed pretty ‘appy and I dunno Barney…you seemed to get on.” Chop bowed his head. He didn’t know how to come out with, not properly and he felt ashamed. Ashamed that he couldn’t just ask his best mate straight out. There was nothing wrong with asking, Archie was sure to be happy that Chop actually cared but somehow Chop just couldn’t. 

[unclearchie]

Getting laid had been on Archie’s mind a lot recently. He’d done some stuff, obviously, with guys and girls, the latter being something not particularly enjoyable. But he’d never gone... the whole way. He’d wanted to, of course he did, but given the fact he hadn’t come out that long ago, he hadn’t really had the chance to freely look for the right guy. 

He’d never really spoken to Chop about his love-life, only before, which was whenever Archie was gone for a few days (busy with studying or work), Chop would ask about who the girl was keeping him so busy. But that was as far as it went. But now, well Chop had every right to ask about guys, it’s just what people did. But up until recently, he could only confine in Rae, so this was all very new. 

“A lot’s happened since then, Chop.” He laughed at his own comment, he couldn’t have been more right. “There’s been...other lads, ya know. But...” He thought to himself for a minute, that night after Barney kissed him during spin-the-bottle, he spent basically all night with him. They just chatted, about basically everything. Barney had hung out with the gang a little before, he was friendlier with Chop and Finn, but that night something just clicked between them and Archie couldn’t help himself get interested. Barney was funny, knew how to tell a good story and not a bad kisser. It was just nice, especially during that time as Archie was so bloody confused about everything concerning his sexuality. But nothing happened, not really. They never kissed again, just spent the night together. But it allowed him to realise that, yes, he did like guys and that was all thanks to Barney. Afterwards, he never really spoke about it to anyone. Him and Barney stayed friends, but nothing ever happened. Archie sometimes wondered what would have happened if it did. Barney was quite a flirtatious person, so he was hard to read and Archie didn’t want to go exposing himself back then. But now, well he was a free agent, but that was months ago and well...

He could see Chop hanging on to his word, so he coughed and allowed Barney to escape his mind. 

“Nah, ha, he’s a good laugh but nothing. Just because you finally realised Izzy was the one during the game, doesn’t mean the rest of us found the love of our life, ya know.” 

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop

Archie hadn’t been feeling himself lately. He didn’t know what the was wrong, really. Everything was fine at college - he was getting straight A’s as usual, the gang was all back together and he’d finally come out to everyone. But there was something nagging at the back of his mind. It was like he still he had his little secret. It was like there was something he didn’t want everyone to find out. 

Bumping into Chop was perfect. It gave him a distraction. And Chop’s solution to anyone feeling slightly down was to drink. And today, Archie didn’t care about how bad it was door you or how he was slowly loosing money. Especially after quitting his job at the leisure centre (which was mainly to do with this random stress and panic attacks Archie was experiencing. 

Archie left his house at quarter to, he fancied a walk - maybe it would help him calm down a little and collect his thoughts. He knew he couldn’t be acting like this in front of Chop. Archie loved Chop, but it wasn’t like it was with Finn. Him and Finn had been friends since primary. It was like they had a special bond, something that no one else could touch. Chop on the other hand crashed into their lives during secondary. He’d always been this chilled out, cool, easy-going lad who loved to party. That was what made him so great, you could just forget all of your worries and have a laugh with him. You never had to be serious. But he’d always be there for you if you did. 

As Archie approached the Black Swan, he noticed some of the lads from college - not particularly friendly ones either. He noticed that after coming-out, people did act different towards him. Some of it was actually really positive, people seemed to think he was brave and that it was cool he could be himself. It gave others another chance to take the piss. But Archie wasn’t in the mood for that right now. Once the lads standing outside the pub doors noticed him, they starting to smile but Archie just pushed passed them. The first thing he saw was Chop’s brilliant, goofy smile, so he headed over.

[captainfckingtentshop]

Chop had been living the high-life. Unlike the rest of the gang, he didn’t go to college meaning he could be living it up. That was only when he was off work, mind. But that didn’t seem to bother him, he was always up for a laugh and a pint. Recently they’d been so much shit and drama with everyone (which made him glad he left college at the start), that he just wanted things to go back to normal. like they were during the summer last year. When he bumped into Archie, looking pretty down in the dumps actually, he knew it was a great time to grab a beer with his mate.

Chop had a lot of mates. He was what you’d call a people pleaser. Those dickhead lads from college, the ones giving Archie a hard time, well, Chop didn’t wanna muck it all up. He had a pretty good set up, but he knew what they were saying and doing was wrong. Archie was one of his best mates and he should never had let it got so far. He’d been a right tosser to be frank. This drink would be perfect to make sure everything was alright between the two. He was sure it would be, I mean Chop doesn’t go around kissing all of his mates. 

Chop walked towards the pub, taking in the sunshine. His tan was slowly coming back and he couldn’t wait for the summer. The summer with the gang was always lit. Heading out to the pubs, house parties, more sexy parties - the lot! He walked through the doors, greeted the lad behind the bar with his cheeky smile and got two pints in. He found the usual spot the gang located and sat down. He kept checking his watch and straightening out his tracksuit bottoms, like he was trying to impress someone. Archie may seem like a bit of a toff, but Chop didn’t get why he was acting so nervous. 

Chop couldn’t be more relieved when Archie walked through the door, even if he was looking rather flustered. He smiled and signalled him over, pointing out he’d got the first round it.

“‘ere he is!” Chop patted Archie on the back as his friend slipped into his seat. “I’ve missed you lad”, he pointed his finger towards Archie and smiled. He just wanted everything to be normal and the best way to do that was to put on his cheeky, chappy front. “It feels like I haven’t seen you properly, in ages! What ‘ya been up ta?”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop p.2

Archie chuckled at how happy Chop was. That was one of the great things about Chop; he always seem so happy and if he wasn’t he’d find a way to make that so. Archie wouldn’t say he was a sad person, but after everything that happened he was finding it hard to be happy all the time. Maybe he was just stressed. This was his last summer in Stanford before he left for uni. It was a scary thought. Or maybe he’d just become overwhelmed with the past few weeks and it had finally toppled him. Whatever the case, a pint with Chop would always do you good.

“Alright? Yeah I know mate, I think everyone’s just needed a bit of space, you know.” Archie paused, mulling over what to say next. What to say without ‘annoying’ Chop. “A lots happened.” He glanced down at his glass, took a quick swig of the drink and looked Chop straight in the eyes. He could see his friend looking down, at his half-empty glass, as if he wanted to say something but was too embarrassed.

“But I think everything is gonna be alright now, right? Just need the gang to be back together and it’ll be cool. It’ll be great, yeah?” Archie was trying to reassure himself as much as he was Chop. Everything was gonna be alright.

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Nah, that’s fair! We all need that sometimes. ‘ya what I need space from? Those fucking cars and the lads at the garage - much of right twats. I tell ya it’s doing my fucking head in right now.” Chop brushed his hand on the back of his head. Like so many young boys, he did this when he was nervous which wasn’t often. But recently, Chop was getting nervous around his mates more often than not, which scared him a little. “You lot are full of fucking drama I tell ya. But whatever. All water under the bridge, right?”

Chop noticed Archie looking at him, he knew exactly what he was thinking but didn’t want to bring everything up again. He thought everything was sweet but maybe that wasn’t the case.

“Come on Arch, what ya worrying for? I know… we need something big for all for us to do, ya know. Just us 6 mind.” He furrowed his brows, trying to think of a good idea. “I know I plead to no more sexy parties, even though I host the best ones in Lincolnshire”, he winked at his friend, trying to build a more comfortable atmosphere between them, “but, you cannot deny meh to host one last one. Just the gang, eh? ‘ows that sound bud?”

[unclearchie]

Archie raised his eyebrows at Chop’s remark about the garage. He always thought Chop loved his job. Archie could never do it, but he’d always thought each to their own. Chop always seemed happy with his lot.

“Nah, everything’s fine. Think when we don’t see everyone, it gets me worried. But yeah.” He gave his friend a reassuring smile, to signal everything was good between them. Then Chop mentioned parties. And not just a normal party but the legendary sexy parties. Archie couldn’t help but laugh at his friend.

“Sexy party?” He question him and chugged back his drink. “You know Chopper, that’s the best idea you’ve had in ages. Gotta make it a good'un though.”

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Yes, lad! That’s the spirit. This is gonna be the sexy party of all parties. The ultimate! I promise ya!” Chop couldn’t hide his excitement, he banged his first on the table, scaring a few of the regulars. He laid back into the booth, giving his friend one of his legendary goofy smiles. He knew this was how the gang would get back on track. Yeah, everyone had their own stuff going on but that didn’t mean they couldn’t find time for each other. It didn’t mean that they couldn’t work and help each other out in their time in need.

“We’ll ‘ave it at mine! It’s a bit shabby, but ya know it’ll be great! Ya know, I’m pretty good at these ideas.” He winked at Archie and finished his drink. “I’ll get another pint, but you can get the next, 'lright?” He laughed at himself as he walked up to the bar.

[unclearchie]

“Imma hold you to that Chop!” Archie smirked at himself and watched his friend walk towards the bar. Not surprisingly, Archie’s mood had improved considerably since meeting with Chop. He knew this party wasn’t gonna solve everything, which Chop would be sad to hear, but it would be a start. And Archie was actually looking forward to it. Chop was right. This was gonna bring everyone back together. Maybe they’d all get drunk and forget their worries. Maybe they’d get really deep and actually talk about everything that had happen. Whatever the case turned out to be, Archie was gonna enjoy himself and not think too much. Something he was prone to do. 

He glanced up to see Chop walking towards him, with two more pints. His friend passed him and they both cheers each other. Chop seemed to be glad that Archie was in a better mood, thinking it was down to him. Which it could be said, it was. 

“So, what have you got planned for this party then?”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop

Archie hadn’t been feeling himself lately. He didn’t know what the was wrong, really. Everything was fine at college - he was getting straight A’s as usual, the gang was all back together and he’d finally come out to everyone. But there was something nagging at the back of his mind. It was like he still he had his little secret. It was like there was something he didn’t want everyone to find out. 

Bumping into Chop was perfect. It gave him a distraction. And Chop’s solution to anyone feeling slightly down was to drink. And today, Archie didn’t care about how bad it was door you or how he was slowly loosing money. Especially after quitting his job at the leisure centre (which was mainly to do with this random stress and panic attacks Archie was experiencing. 

Archie left his house at quarter to, he fancied a walk - maybe it would help him calm down a little and collect his thoughts. He knew he couldn’t be acting like this in front of Chop. Archie loved Chop, but it wasn’t like it was with Finn. Him and Finn had been friends since primary. It was like they had a special bond, something that no one else could touch. Chop on the other hand crashed into their lives during secondary. He’d always been this chilled out, cool, easy-going lad who loved to party. That was what made him so great, you could just forget all of your worries and have a laugh with him. You never had to be serious. But he’d always be there for you if you did. 

As Archie approached the Black Swan, he noticed some of the lads from college - not particularly friendly ones either. He noticed that after coming-out, people did act different towards him. Some of it was actually really positive, people seemed to think he was brave and that it was cool he could be himself. It gave others another chance to take the piss. But Archie wasn’t in the mood for that right now. Once the lads standing outside the pub doors noticed him, they starting to smile but Archie just pushed passed them. The first thing he saw was Chop’s brilliant, goofy smile, so he headed over.

[captainfckingtentshop]

Chop had been living the high-life. Unlike the rest of the gang, he didn’t go to college meaning he could be living it up. That was only when he was off work, mind. But that didn’t seem to bother him, he was always up for a laugh and a pint. Recently they’d been so much shit and drama with everyone (which made him glad he left college at the start), that he just wanted things to go back to normal. like they were during the summer last year. When he bumped into Archie, looking pretty down in the dumps actually, he knew it was a great time to grab a beer with his mate.

Chop had a lot of mates. He was what you’d call a people pleaser. Those dickhead lads from college, the ones giving Archie a hard time, well, Chop didn’t wanna muck it all up. He had a pretty good set up, but he knew what they were saying and doing was wrong. Archie was one of his best mates and he should never had let it got so far. He’d been a right tosser to be frank. This drink would be perfect to make sure everything was alright between the two. He was sure it would be, I mean Chop doesn’t go around kissing all of his mates. 

Chop walked towards the pub, taking in the sunshine. His tan was slowly coming back and he couldn’t wait for the summer. The summer with the gang was always lit. Heading out to the pubs, house parties, more sexy parties - the lot! He walked through the doors, greeted the lad behind the bar with his cheeky smile and got two pints in. He found the usual spot the gang located and sat down. He kept checking his watch and straightening out his tracksuit bottoms, like he was trying to impress someone. Archie may seem like a bit of a toff, but Chop didn’t get why he was acting so nervous. 

Chop couldn’t be more relieved when Archie walked through the door, even if he was looking rather flustered. He smiled and signalled him over, pointing out he’d got the first round it.

“‘ere he is!” Chop patted Archie on the back as his friend slipped into his seat. “I’ve missed you lad”, he pointed his finger towards Archie and smiled. He just wanted everything to be normal and the best way to do that was to put on his cheeky, chappy front. “It feels like I haven’t seen you properly, in ages! What ‘ya been up ta?”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop p.2

Archie chuckled at how happy Chop was. That was one of the great things about Chop; he always seem so happy and if he wasn’t he’d find a way to make that so. Archie wouldn’t say he was a sad person, but after everything that happened he was finding it hard to be happy all the time. Maybe he was just stressed. This was his last summer in Stanford before he left for uni. It was a scary thought. Or maybe he’d just become overwhelmed with the past few weeks and it had finally toppled him. Whatever the case, a pint with Chop would always do you good.

“Alright? Yeah I know mate, I think everyone’s just needed a bit of space, you know.” Archie paused, mulling over what to say next. What to say without ‘annoying’ Chop. “A lots happened.” He glanced down at his glass, took a quick swig of the drink and looked Chop straight in the eyes. He could see his friend looking down, at his half-empty glass, as if he wanted to say something but was too embarrassed.

“But I think everything is gonna be alright now, right? Just need the gang to be back together and it’ll be cool. It’ll be great, yeah?” Archie was trying to reassure himself as much as he was Chop. Everything was gonna be alright.

[captainfckingtentshop]

“Nah, that’s fair! We all need that sometimes. ‘ya what I need space from? Those fucking cars and the lads at the garage - much of right twats. I tell ya it’s doing my fucking head in right now.” Chop brushed his hand on the back of his head. Like so many young boys, he did this when he was nervous which wasn’t often. But recently, Chop was getting nervous around his mates more often than not, which scared him a little. “You lot are full of fucking drama I tell ya. But whatever. All water under the bridge, right?”

Chop noticed Archie looking at him, he knew exactly what he was thinking but didn’t want to bring everything up again. He thought everything was sweet but maybe that wasn’t the case.

“Come on Arch, what ya worrying for? I know… we need something big for all for us to do, ya know. Just us 6 mind.” He furrowed his brows, trying to think of a good idea. “I know I plead to no more sexy parties, even though I host the best ones in Lincolnshire”, he winked at his friend, trying to build a more comfortable atmosphere between them, “but, you cannot deny meh to host one last one. Just the gang, eh? 'ows that sound bud?”

[unclearchie]

Archie raised his eyebrows at Chop's remark about the garage. He always thought Chop loved his job. Archie could never do it, but he'd always thought each to their own. Chop always seemed happy with his lot.

"Nah, everything's fine. Think when we don't see everyone, it gets me worried. But yeah." He gave his friend a reassuring smile, to signal everything was good between them. Then Chop mentioned parties. And not just a normal party but the legendary sexy parties. Archie couldn't help but laugh at his friend.

"Sexy party?" He question him and chugged back his drink. "You know Chopper, that's the best idea you've had in ages. Gotta make it a good'un though."

[makeshiftginge]

[smiling-blue-eyes]

[x]

[unclearchie]

what do you want to do as a career?

Good question! I’m still tryna figure that out myself actually… Everyone knows I love history, so that would be the most obvious route to take and I guess that’s what I’m gonna be doing when I leave Stamford but I don’t know If I want to be proper historian… Its all just so difficult - there’s so many possibilities, isn’t there?

[unclearchie]

Why can’t I do anything right?

[finn--nelson]

Is something wrong bud? You can talk to me ‘ya know.

[unclearchie]

Well, nah its…ya know what mate, I could really do with a chat with you at some point. I’ve been feeling a bit…well not myself, if ya get me?

[finn--nelson]

Course. I’ve got footie today but tomorrow, yeah? Park?

[unclearchie]

Yeah sure, see you then mate.

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop

Archie hadn’t been feeling himself lately. He didn’t know what the was wrong, really. Everything was fine at college - he was getting straight A’s as usual, the gang was all back together and he’d finally come out to everyone. But there was something nagging at the back of his mind. It was like he still he had his little secret. It was like there was something he didn’t want everyone to find out. 

Bumping into Chop was perfect. It gave him a distraction. And Chop’s solution to anyone feeling slightly down was to drink. And today, Archie didn’t care about how bad it was door you or how he was slowly loosing money. Especially after quitting his job at the leisure centre (which was mainly to do with this random stress and panic attacks Archie was experiencing. 

Archie left his house at quarter to, he fancied a walk - maybe it would help him calm down a little and collect his thoughts. He knew he couldn’t be acting like this in front of Chop. Archie loved Chop, but it wasn’t like it was with Finn. Him and Finn had been friends since primary. It was like they had a special bond, something that no one else could touch. Chop on the other hand crashed into their lives during secondary. He’d always been this chilled out, cool, easy-going lad who loved to party. That was what made him so great, you could just forget all of your worries and have a laugh with him. You never had to be serious. But he’d always be there for you if you did. 

As Archie approached the Black Swan, he noticed some of the lads from college - not particularly friendly ones either. He noticed that after coming-out, people did act different towards him. Some of it was actually really positive, people seemed to think he was brave and that it was cool he could be himself. It gave others another chance to take the piss. But Archie wasn’t in the mood for that right now. Once the lads standing outside the pub doors noticed him, they starting to smile but Archie just pushed passed them. The first thing he saw was Chop’s brilliant, goofy smile, so he headed over.

[captainfckingtentshop]

Chop had been living the high-life. Unlike the rest of the gang, he didn’t go to college meaning he could be living it up. That was only when he was off work, mind. But that didn’t seem to bother him, he was always up for a laugh and a pint. Recently they’d been so much shit and drama with everyone (which made him glad he left college at the start), that he just wanted things to go back to normal. like they were during the summer last year. When he bumped into Archie, looking pretty down in the dumps actually, he knew it was a great time to grab a beer with his mate.

Chop had a lot of mates. He was what you’d call a people pleaser. Those dickhead lads from college, the ones giving Archie a hard time, well, Chop didn’t wanna muck it all up. He had a pretty good set up, but he knew what they were saying and doing was wrong. Archie was one of his best mates and he should never had let it got so far. He’d been a right tosser to be frank. This drink would be perfect to make sure everything was alright between the two. He was sure it would be, I mean Chop doesn’t go around kissing all of his mates. 

Chop walked towards the pub, taking in the sunshine. His tan was slowly coming back and he couldn’t wait for the summer. The summer with the gang was always lit. Heading out to the pubs, house parties, more sexy parties - the lot! He walked through the doors, greeted the lad behind the bar with his cheeky smile and got two pints in. He found the usual spot the gang located and sat down. He kept checking his watch and straightening out his tracksuit bottoms, like he was trying to impress someone. Archie may seem like a bit of a toff, but Chop didn’t get why he was acting so nervous. 

Chop couldn’t be more relieved when Archie walked through the door, even if he was looking rather flustered. He smiled and signalled him over, pointing out he’d got the first round it.

“‘ere he is!” Chop patted Archie on the back as his friend slipped into his seat. “I’ve missed you lad”, he pointed his finger towards Archie and smiled. He just wanted everything to be normal and the best way to do that was to put on his cheeky, chappy front. “It feels like I haven’t seen you properly, in ages! What ‘ya been up ta?”

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop p.2

Archie chuckled at how happy Chop was. That was one of the great things about Chop; he always seem so happy and if he wasn't he'd find a way to make that so. Archie wouldn't say he was a sad person, but after everything that happened he was finding it hard to be happy all the time. Maybe he was just stressed. This was his last summer in Stamford before he left for uni. It was a scary thought. Or maybe he'd just become overwhelmed with the past few weeks and it had finally toppled him. Whatever the case, a pint with Chop would always do you good.

"Alright? Yeah I know mate, I think everyone's just needed a bit of space, you know." Archie paused, mulling over what to say next. What to say without intiating a situstion. "A lots happened." He glanced down at his glass, took a quick swig of the drink and looked Chop straight in the eyes. He could see his friend looking down, at his half-empty glass, as if he wanted to say something but was too embarrassed.

"But I think everything is gonna be alright now, right? Just need the gang to be back together and it'll be cool. It'll be great, yeah?" Archie was trying to reassure himself as much as he was Chop. Everything was gonna be alright.

[unclearchie]

Why can’t I do anything right?

[littleprincesschlo]

Oh Archie, what’s up?

[unclearchie]

Oh Chlo, nothing much. You know me, I always get in such a tick about stuff haha. But how’re you, after everything?

[unclearchie]

Why can’t I do anything right?

[finn--nelson]

Is something wrong bud? You can talk to me ‘ya know.

[unclearchie]

Well, nah its...ya know what mate, I could really do with a chat with you at some point. I’ve been feeling a bit...well not myself, if ya get me?

[unclearchie]

Passing The Time | archie and chop

Archie hadn't been feeling himself lately. He didn't know what the was wrong, really. Everything was fine at college - he was getting straight A's as usual, the gang was all back together and he'd finally come out to everyone. But there was something nagging at the back of his mind. It was like he still he had his little secret. It was like there was something he didn't want everyone to find out. 

Bumping into Chop was perfect. It gave him a distraction. And Chop's solution to anyone feeling slightly down was to drink. And today, Archie didn't care about how bad it was for you or how he was slowly running out of money. Especially after quitting his job at the leisure centre (which was mainly to do with this random stress and panic attacks Archie was experiencing).

Archie left his house at quarter to, he fancied a walk - maybe it would help him calm down a little and collect his thoughts. He knew he couldn’t be acting like this in front of Chop. Archie loved Chop, but it wasn’t like it was with Finn. Him and Finn had been friends since primary. It was like they had a special bond, something that no one else could touch. Chop on the other hand crashed into their lives during secondary. He’d always been this chilled out, cool, easy-going lad who loved to party. That was what made him so great, you could just forget all of your worries and have a laugh with him. You never had to be serious. But he’d always be there for you if you did. 

As Archie approached the Black Swan, he noticed some of the lads from college - not particularly friendly ones either. He noticed that after coming-out, people did act different towards him. Some of it was actually really positive, people seemed to think he was brave and that it was cool he could be himself. It gave others another chance to take the piss. But Archie wasn’t in the mood for that right now. Once the lads standing outside the pub doors noticed him, they starting to smile but Archie just pushed passed them. The first thing he saw was Chop’s brilliant, goofy smile, so he headed over.