No one talks about the personality shift as you get older. Where you no longer want to be impressive, you want to be rested. You want to be regulated and completely unavailable to anything that drains you.
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No one talks about the personality shift as you get older. Where you no longer want to be impressive, you want to be rested. You want to be regulated and completely unavailable to anything that drains you.
“I’m so grateful the Bible doesn’t hide the failures of those who were used in mighty ways. The people God chose struggled with sin and the hardships of life. And yet even through their imperfections our mighty God did amazing things.”
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To deny oneself means: to give up one's bad habits, to root out of the heart all that ties us to the world; not to cherish bad desires and thoughts; to quench and suppress bad thoughts; to avoid occasions of sin; not to do or desire anything from self-love, but to do everything out of love for God. To deny oneself means, according to the Apostle Paul, to be dead to sin and the world, but alive to God.
Indication of the Way into the Kingdom of Heaven: An Introduction to Christian Life by Saint Innocent of Alaska
David couldn't have become king without facing Goliath, and Joseph wouldn't have become a great leader if he hadn't been sold into slavery.
Often, the beginning of God's plan feels painful, but the end is always filled with glory.
God often uses difficult paths to lead us to a place of purpose.
Don't lose hope; this could be the first step towards the fulfillment of His promise.
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'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the Lord. - Isaiah 55:8
Learned of a recent pride event that was all ages. Kids running around with topless women, penises everywhere, naked men, BDSM, and even the church of Satan teaching that Satan is about love and equality.
The photos I’ve seen of these events with kids present makes me feel so sick. Normalizing pedophilia, and teaching kids that Satan is their friend. And people demand I be quiet and not stay mad? I’m gonna share a few just for the sake of truth telling. I censored the breasts and the children. I refuse to show the BDSM and nude men in kink gear.
Please pray for these people. Pray for salvation to sweep over them and all of us. Pray for Christ to be magnified and sin and Satan to be condemned. And pray for the children- please. They are being subjected to adults who believe their sex lives belong in a child’s mind. It’s horrific.
Ban children from pride parades. Heck, make it a crime to bring anyone under the age of 18 to any of these events. It's disturbing that people don't think that satanism (and any unregulated religious independent group) and pride can create perfect environments for predators. Protect children!!!
My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow Me:
And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of My hand. - John 10:27-28
Journal: Anxious thoughts July 19, 2025
I’m feeling so anxious. It’s that same kind of anxiety I felt when I first moved to Toronto… and again when I went back after leaving my ex. Except, the second time I left and returned to him, I wonder if I did it just because it felt familiar. It was my comfort zone—even if it wasn’t good for me.
But weeks after going back to him, I started second-guessing everything—him, us, being back. This was all before I was saved, probably around 2020, and I was still in the sex industry then. I remember the anxiety being so heavy when I first got into that life. That exact same feeling is creeping in again now… and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because something is about to change. But if it’s from God, why does it come with anxiety?
Yesterday, I met some new people in the faith. It was good, but afterward I started to feel overwhelmed. I realized I might have some ADHD traits—I'm antsy, I talk a lot, and I don't leave much room to just listen. I’m quick to respond, and I think that’s what’s been eating me up lately. Like I’m not slowing down enough to be present.
There’s this guy I went to high school with who’s now so on fire for God. And while I love that about him, his energy actually makes me feel more anxious. I think he might have some ADHD too, and maybe that’s what’s clashing. But still, he's showing nothing but green flags.
Yet, even after all that, I realized I’m not ready for a relationship. And that’s okay. I know, deep down, You’re still healing me, Lord. Healing all the years I spent lost in the world.
When it was time to go home, I got a parking ticket and another one before I got there, which is overwhelming because I am struggling financially. I drove my friend home that night and we stayed in the car talking about everything and she prayed over me about this sexual torment I've been going through.
Jesus, I give You this burden. I know You already carried it to the cross, so I don’t need to. Strengthen me. Help me understand why I feel this way. Is it the anticipation of change? Is it stepping out of my comfort zone again? I don’t want to force anything if it’s not where You’re calling me.
Maybe it’s just everything that’s happened all at once: getting those tickets, meeting new people, barely sleeping, prayer over my torment, evangelizing the frist time and then waking up the next day to a completely different routine. I just feel out of place, and sick. And if I’ve tried to take the pen out of Your hand again, Lord, please forgive me.
When I think about evangelizing, I get overwhelmed. I don’t even understand why. Yesterday, while I was doing it for the very first time, I felt this beautiful peace and excitement like I was walking in my purpose. But now I’m doubting it. Was it false? Was the enemy messing with me? Or are You trying to tell me something, God? Like why am I feeling the same feeling I did when I moved to Toronto? Back then wasn't for You, it was all for self and money everything that goes against Your Will, but this time it's for You, talking about You, helping others, being in community, respecting my body, Your body!!...Is my heart posture not good? Am I doing it for You God? or for the people who's there evangelizing. What are You trying to tell/show me?!
I thought if something was from You, it would come with peace. So why did I feel peace while doing it, but now feel anxious just thinking about going again?
I hate this feeling.
Holy Spirit, please help me understand what’s going on inside me. Am I distracted? Am I under attack? Am I overthinking?
Right now, I don’t even know what I want. I don’t want to be alone… but when I’m with people, I just want to be alone. Like what even is that? Lol. 😭
When the workplace isn’t safe anymore: A personal reflection on HR, mental health, and grace
For a while, I told myself to just push through.
Work was tense, but manageable. At least that’s what I thought until the days started blending into each other with anxiety, dread, and a heaviness I couldn’t shake. The truth is, working day after day in an unhealthy environment slowly chipped away at my peace, my confidence, and my joy.
I was partnered daily with someone who didn’t respect me not in an overtly aggressive way, but in the subtle, passive ways that can sometimes be more damaging. Strange looks in front of clients. Awkward silences. Small slights that grew into bigger resentments over time. And because we were always side by side with no break or buffer from each other, things started to build until I began to shut down emotionally, just to cope.
Eventually, I reached out for help. I went to my manager, thinking, “Surely someone will see what’s going on. Surely someone will care.”
But their response made it clear: they were more interested in managing optics than managing people.
Instead of long term support or accountability, I was offered a short two week placement somewhere else like a band-aid over a bullet wound. To make matters worse, when I requested a meeting with my manger to discuss about what my return to work would look like but instaed HR showed up without warning — which made it feel less like a conversation and more like an ambush, like is this LEGAL?! I sat there wondering if my voice even mattered, if anything I’d shared had actually been heard. Because not once did we get into detail what to be prepared for what my return to work would look like.
And still, I wrestled with my own part in it too. I didn’t always handle things well when working at that enviroment. There were moments I responded in frustration, ignored things I shouldn’t have, and let hurt harden my heart.
But I also know this: I was trying to survive in an environment where it was nearly impossible to thrive.
I was trying to be faithful in a place that no longer felt safe.
“That’s just how it is” — But what if it shouldn’t be?
When I opened up to my sister, she gently passed along what someone else had told her: “That’s just how HR is. That’s the culture in corporate jobs. You just have to take it for what it is, and move on.”
She told me to go back, and start looking for something new quietly, without rocking the boat.
And I love her, I know she meant well. Maybe she was trying to protect me from further hurt like financial. But something about that didn’t sit right in my spirit.
Because I can’t just sit with injustice and swallow it. I can’t pretend dysfunction is okay just because it’s normal. And I won’t train my mind to accept abuse in the name of professionalism.
I believe in peace, but not passivity. I believe in grace, but not silence that enables harm.
It’s like being told, “If you talk about Jesus, you’ll be killed.”
Well… then I guess I’d die.
Because I can’t be someone else to stay comfortable in a broken system.
This isn't just about work it’s about my integrity. It’s about how I walk with God, even when it costs me. I would rather be uncomfortable with Christ than cozy in a place that’s crushing my soul.
What I'm learning though this?
Here are a few things I’m still learning, with Jesus walking beside me:
Toxic doesn’t always scream, sometimes it whispers.
It’s easy to think toxic work environments are all shouting matches or dramatic fallouts. But sometimes, it’s subtle — a cold shoulder, quiet retaliation, lack of accountability, or fake professionalism that covers real damage.
Human Resources should protect people, not power.
When HR fails to advocate or intervene in meaningful ways, it reinforces the very harm it’s supposed to prevent. I’ve learned that “policy” without compassion is just PR. My sister defined them as the "bad cops." you don't want to talk to.
Your mental health is not a luxury, it’s a necessity.
God didn’t create us to burn out or break down. We are called to guard our hearts, not constantly expose them to harm in the name of being a “team player.”
Boundaries are biblical.
Even Jesus withdrew to quiet places. Even Jesus didn’t entrust Himself to everyone. Knowing when to step back, say no, or seek space isn’t selfish, it’s wise.
You can walk away gracefully.
This was a hard one. I wanted to “win” to be heard, understood, maybe even validated. But sometimes, healing begins when we stop waiting for that, and choose to walk away with peace instead of proving our point.
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I’m annoyed because it was after the call that all of this hit me. I wish I would’ve said something in the moment. I did send my manager an email right away, just to say how the surprise presence of HR caught me off guard — but still, I couldn’t help but feel like I missed my chance to say what really needed to be said.
But maybe…that’s okay.
Because choosing to walk away with peace instead of proving a point is the most powerful thing I can do right now.
Honestly? I don’t know what to do next. I feel a bit stuck but I’m choosing to surrender it to Jesus and hold His hand through it all.
It reminds me of a child who runs back to their Father saying, “They’re being mean to me!” And the Father gently says, “Come with me. I’ll handle this.” That’s what I see right now, hehe.
Because vengeance isn’t my job — it’s God’s. And He sees everything I can’t explain, and He can do what I never could.
If you’re in a work situation that’s crushing your spirit, please know you’re not weak for feeling drained, you’re human. And you’re allowed to pursue peace. You’re allowed to seek health, not just a paycheck.
And most of all, God sees. He sees what others overlook. He hears the prayers behind closed doors. And He knows how to lead you from survival to safety, from exhaustion to rest.
I’m still walking this out. But I know now: I deserve a place where I can breathe, grow, and be treated with dignity and so do you.
June 19, Jesus Calling
I AM THE FIRM FOUNDATION on which you can dance and sing and celebrate My Presence. This is My high and holy calling for you; receive it as a precious gift. Glorifying and enjoying Me is a higher priority than maintaining a tidy, structured life. Give up your striving to keep everything under control--an impossible task and a waste of precious energy.
My guidance for each of My children is unique. That's why listening to Me is so vital for your well-being. Let me prepare you for the day that awaits you and point you in the right direction. I am with you continually, so don't be intimidated by fear. Thought it stalks you, it cannot harm you, as long as you cling to My hand. Keep your eyes on Me, enjoying Peace in My Presence.
Psalm 5:11 But let all who take refuge in you rejoice; let them ever sing for joy,and spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may exult in you.
Ephesians 3:20-21 Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
Jude 24-25 Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy, to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen.
Joshua 1:5 No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you or forsake you.
Devotions for Every Day of the Year, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young
June 18, Jesus Calling
YOU ARE MY BELOVED CHILD. I chose you before the foundation of the world, to walk with Me along paths designed uniquely for you. Concentrate on keeping in step with Me, instead of trying to anticipate My plans for you. If you trust that My plans are to prosper you and not to harm you, you can relax and enjoy the present moment.
Your hope and your future are rooted in heaven, where eternal ecstasy awaits you. Nothing can rob you of your inheritance of unimaginable riches and well-being. Sometimes I grant you glimpses of your glorious future, to encourage you and spur you on. But your main focus should be staying close to Me. I set the pace in keeping with your needs and My purposes.
Ephesians 1:4 just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him
Proverbs 16:9 The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Ephesians 1:13-14 In him you also, when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, who is the guarantee of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it, to the praise of his glory.
Devotions for Every Day of the Year, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young
how do people function when they lose their usual routine cause for me it's just not possible and once i fall off my routine everything falls apart.
Matthew 5:4 NIV - Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
June 17, Jesus Calling
LEARN TO LAUGH at yourself more freely. Don't take yourself or your circumstances so seriously. Relax and know that I am God with you. When you desire My will above all else, life becomes much less threatening. Stop trying to monitor My responsibilities--things that are beyond your control. Find freedom by accepting the boundaries of your domain.
Laughter lightens your load and lifts your heart into heavenly places. Your laughter rises to heaven and blends with angelic melodies of praise. Just as parents delight in the laughter of their children, so I delight in hearing My children laugh. I rejoice when you trust Me enough to enjoy your life lightheartedly.
Do not miss the Joy of My Presence by carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. Rather, take My yoke upon you and learn from Me. My yoke is comfortable and pleasant; My burden is light and easily borne.
Proverbs 17:22
A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.
Proverbs 31:25
Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come.
Matthew 1:23
"Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and they shall call his name Immanuel”
Matthew 11:28-30
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Devotions for Every Day of the Year, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young
June 16, Jesus Calling
STAY ON THE HIGH ROAD WITH ME. Many voices clamor for your attention, trying to divert you to another path. But I have called you to walk ever so closely with Me, soaking in My Presence, living in My Peace. This is My unique design for you, planned before the world began.
I have called each of My children to a different path, distinctly designed for that one. Do not let anyone convince you that his path is the only right way. And be careful not to extol your path as superior to anothers way. What I require of you is to act justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with Me--wherever I lead.
John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Ephesians 2:10
For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
Micah 6:8 He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
Devotions for Every Day of the Year, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young
June 15, Jesus Calling
WHEN YOU APPROACH ME in stillness and in trust, you are strengthened. You need a buffer zone of silence around you in order to focus on things that are unseen. Since I am invisible, you must not let your senses dominate your thinking. The curse of this age is overstimulation of the senses, which blocks out awareness of the unseen world.
The tangible world still reflects My Glory to those who have eyes that see and ears that hear. Spending time alone with Me is the best way to develop seeing eyes and hearing ears. The goal is to be aware of unseen things even as you live out your life in the visible world.
2 CORINTHIANS 4:18
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
ISAIAH 6:3
And they were calling to one another: “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.”
PSALM 119:18
Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law.
PSALM 130:5
I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope.
Devotions for Every Day of the Year, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young